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Thursday, June 21, 2007

WOW this is hilarious.... i have to share it.... i don't remember that last time i've laughed so hard and for so long- my coworker and i were literally in tears....

online convo w/ sang- friend from NC, for those of you who dunno (about my "boyfriend"- TOTALLY made up... i thought he'd know i was kidding, but he believed me, so i kept going till i felt bad lol )

YH: my bf would be mad
YH: hehe
Sang: Huh?
Sang: you have one now?
YH: uh yeah
YH: i thought we talked about this
Sang: no we didn't
Sang: you two timer
Sang: i hate you
YH: yeah he's a big fob
YH: he lives in korea
YH: i've actually never met him hehe
YH: he's my friend's cousin
Sang: you are gay

Auto response from YH: yay

Sang: arey ou serious?
YH: yeah hahaha i know that's kinda weird
Sang: ?
Sang: i don't get it
YH: but we see each other over webcam everyday
YH: so it's fine for now
Sang: no way
Sang: please tell me you're not serious
YH: he's coming to visit mid-july
YH: the weekend after you guys come
Sang: that's like you've got mail ish
YH: eek i know!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
YH: it's really weird
Sang: you like him that much?
YH: but i really like him
Sang: omg
Sang: so he doesn't cheat on you
YH: yeah he already told me he loves me
Sang: omg!
Sang: omg
YH: i didn't say it back though
Sang: i don't know what to say
Sang: it may change once you guys hang out more
Sang: this is just based on conversation
YH: no no
YH: we talk over webcam too
Sang: thats like one aspect
Sang: yeah
Sang: same thing
Sang: conversation
YH: haha it's weird but i like it b/c he helped me improve my korean
Sang: you guys don't know any mannerisms
Sang: hahaha
YH: haha
YH: we eat together
YH: like "have dinner" together
YH: :-[
YH: is that weird?
YH: but for him, i guess it's breakfast
YH: but dinner for me
Sang: HAHAHA
Sang: omg
Sang: i can't take it
Sang: i mean its cute
Sang: but i think reality may set in at some point
Sang: how long can you do that ya know?
YH: he sends me a bunch of stuff too, like stuffed animals
YH: it's cute
Sang: weird
YH: HAHA
Sang: nah but seriously
Sang: good luck
YH: no actually, my parents are coming up when he comes over
YH: he wants to meet them "formally", he says
YH: i dunno what that means haha
YH: but he's pretty excited and stuff
Sang: omg
Sang: that's not good
Sang: what do your parents say
Sang: this could be something
Sang: then it couldn't
Sang: wow
Sang: i don't know what to say
Sang: its funny though
YH: well my parents think it's kinda weird
YH: but i begged them to go w/ it
YH: so they're giving him the benefit of the doubt
YH: actually
YH: promise not to tell anyone?
Sang: i won't
Sang: but it is weird
YH: no wait
YH: i haven't told you yet
YH: i'm thinking of moving there
YH: for a few years
YH: like in august
Sang: damn
Sang: what the hell
Sang: well that's the "make or break it" time
YH: no it'll definitely be make it
YH: i know we won't do anything stupid, but i THINK he's gonna talk to my parents about marriage
YH: but it definitely wouldn't be for another year or two
YH: AT LEAST
Sang: omg
Sang: omg
Sang: this is heavy
YH: so seriously you CAN"T tell anyone
YH: only my girlfriends know
YH: well some ppl know about the guy in general
YH: but not about how serious it is
Sang: okay
Sang: but
Sang: i kind of said something to marv
Sang: before you told me not to
Sang: but i told him not to say anything
YH: uhhh what'd you say
Sang: i just said "yh's got a boyfriend?"
Sang: and he was like "really, who?"
Sang: and i said "some fob in korea"
YH: oh ok
Sang: sorry
YH: just don't tell him about the engagement part
YH: b/c i dunno if i'm just speculating
YH: i could be totally wrong
YH: if taejoo found out  <-- took that name from a korea drama i'm watching haha
YH: he might be like uhhh what?
Sang: hahah
Sang: yeah
Sang: you think he's gonna propose for real though

Auto response from YH: yay

Sang: that's crazy
YH: i dunno!!!!!!!!!!!! i kinda hope so
YH: i'm SOOOOOOO freakin nervous
YH: his cousin told me he gets really serious about girls
YH: but he's never been THIS serious before
Sang: wowreally?
Sang: damn
Sang: does he want to move here?
Sang: if he does
Sang: then you have o worry about immigration paperwork too
Sang: i hope it works out for you
YH: no, he was born here
Sang: it sounds like you really like each other
YH: but has lived in korea since 2 years old
Sang: oh nice
Sang: that's good then
Sang: he can come anytime
YH: yeah
YH: i'm paying for his plane ticket though
YH: haha
Sang: how old is he?
YH: well he doesn't have a job right now
Sang: i see
YH: he used to be a "waiter" at a booking club
YH: haha
YH: like the ones who drag the girls to the tables/rooms
YH: :-\
YH: so i'm still trying to get over that weird fact
Sang: hahaha
Sang: yeah that's wired
YH: he's 35 - 37 haha (he won't tell me)
Sang: huh?!
Sang: he's not that old is he?
YH: yeah he is, i know he's either 35, 36, or 37
Sang: oh shit!
Sang: he's got old balls
YH: haha noooo he still looks pretty young
YH: for his age
YH: like 29?
Sang: eh
Sang: haha
Sang: old balls
Sang: is he christian?
YH: no he's buddhist
YH: but "not practicing", he says
Sang: i see
Sang: my mother was buddhist
YH: oh cool
YH: maybe they can meet
YH: lol
Sang: HAHAHA
Sang: yeah
Sang: man
Sang: i'm still in disbelief
Sang: you better not be messin with me
YH: well if you come up when he does, you can meet him in person
YH: same time as me! hahaha
Sang: uh

Auto response from YH: yay

Sang: no
Sang: its okay
YH: aw but he might be moving back here w/ me
YH: in a few years
YH: we'll probably settle down in durham
YH: he thinks it's a good area
YH: and he wants to open his own korean night club in durham
YH: like around the southpoint area
Sang: uh
Sang: korean nightclub?
YH: yeah like a booking club
Sang: did you tell him how many koreans were actually here?
Sang: its a fresh idea though
YH: well he's hoping it'll draw more koreans to the area
Sang: i think you can get anyone to come
Sang: possibly
YH: like to relocate to durham
Sang: there will be an influx soon i'm sure
YH: for the club
Sang: its a good idea not just for koreans
YH: nah he's pretty racist
YH: it'll be a korean cluib
YH: he says only ppl who LOOK korean can get in
YH: haha
Sang: HAHAHAH
Sang: omg
Sang: that's hilarious
Sang: hewon't mean it when no money comes in for being racist
Sang: KKK
Sang: name the place that
Sang: Korean Korean Korean
YH: HAHAHAHAH
YH: omg too funny
Sang: that would be funny
Sang: and then put “only” after it
YH: but nah, that's why he quit the other booking job
Sang: watch all these white people show up
Sang: i see
YH: b/c he didn't let a whole bunch of RICHass japanese ppl in
Sang: hahahahaha
YH: and his owner got pissed
Sang: wowo
YH: so he quit
Sang: racist
Sang: you
Sang: and he wants to live in america?
Sang: hmm
YH: well he says since i'm  here and all
YH: hehe
YH: and my family and my korean friends
Sang: wow
Sang: okay
YH: so you HAVE to hang out w/ us
YH: and maybe he can seriously meet your mom
YH: since they're both buddhists
Sang: no
Sang: my mom was buddhist
Sang: she converted to christianity
Sang: but she could probably give him an outlook
YH: no he's pretty close-minded when it comes to religion and race
Sang: i see
Sang: and you're okay with that?
YH: for now
YH: i used to hate close-minded ppl
YH:  but i can see some of his points, too
Sang: hmm
Sang: well
Sang: we shall see
Sang: cause you are so not close minded
Sang: does this mean he's not gonna meet any of your friends?
YH: lol
Sang: blaire? <-- one of my close friends (she's black)
Sang: etc
YH: oh DEFINITELY NOT blaire
YH: omg
Sang: see?
Sang: i don't know how you're gonna do that
Sang: eventually won't that weigh on your mind
Sang: like i'm getting married
Sang: and can't even invite my other friends
Sang: does he know you have all these non asian friends too?
YH: not really, i don't talk about my nonkorean friends
YH: b/c he doesn't like it
YH: so i just stopped
YH: IF we get married, i'd probably have a private "girls'" reception
YH: w/ my good nonkorean friends
Sang: man
YH: well maybe coed so like my nonkorean guy friends can come too
Sang: i dont' think they would be cool with that
Sang: that's not good
Sang: you can't hide ish like that
YH: well i think i'm pretty good at hiding stuff
YH: like you didn't even know i was dating someone
YH: well I guess we haven't really been out on an actual "date"
Sang: yeah that's what i'm saying
YH: except our dinners and movies
YH: haha
Sang: all i'm saying too is that hiding something is not somehting you should be proud of
Sang: excuse my frankness
YH: yeah i'm not proud of it, but i'm willing to make that sacrifice
YH: i just love his ambition
YH: especially with the whole korean nightclub thing
YH: in durham
YH: he has SOOOO much potential
Sang: yeah

Auto response from YH: yay

Sang: i agree
Sang: not trying to bust your chops
YH: aw you do????
Sang: i hope youre happy
YH: see,  i think you guys would get along great
Sang: but i would say something to him
Sang: if he was getting on my nonasian friends
Sang: you know

Sang: as long as he does you good
Sang: its all good
YH: well i guess he gets pissed at me a lot
YH: but i suck it up
YH: and look at the good side of him
YH: like sometimes he's in good moods and nice
YH: so then i'm happy
Sang: uh
Sang: he better not be a beater
Sang: i'll kill him
Sang: if he touches you
YH: awww thanks, sang!!
Sang: seriously
Sang: cause you're wifey material yh....and guys need to treat you well
YH: nah sometimes i get scared when he yells
YH: awww thanksssss
Sang: why does he yell?
YH: just when i accidently mention my nonkorean friends
YH: or talk about my guy friends
YH: or partying
Sang: uh
Sang: i don't know if i like that
YH: well...
YH: it's ok
YH: i don't party THAT much anymore anyway
YH: and once i go to korea
Sang: nah it ain' t bia
YH: i can stop altogether
YH: sang  ... couldn't take it anymore, so i changed my away msg
Sang: yeah?

Auto response from YH: SANG'S A GULLIBLE MOFO

Sang: HAHAHAHA
Sang: ASSHOLE
YH: OMGGGGGGGGGGG
Sang: oh wow
YH: MY FACE HAS BEEN RED FROM LAUGHING SO HARD
YH: i seriously can't believe you bought all that
YH: seriously
Sang: i take back everything i ever said nice about you
Sang: i didn't in the back of my head
YH: HAHAHAHAHHAAHAHA
YH: OMG
Sang: but you a relentless heffa
Sang: and for a matter of fact
YH: OMG
Sang: you aren't wifey material
Sang: i hate you
YH: I MADE UP SOOOOOO MANY LIES
YH: KKK
YH: HAHAHAHHAH
Sang: i hate you
YH: omg
YH: too funny
Sang: i hate you
Sang: i knew it
YH: no you didn't
YH: haha
YH: webcam?! i don't even have one
Sang: i really don't like you right now
YH: eating together?! wtf
YH: hahahha
YH: booking club waiter?!?!? korean nightclub in durham?!?!
Sang: yeah i don't believe it
Sang: i hate you
Sang: seriously
YH: omg seriously
YH: that was TOOOOOOOOOO funny
YH: i can't believe you believed me
YH: i wasn't gonna keep it going for so long
Sang: i'm not marrying you anymore
YH: but you kept believing me and rooting me on
YH: hahaha

**PS in reference to dyu's comment- in case anyone else is wondering, i copied/pasted it into word and did a "replace all" to change the screen names... it took 2 sec's ;)


Monday, June 19, 2006

This is really long, but definitely something worth taking the time to read...

 

Stanford Report, June 14, 2005

'You've got to find what you love,' Jobs says

This is the text of the Commencement address by Steve Jobs, CEO of Apple Computer and of Pixar Animation Studios, delivered on June 12, 2005.

 I am honored to be with you today at your commencement from one of the finest universities in the world. I never graduated from college. Truth be told, this is the closest I've ever gotten to a college graduation. Today I want to tell you three stories from my life. That's it. No big deal. Just three stories.

The first story is about connecting the dots. I dropped out of Reed College after the first 6 months, but then stayed around as a drop-in for another 18 months or so before I really quit. So why did I drop out?

It started before I was born. My biological mother was a young, unwed college graduate student, and she decided to put me up for adoption. She felt very strongly that I should be adopted by college graduates, so everything was all set for me to be adopted at birth by a lawyer and his wife. Except that when I popped out they decided at the last minute that they really wanted a girl. So my parents, who were on a waiting list, got a call in the middle of the night asking: "We have an unexpected baby boy; do you want him?" They said: "Of course." My biological mother later found out that my mother had never graduated from college and that my father had never graduated from high school. She refused to sign the final adoption papers. She only relented a few months later when my parents promised that I would someday go to college.

And 17 years later I did go to college. But I naively chose a college that was almost as expensive as Stanford, and all of my working-class parents' savings were being spent on my college tuition. After six months, I couldn't see the value in it. I had no idea what I wanted to do with my life and no idea how college was going to help me figure it out. And here I was spending all of the money my parents had saved their entire life. So I decided to drop out and trust that it would all work out OK. It was pretty scary at the time, but looking back it was one of the best decisions I ever made. The minute I dropped out I could stop taking the required classes that didn't interest me, and begin dropping in on the ones that looked interesting.

It wasn't all romantic. I didn't have a dorm room, so I slept on the floor in friends' rooms, I returned coke bottles for the 5?deposits to buy food with, and I would walk the 7 miles across town every Sunday night to get one good meal a week at the Hare Krishna temple. I loved it. And much of what I stumbled into by following my curiosity and intuition turned out to be priceless later on. Let me give you one example:

Reed College at that time offered perhaps the best calligraphy instruction in the country. Throughout the campus every poster, every label on every drawer, was beautifully hand calligraphed. Because I had dropped out and didn't have to take the normal classes, I decided to take a calligraphy class to learn how to do this. I learned about serif and san serif typefaces, about varying the amount of space between different letter combinations, about what makes great typography great. It was beautiful, historical, artistically subtle in a way that science can't capture, and I found it fascinating.

None of this had even a hope of any practical application in my life. But ten years later, when we were designing the first Macintosh computer, it all came back to me. And we designed it all into the Mac. It was the first computer with beautiful typography. If I had never dropped in on that single course in college, the Mac would have never had multiple typefaces or proportionally spaced fonts. And since Windows just copied the Mac, its likely that no personal computer would have them. If I had never dropped out, I would have never dropped in on this calligraphy class, and personal computers might not have the wonderful typography that they do. Of course it was impossible to connect the dots looking forward when I was in college. But it was very, very clear looking backwards ten years later.

Again, you can't connect the dots looking forward; you can only connect them looking backwards. So you have to trust that the dots will somehow connect in your future. You have to trust in something - your gut, destiny, life, karma, whatever. This approach has never let me down, and it has made all the difference in my life.

My second story is about love and loss.

I was lucky ?I found what I loved to do early in life. Woz and I started Apple in my parents garage when I was 20. We worked hard, and in 10 years Apple had grown from just the two of us in a garage into a $2 billion company with over 4000 employees. We had just released our finest creation - the Macintosh - a year earlier, and I had just turned 30. And then I got fired. How can you get fired from a company you started? Well, as Apple grew we hired someone who I thought was very talented to run the company with me, and for the first year or so things went well. But then our visions of the future began to diverge and eventually we had a falling out. When we did, our Board of Directors sided with him. So at 30 I was out. And very publicly out. What had been the focus of my entire adult life was gone, and it was devastating.

I really didn't know what to do for a few months. I felt that I had let the previous generation of entrepreneurs down - that I had dropped the baton as it was being passed to me. I met with David Packard and Bob Noyce and tried to apologize for screwing up so badly. I was a very public failure, and I even thought about running away from the valley. But something slowly began to dawn on me ?I still loved what I did. The turn of events at Apple had not changed that one bit. I had been rejected, but I was still in love. And so I decided to start over.

I didn't see it then, but it turned out that getting fired from Apple was the best thing that could have ever happened to me. The heaviness of being successful was replaced by the lightness of being a beginner again, less sure about everything. It freed me to enter one of the most creative periods of my life.

During the next five years, I started a company named NeXT, another company named Pixar, and fell in love with an amazing woman who would become my wife. Pixar went on to create the worlds first computer animated feature film, Toy Story, and is now the most successful animation studio in the world. In a remarkable turn of events, Apple bought NeXT, I retuned to Apple, and the technology we developed at NeXT is at the heart of Apple's current renaissance. And Laurene and I have a wonderful family together.

I'm pretty sure none of this would have happened if I hadn't been fired from Apple. It was awful tasting medicine, but I guess the patient needed it. Sometimes life hits you in the head with a brick. Don't lose faith. I'm convinced that the only thing that kept me going was that I loved what I did. You've got to find what you love. And that is as true for your work as it is for your lovers. Your work is going to fill a large part of your life, and the only way to be truly satisfied is to do what you believe is great work. And the only way to do great work is to love what you do. If you haven't found it yet, keep looking. Don't settle. As with all matters of the heart, you'll know when you find it. And, like any great relationship, it just gets better and better as the years roll on. So keep looking until you find it. Don't settle.

My third story is about death.

When I was 17, I read a quote that went something like: "If you live each day as if it was your last, someday you'll most certainly be right." It made an impression on me, and since then, for the past 33 years, I have looked in the mirror every morning and asked myself: "If today were the last day of my life, would I want to do what I am about to do today?" And whenever the answer has been "No" for too many days in a row, I know I need to change something.

Remembering that I'll be dead soon is the most important tool I've ever encountered to help me make the big choices in life. Because almost everything ?all external expectations, all pride, all fear of embarrassment or failure - these things just fall away in the face of death, leaving only what is truly important. Remembering that you are going to die is the best way I know to avoid the trap of thinking you have something to lose. You are already naked. There is no reason not to follow your heart.

About a year ago I was diagnosed with cancer. I had a scan at 7:30 in the morning, and it clearly showed a tumor on my pancreas. I didn't even know what a pancreas was. The doctors told me this was almost certainly a type of cancer that is incurable, and that I should expect to live no longer than three to six months. My doctor advised me to go home and get my affairs in order, which is doctor's code for prepare to die. It means to try to tell your kids everything you thought you'd have the next 10 years to tell them in just a few months. It means to make sure everything is buttoned up so that it will be as easy as possible for your family. It means to say your goodbyes.

I lived with that diagnosis all day. Later that evening I had a biopsy, where they stuck an endoscope down my throat, through my stomach and into my intestines, put a needle into my pancreas and got a few cells from the tumor. I was sedated, but my wife, who was there, told me that when they viewed the cells under a microscope the doctors started crying because it turned out to be a very rare form of pancreatic cancer that is curable with surgery. I had the surgery and I'm fine now.

This was the closest I've been to facing death, and I hope its the closest I get for a few more decades. Having lived through it, I can now say this to you with a bit more certainty than when death was a useful but purely intellectual concept:

No one wants to die. Even people who want to go to heaven don't want to die to get there. And yet death is the destination we all share. No one has ever escaped it. And that is as it should be, because Death is very likely the single best invention of Life. It is Life's change agent. It clears out the old to make way for the new. Right now the new is you, but someday not too long from now, you will gradually become the old and be cleared away. Sorry to be so dramatic, but it is quite true.

Your time is limited, so don't waste it living someone else's life. Don't be trapped by dogma - which is living with the results of other people's thinking. Don't let the noise of other's opinions drown out your own inner voice. And most important, have the courage to follow your heart and intuition. They somehow already know what you truly want to become.

Everything else is secondary.

When I was young, there was an amazing publication called The Whole Earth Catalog, which was one of the bibles of my generation. It was created by a fellow named Stewart Brand not far from here in Menlo Park, and he brought it to life with his poetic touch. This was in the late 1960's, before personal computers and desktop publishing, so it was all made with typewriters, scissors, and polaroid cameras. It was sort of like Google in paperback form, 35 years before Google came along: it was idealistic, and overflowing with neat tools and great notions.

Stewart and his team put out several issues of The Whole Earth Catalog, and then when it had run its course, they put out a final issue. It was the mid-1970s, and I was your age. On the back cover of their final issue was a photograph of an early morning country road, the kind you might find yourself hitchhiking on if you were so adventurous. Beneath it were the words: "Stay Hungry. Stay Foolish." It was their farewell message as they signed off. Stay Hungry. Stay Foolish. And I have always wished that for myself. And now, as you graduate to begin anew, I wish that for you.

Stay Hungry. Stay Foolish.

Thank you all very much.


Tuesday, January 24, 2006

"They say time changes things... but you actually have to change them yourself."
~Andy Warhol


Thursday, July 28, 2005

details, details.........