| | Study day…
I always study with MUSIC….these days, listening to music doesn’t bring smiles, but tears. I feel so depressed yet I have to force myself to focus on the things which are more important. I have 2 more weeks of school and that’s it GINA!!! Please hang in there for yourself….HO SUN FU, I tell myself not to be stupid like last time , hoping for a day that we’ll be back together so that I can continue to care for him. Because the more hope I put , the more disappointment. I choose, rather not to hope then.
I really want to leave, but then I don’t because I’ll miss him. Is there a point of missing someone when they’ll never know you miss them? I remember he taught me again how to miss someone with a smile. But I can’t believe a year after, I’m missing someone with tears again.
Why are there so many tears in my life? Why are you guys so “yun sum” to make me cry. What have I done wrong to deserve all these tears? But then again, I’m willing to cry for him and to be hurt by him.
I’m waiting for you…..
I wonder how many things we’re shared together he’ll remember? Just like this page, does he even remember I have this page? I hope that he’ll know how I feel, but I don’t’ know why, I hope that he will never remember this page, so that I can keep all these feelings to myself. I’m so confused, I’m contradicting myself. I want him to see, but I don’t.
Will you ever see?.....not only this page, but will you ever see that the one I want to need, to depend, to love , to care, to share, to live, and to have a family is with you? …
I have all the reasons to hate…but to compare….the LOVE is bigger and is enough to cover up all the hates.
Really want to tell you that you’ve hurt my fragile heart greatly, am I able to put all the broken pieces back together? I really want you to tell me that you’ll help , put them back together bit by bit and step by step by showing me that you’ll try to love for real this time. But you never had the courage to love me, why am I wishing that you will in the future……
It’s too much for me my love….when will you ever understand?
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| | Posted 7/28/2007 5:24 PM - 10 views - 0 comments
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