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Name: Yi
Country: United States
State: Maryland
Birthday: 6/10/1986
Gender: Male
Interests: Filming, Wushu, Computer Animation, Drawing, Video Games, Cooking, Piano, Fight Choreography, Video Editing
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AIM:  yihoo86
Member Since:
3/9/2004
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| So I can't sleep and didn't know what to do. Then I suddenly realized that I haven't touched xanga in a while. Then I decided to read some past entries, and before I knew it, I read them all, and now its 4:17.
I really do love xanga, its such a great way to keep track of your life. I don't know why its dying now, it really shouldn't. I mean, who reads those stupid notes on facebook anyways? Xanga actually forces you to evaluate your day, and maybe years from now, during another sleepless night, you can flip through it and see how much you've changed.
And boy did I change. Freshman and Sophmore year in college was just such a simple time. Everyone was so innocent, especially me. But maybe thats because everyone that was commenting me on my posts were about 3+ years younger than I was. But still, it was a simpler time. There was one post that was like "ok, I'm going drinking" and in the comments, i get 13 comments about how bad drinking is. Ohhh asians...><
But looking back, I see so many mistakes; so many things I should have done; and so many times I was just stupid; I'm constantly torn between wishing that I could redo it, and thinking that it really couldn't have happened any other way.
But most importantly, I see all the people who commented on my posts. 90% of whom no longer have an active site. Its almost as if I'm stepping into an earth after nuclear war whenever I'm on xanga, and I am one of the only few survivors of this once great civilization. I was never a xanga-whore, I never had people comment me that I didn't know in real life. So looking back on all those comments is a constant reminder of how many people have waked with me through life. And it is so sad that I haven't talked to most of them forever, and some of them, maybe never again. It's a sad thought, but its that's just life. People come into and leave all the time. If I could have all of them in one room right now, I'd give them ALL a BIG hug.
Hopefully this is the last time I will be looking at past entries. Its not good to dwell on the past for too long. The future is where all the action is. Many people say that regret is bad. I say regret isn't really bad unless we don't learn anything from it. I'm not really feeling regret, I'm feeling nostalgic.
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| Good lord xanga has changed so much it took me 15 min to figure out how to write a new entry! But even so, I still think Xanga is great. I mean, facebook has weblog capabilities, but who does that anyways? I think Xanga needs to have a comeback! Maybe I'll post my next awesome video exclusively on Xanga, and anyone who wants to watch it has to come through here.
So.... Graduation... I'm sure all my fellow seniors are feeling the same way, (unless of course they are freakishly organized and prepared and already has a job) the feeling that we are heading into a black hole. Who knows, some people say black holes are gateway into a new dimension, a new world for us to explore, and a new beginning for those of us leaving our comfy surroundings. But of course, the more recognized and agreed upon theory is that entering a black hole results in you being crushed into singularity.
But who knows. Looking back, the only regret I have is that I should have taken more pictures. Trying to make a photos slide show of my years at UMBC is kinda difficult with only like two pictures. When I get good enough in 3d software, I think I'll just make up some pictures in CG.
I dunno, the feeling of graduation is just... I dunno, overwhelming.
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| i am humbled...
first time i've seen a genius at 3d editing, if that is what i am competing with, i better get a move on!
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| wushu is good for EVERYTHING!!
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