Family BBQ

It's time.. .

The time that I'm most afraid of has arrived... time for me to face reality. Past few days, I keep getting flashbacks, flashbacks of me and him; some happy moments but a lot of regrets and heartache. It feels crap, really crap. I have an exam in a few hours but can't concentrate coz I heard his voice this morning. Hate it how I let it get to me, I should be stronger than that dammit.

I am an idiot.

If things could be done differently, I would but it's all too late now - the spark is gone. There is no going back and part of me really cbfd; it's too messy.

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Roger and Buta went to see my man last night  Hope he was awesome for them!! Too bad I was in the library studying away while my friends indulged in his sexy vocie and face haha

Even though I didn't go, I still want to say a big thank you to Roger for getting those spare tickets for me! Thanks for everything!! You are still my best friend :D although I'm pretty sure my position in your heart has been replaced by other people HAHAHHA  

2 more exams to go..........................can't wait for my big sigh of realief on MONDAY!!

A stream of bad luck.. .

After exam goals.. .

Exam time again.. .

The much anticipated exam period has arrived promptly without delay. Its a time when I become emo and live in the library eating takoyaki balls everyday.. .The weather has been beautiful lately; warm. Yet I'm wasting my time staring blankly out into the window... watching the sunset..watching the day turn into night. Before I know it, another day gone and I drive home.

Hope exams go smoothly this semester. I really need some good marks to make up for the dull ones already on my academic record.

I am happier lately. I go out a lot and smile a lot even with metal sticking out of my mouth but a friend told me that I'm just in denial? If that's the case, I hope I'm in denial forever because I don't think I can handle it when the truth hits me.