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Tuesday, August 19, 2008

  • 1:10 AM in Alaska and there's actual darkness outside the window.  When I was here three weeks ago, and five weeks ago, there was no night time.  No night time, therefore it was never the right time. 

    While it may appear that I've disappeared, to those that stop by every now and then at least, I've still been very active.  It just all been private, I'll make them public eventually, but right now it just isn't the time to do that.  It's been some time since, so I'll catch you up.

    - The girl that was "tah-rouble" turned out to be actual trouble.  Not in the she was a meth addict, or stole from me, but more in that I got too into her and ignored all the hints of ex-issues.  That dark period was filled with staying indoors 80-90% of the time for a few weeks.  What can I say?  I enjoy the hurt in my own sick way.  I'm glad that's done with though, the depression weight-loss was quite unflattering.

    - I was in a fashion show dealie.  Observe here.  I'm the sad looking guy who isn't comfortable wearing a baseball cap and a t-shirt.

    - Visited the Oregon Coast, which was beautiful when I got there, but then became the most mediocre place in the world when I left.  Trouble Girl told me that I was everything she wanted, but "wasn't feeling it" the morning after our first night (which also turned out to be our last night) there.  I'm awesome.

    - Finished re-reading a big-ass collection of F. Scott Fitzgerald short stories which solidified him as my favorite writer once again.  I will fight you if you talk shit on FSF, with knives.

    - Started reading The Brothers Karamazov.  It apparently has the answers to all of life's problems.  I am not so sure as of yet.

    - Got a raise from my job, I wasn't even due or asking for one.  They just gave me one.  Imagine if I realized my full potential, I'd be a chamillionaire.

    - Tried Craigslist for a date.  Went on a few, but I just wasn't feeling it.  How's that for justice?  I did get a copy of American Psycho out of it though.  It frightens me how much I relate to that character.

    - Oh yeah, I've been reading a whole lot.

    - I earned a genuine respect for Portland's mass transit system.

    - I also achieved a gigantic hate for Portland's mass transit system.

    - My faithful green Dodge Grand Caravan, which has seen a good amount of America, was hit by a crap-ass Portland driver.  The hit was enough to rule it as totaled.  I loved that van.  So much.  I almost cried when it was taken away.  Then I almost cried a week later when I looked through stuff I had taken out of it before it was gone.  Big Green, you still had another 6 years in you, the very least.

    - I learned taking taxis when you're in town only two weeks out of the month isn't bad, and actually equates to the same amount if I had been driving for a month. 

    - I saw Greg Oden from a distance, or a very very tall black man signing autographs for people.  It might have been Todd Bridges, I'm not sure.

    - It's been a beautiful past five months for boxing and that alone raises my happiness quotient by like . . . six.

    - I now have an actual appreciation for woman/chick-rock (I really don't know what else to call it).  Mike said something that helped me get it, "There's no real need for a guitar solo most of the time."  Right on.

    - The Hot Toddies, She & Him, Pink Martini, Cat Power, and Yelle have been a fairly constant presence blasting through my ears.  Before you ask, yes, it makes my vagina feel warm and cuddly.

    - I took part in a photoshoot for my friend's catalog.  I'm now the guy who's comfortable in a baseball cap, but horribly uncomfortable in a hoodie a bit too small for me.  Observe:



    - Went to LA for a proper week vacation.  I am more in love with that city than ever before.  But not going back just yet.  Coming this fall/winter: Chuck Moves to Chicago.

    Well that's all for now.  I'll see you when I see you.

    -Chuck

    p.s "H-T-M-L, it's not hard to spell when I'm with you . . . You are so swell, just like DSL, you touch my modem..."

Sunday, June 29, 2008

Monday, April 21, 2008

  • Bitches

    Ooooh boy.  I met me a girl and woooooo she is tah-rouble with a capital TAH.  I do believe I love this town.

    -Chuck

    p.s "And you're probably holding hands . . . with some skinny pretty girl that likes to, talk about bands . . ."

Saturday, January 19, 2008

  • It's That Time

    It's no secret I am a fan of boxing.  Actually it might be a secret seeing as how I don't know you most likely.  But I am.  There is nothing broadcasted, and I mean this with complete sincerity, that evokes more emotion out of me than boxing.  Much like Rob from High Fidelity, I can link events in my life with the fights I've watched in my life.  I'm not just a fan of boxing, I am child of it.  In my family there were only two sports that were on TV whenever family was around: basketball and boxing.  While basketball is a beautiful exhibition of team of and individual efforts, the important games only come once a year.  With boxing, every other month there's something to get worked up about.  The past few years have seen a resurgence in what made me fall in love with the Sweet Science to begin with.

    There have been incredible brawls that have left both men losing and winning at the same time.  Calculated matches that have had some of the most technically beautiful boxing to be seen, yet not appreciated.  Boxers come with stories once again, and pre-fight hype plays out to be a savage soap opera I can't pull myself away from.  It's a good time to be a fan, an excellent moment to be a student, and a great age to be a fighter.  For me, boxers encompass the most admirable quality of sports: the belief and faith of one's skills and training.  Basketball, football, baseball, and soccer players all have off days.  Sometimes teams unite and pick up the slack, creating a grand moment of team work and brilliant chemistry. 

    Boxing doesn't have that luxury.  There are trainers who will try to prepare you as much as possible.  Promoters that make sure the public is interested in your skill.  Managers who try to set up the most appealing match-up that can be found.  But in the end it is completely up to the boxer.  There have been moments when a boxer has gone completely against what has been planned months before the fight and what is told between rounds; the results have gone either way.  No matter what your corner is yelling it is only you in that ring and you can't pass your gloves off to a teammate.  You have put yourself in this position, and only you have chosen how well prepared you are.  There is no being benched for being lazy during training, only getting knocked out for being lazy during training.  The fight tonight is a perfect example of why I chose to watch two men trying to kill each other . . . in the most civil way possible of course.

    Roy Jones Jr. is 39 years old.  As far back as I can remember in all my years as a fan of boxing, his greatness was never questioned.  A man who lowered his shoulders, put his hands behind his back, shrugged a bit and bam, a fist in your face.  He moved so fast that fights almost seemed rigged, to the layman's eye at least.  But to the boxing fan, you know that technically Jones was incredibly flawed.  His hands are always down, he moves to the inside of a fighter, he advances when an advance isn't needed, and so on and so on.  What he did have, however, is an amazing physical talent that went unrivaled, or continues to be unrivaled, in the ring.  The man's hands moved as quickly as you blinked, blink too much and your eyes won't open for a while.  When he moved inside he would slide to the outside almost as if he teleported.  Jones was often compared to animals when he boxed, strutting around the ring like a rooster, prepping a pounce like a panther, moves that just shouldn't, couldn't have worked.  Unless you're Roy Jones Jr.  Now the old man comes back to the main stage tonight after beating two nobodies in the last year, and losing to less-than-spectacular Antonio Tarver (Sylvester Stallone kicked his ass in Rocky Balboa) and Glen Johnson (yeah, exactly).  Though tonight he faces Felix "Tito" Trinidad, 35, and a fellow future hall-of-famer.

    To the general public, Trinidad first made his splash when he beat Oscar De La Hoya in what has to be in the top 10 of sports mistakes.  De La Hoya, thinking he had done enough and ahead on the cards for most of the fight, suddenly stopped fighting, Puerto Rican boxers don't stop fighting though.  Trinidad, known throughout the sport as a hard hitting scrapper, laid into De La Hoya's body for 5 rounds causing enough damage to the Golden Boy to take the title and put Puerto Rico on the map again.  He's cut out the lights with a wide left hook and destroyed short-term memories with quick rights throughout his career.  Though unlike Jones, Trinidad has retired, twice, and in the last five years only fought twice.  The first, a stoppage victory against Ricardo Mayorga (think street thug with gloves) and a loss to eternal contender Winky Wright.  While that doesn't sound as bad as Jones, there is a catch:

    Tonight's fight is at 170 lbs., the heaviest Trinidad has ever been, and the lightest Jones has been in a decade.  Jones, the naturally larger fighter, is predicting a knockout within 6.  Trinidad says he could win in 2, 4, or 12, but a win regardless.  So why watch two fighters who are way past their prime without any real chance of rising in skill again?  Simple, this is what boxing is truly all about. 

    There are no belts, there is no promise of a fight with a champ for either, there is only tonight.  Jones wants to show the world that his previous losses were flukes, that he had dropped in weight after winning the heavyweight title too soon and this seriously affected his speed and strength.  Trinidad, as great as his reputation is, has a resume that many could see as lacking.  Why not take this moment to try to beat the man who was pound-for-pound the best fighter to be found for well over a decade?  This isn't the time to setup the future, but only to correct the past and enhance the present.  Boxing is at its greatest during two situations: two champions proving who really should be called champ and two men with nothing to lose.  Ali-Frazier III in Manila is known as one of the most hyped matches in history, but it was also one of the most violent matches of their careers; a night when both fighters lost and won at the same time.  More recently there was the Gatti-Ward trilogy.  A literal war between two men spread throughout three fights.  Arturo Gatti, a former champion and "coulda-been" against journeyman "Irish" Mickey Ward, a man who had nothing to lose except his reputation as a fighter who would not back down.  The three fights were some of the most beautiful, bloody messes that any fight can could have hoped for. 

    Do yourself a favor, you don't have to order the fight tonight, it'll probably replay on HBO next week, but watch it somehow.  Tonight has all the makings for something special and how often do you really get to see that in sports these days?

    -Chuck

    p.s "And while your nose is drippin, and draining blood, I'll be standing over you screaming 'Nigga, what?!'"

Friday, January 18, 2008

  • The Tundra

    Get to the airport at 7:00 AM.  No need to show up two hours early anymore, but I hate being late for anything.  I go to the BP/Conoco-Philips terminal.  Men in heavy duty parkas, all the same parkas, sit silently.  No one at the ticket counter, I sit too.  I wait for half an hour until someone realizes that it's Sunday and Alaska is chartered  and handles ticketing on Sundays.  We all grab our shit and bust out the quick-walk through the airport.  The terminal is pretty empty, I get to the front of the line quick.  Bags have somehow lost weight since PDX, now if only I could as well.  Bags are checked, boarding pass received, let's do this.  But not before I have a smoke, or three.

    Stand outside, not in the smoking area, and somehow zero degree weather doesn't really bother me right then.  I pace back and forth.  

    The men around me are hardened.  Their skin is injured, their eyes are frosty, their steps heavy, and their breathing slow.  They don’t laugh often, they chuckle and smirk, but there isn’t much happiness to them.  Then again, it’s almost very early in the morning.  In a flight of approximately 100, I see three women.  One is approximately my age, the other two were my age maybe 30 years ago.  It’s time to board the plane, I line up and choose a song, “Clam, Crab, Cockle, Cowrie”.  It’s slow, whimsical, desperate, it’s my current favorite.  I get on the plane, look out onto the snowy runway, and have Joanna Newsom put me to sleep.  I wake up an hour later.

    Dark.  Completely dark.  I look out the window and there’s nothing to see, absolutely nothing.  A few minutes pass by and I see some lights in the distance.  Then I see a few more.  Then there’s plenty more.  But they’re all spread out, miles in between clusters.  If I didn’t know better I’d think it was Pennsylvania or something.  I spot the landing strip, next stop Deadhorse Airport, the name is appropriate.  The plane begins its descent and my heart is racing.  I feel it pounding, throwing uppercuts at my chest plate, I haven’t felt this anxious since . . . my first school dance, and here I am without a date.  The pilot is amazing, we slip onto the runway and cruise to a stop.  I look out the window and I’m not seeing a tunnel connecting to the plane.  I see stairs being wheeled out.  The stewardess tells us that the temperature is “50 below, winds at 6 miles per hour, meaning a windchill of 62 below.”  Fuck.  They announce that our bags will be at our designated camps and that tonight’s dinner is prime rib.  Fuck yes.  I grab my backpack, walk down the isle, I already feel the cold.  I step outside the door and holy shit.

    My nose hairs, my mucus, it freezes instantly.  My eyes go dry and my face goes numb.  This is exactly what I imagined hell freezing over to be like.  I hotfoot it to the shuttle bus, I don’t hotfoot.  I get inside the shuttle and I still my breath is visible.  A guy with a handlebar mustache notices my novice.  “First time?” I nod my head like a fob who doesn’t know English.  “Take your hat off, get your body used to the cold.”  I shake my head, “I don’t have any hair.”  He laughs.  Alaskans love laughing at an L.A boy’s misfortune.  We begin moving.

    There is no life to look at as we drive.  It’s all white, it’s all dark.  There’s a small “hotel” where apparently, they have “titty booths”.  The little things.  You pass buildings that look like shitty warehouses.  These are camps for Conoco, Haliburton, and numerous other evil corporations that we’ve all been taught to hate.  They are few and far between, every now and then you see natural gas flares blast into the sky.  Apparently once or twice a month they flare so large that they light up the whole sky.  Everybody on the bus talks about how they need to build a natural gas pipeline already to increase state revenue.  Forget that they have 27 billion permanently in their oil dividend fund.  But that’s for another post.

    We get to my camp, BPOC (British Petroleum Operations Camp), and it too looks like a shitty warehouse from the outside.  I get off the bus, my face freezes again, and I hotfoot it for the doors.  But inside is a whole different story.  It looks like a dorm building.  The lobby looks comfortable, there are LCD TVs everywhere.  People are on their laptops, chatting with strangers, you can smell delicious food.  Not bad.  I meet El, a fellow contractor.  He gives me a quick rundown of the facility, not a tour, and we grab some lunch.  Balsamic Chicken, Spaghetti and Meatballs, and a whole skew of other shit.  El points to a room behind the cafeteria, it’s full of snacks, cold sandwiches, hot dogs, hamburgers, everything for the professional snacker.  The best part?  It’s always open.

    Lunch is done and El shows me to my room.  It’s just like a college dorm.  Extended twin size, shared bathroom with the room next door, and a TV . . . that gets HBO AND HBO2.  Not bad BP.  I lay down for a bit, flip the channels, it’s all very comfortable.  I go downstairs to the baggage room to see if the bags from our flight have arrived.  They have but . . . mine aren’t there.  I ask security WTF, and they ask if I put a red BPOC tag on my bag.  I didn’t know where I was supposed to put that tag, they said back in Anchorage.  I wasn’t told.  They tell me they’ll try to find them.  I decide to give myself a tour.

    There’s a theater for movies on Friday & Saturday nights, also for mass on Sundays.  A full sized basketball court, an impressive gym, a large sauna, and . . . a pool?  If man can dream it.  There’s a few other lounges, all with large TVs, all with their own fountain drink dispensers, not bad.  I watch the Cowboys, thank God, and I’m told to just relax today, tomorrow will be long.  I go back downstairs to check with security about my bags, no word and since it’s Sunday everyone’s gone from the airport.  Dinner comes, I have my prime rib, talk to some of the guys I’m going to be working with.  I don’t remember their names, say goodnight and go hang in my room.  Dirty, cold and beatdown, I strip down to my skivvies and go to sleep.  I miss my sleeping gear.  But I couldn’t be more excited to be here.  I look outside and see the Aurora Borealis, who from the lower 48 gets to see that?  I am thrilled.  This is Alaska.

    -Chuck

    p.s "...and just like the river, I been running... ever since."



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