Hmm, I don't think I've written in a while. So, I'm at school and all is well with me. Just got my mid-term grades and I have at least a C in everything. I guess thats good. College is pretty fun! Theres all types of people and you meet new friends just about every day. Right now I'm building a house in one of my classes. Its pretty fun. The weather outside sucks ass, its been raining for like 4 days striaght here and its cold out. I wish it would snow a little bit and get me out of classes. I finally got the part for my car I needed, I haven't had power steering since the night of prom. I can't wait for this weekend, I'm going home tomorrow at 11 when my last class of the day is over. I get to see my love Lydia and its my birthday. Yay 19!! Only two more years! The friends are having a bit of a party for me tonight, I hope I can wake up for my classes tomorrow, I've been sleeping through a lot of them lately. But its all good. I misses too many computer classes and now I think I'm at the point where I could get kicked out so the other day I had to give the teacher a really good excuse as to why I wasn't in class. Do you want to hear it? Ok, I e-mailed him and told him that when it comes to going to the bathroom, I'm not the most regular person there ever was, and as a result of that, every now and then I must take an overnight laxative which makes my next morning difficult for the first couple of hours LOL. He wrote me back and gave me the assignment  and hoped that my health would get better by next class. I thought it was kind of funny. I bet he never heard that one before. Oh well I'm getting bored of writting and I don't know what possesed me to write on this thing again but I need to take a shower cuz I just spent 4 hours in the lab. I may write again sometime, who knows.

I LOVE YOU LYDIA!

well well well...i've come to the end of the road...a turning point in my life. i leave for college on friday and that means i have two more days with lydia which really makes me quite sad. i can't stand the thought of being without her after seeing her almost every day all summer except for that whole mexico thing but besides that pretty much every day just about i have seen her. so as you can imagine its gonna be hard going from seeing her that much to seeing her like once a month or so and on my breaks. this upsets me greatly and i'm not ready to let it happen. but it is for the better (in the long run) cuz i am paving the way for the future which is as far as i can tell a good thing to do. she just needs to get through this one last year of philmont and do her best and we can be together again. it will be a rought year but we will make it, i'm sure of that. so sweetie if you read this and you're dreading this year just remember you can't slack off cuz doing well is not only your ticket out of there its the same one that takes you to me ok? so let that be motivation to you to do your best or at least do well whenever you're tired of the whole school routine just remember these words. i love you and want whats best for you and that is me!

well thats all i have to say if you didn't get it by now that post was just my feelings about leaving the girl i love and some advice to her, but that shouldn't surprise any of you

its been a few days since i've written. so much has happend... i graduated high school and thats good that i'm out of that hell hole now! i love my girlfriend lydia medley more than ever before. i took her to the beach and it was her first time it was great i think i'm the only guy that likes to go shopping and the water was fun too and put those two things together and the beach makes for some good times!!!! seriously though i do love to go shopping lydia can tell you this because she has seen how i act in a store i just turn into a different person almost like when i'm driving. dont' call me a fag or anything but i started wearing make up over the weekend...i'm actually pretty good at fixing myself because i'm a hiddeous beast and need it. thats all for now

i love you sweetie

well well well...hmm its been a while since i've said anything here...umm prom happend and that was great i spent the whole weekend with lydia...we kind of went on like a double date with her parents...sort of that was fun...i am certain now that they like me! her dad talks about me playing baseball to the people at their church..thats neat he seems to be content with the guy his daughter brought home and thats really good..umm today was the walkathon..that was a load of HORSE SHIT and it was a waste of a day...movie forum was terrible did anybody get anything out of that waste of a perfectly good 2 hours?? neither did i but i did get 15 extra credit points which i need so thats ok...i watched that movie for the first time at lydia's on thursday night...good time but the movie is very confusing to me but she made me understand for the most part..she is great i love her!

that be all for now Lydia i love you...i'm glad this weekend worked out so nicely cuz of the way last weekend went (you know what i mean) but whatever time spent with you is never wasted! I HAVE MUCHO LOVE FOR YOU! 

So guys who read this let me ask you a question ok? good...what would you do if there was a guy who everyone knows likes your g/f who is always always talking to her when you're not there and is always right where she is like a freakin stalker? Hmm what would you do? And if he tells her that he is bitter and jealous?? And then he askes her what she will do next year cuz I'm gone and when she says we are staying together he says but its kinda far and she says its only 2 and a half hours and he says but you won't see him on the weekends...sounds like someone is trying to quietly pave the way for an easy steal next year...SORRY GIRLS BUT THATS HOW GUYS ARE they will put ideas in your head of why it won't work out with your b/f so you start to believe it then maybe..just maybe they will have a chance...AM I RIGHT TO WANT TO KICK THIS KIDS ASS?? i think so too...it just REALLY PISSES ME OFF!

Well thats all for now...I love you sweetie...I KNOW UR MINE AND HE HAS NO CHANCE but i just had to say it...you know how much he pisses me off