Ok, welp not alot has been going on! Alex has left Yukon...he now lives in Houston.......He left on Monday. I'm really sad about it. I didn't really get to say good bye. I miss him so much. He called me before he left but i didnt have my cell with me at the time ( i had  forgot it) and i missed his call and i really wanted to talk to him. He hasn't  called back yet. I guess he is busy unpacking. I haven't been able to talk to him since thursday or friday. i love him so much and want to be with him so bad. i really do hope he gets to come back for me. i just don't see it working out though. Our plans just don't go together...ya know.

Well, on to a different subject. I don't remember telling u guys if i got a job at CiCi's in one of the previous entries. I've been working there for about 3 Weeks now. Brittany is going to start working there Friday. I'm pretty pysched about that! i'll be working with one of my best friends, so it's awesome.

Well, nothing much to say 'cept I love yall and i'll see u around!

Amanda

In Remberance

As we all know, Two juniors have gotten in a train wreck today: one is at Ou Medical Center, severely injured and the other hass passed on.

Here are two poems dealing with death and saddness. I know that everyone is grieving. I'm pretty sad myself. I didn't know them all that well but I had talked to Tylar before. He was my beaver and I will miss him very much. It's really sad because I had just seen him today and then the next thing I know, I won't ever see him again.

Tylar and Justin:

...Grieve not,

nor speak of me with tears,

but laugh and talk of me

as if I were beside you...

I loved you so -

'twas Heaven here with you.

-Isla Paschal Richardson

One gift, above all others
God gives to us to treasure
One that knows no time, no place
And one gold cannot measure

The precious, poignant tender gift
Of Memory......that will keep
On dear ones ever in our hearts
Although God gives them sleep

It brings back long remembered things
A song, a word, a smile
And the world's a better place ... because
We had them for awhile!

NEWS!

        whelp, Rachael wants to kicks my ass! All over freaking NoDoze ( an energy pill ). Anyway to make a long story short they took a joke to far and I got pissed and well it came don to her wanting to kick my ass! Which is fine cause I'll fight her here in the apartments but she wants to do it out at the BMX track. Which first of all, I don't have a clue where it is. Secondly, Why would I go out of my way so far from where I live just to get in a fight when I could do it here? She says that I've been talking crap, which isn't true. All I have said is that I'm not scared of her so if she wants to fight, I won't back down. That is totally different from me saying I can beat her ass. But whatever, I have a whole bunch of people who have my back, so I'm not worried. For all I care she doesn't exist. Oh, i got to see alex today! I am so excited! I miss seeing him everyday. He is so gorgeous! I still wish he wasn't moving! I would be so much happier. My life is going good tho, the only thing that could make it any better is if Alex and I were still going out and he wasn't moving. I wish i could change his mom's mind. He still calls me  babe, so i guess he still wants us to go out too. well, many things have happened since i was on xanga. I did have a really good day tho. I got a 92 on my practice EOI for biology, i was pretty happy about that. I got to see Alex! I talked to brittany for the first time in a long while! Rachael is pissed off at me! She is getting mad at kathy and josh!  Wow, What a great day! well, anyway, i guess i'm gunna be getting off for now! love yall very much!

welp, alot has happened since i wrote in here last. Alex and i decided it wasn't working cuz we never see each and it is just going to hurt us more when he moves if we were to stay together. I wish i could change that but i can't. Well, my mom and me went to the Kenny Chesney concert, and i got to see DEIRKS BENTLEY! he is so freaking gorgeous! And i got one of his shirts.And well my aunt knows about what i told my mom about alex and me and so my aunt told my cousins and my uncle and pretty soon my wohle family is going to know, that sux! Isaac has called me twice this past weekend, wchich i don't want to go out with him but i don't want to be mean. He just doesn't get the fact that the only person i want to be with is alex which i know isn't going to happen. and devon keeps texting me too and i don't like him like that either. I'm working on keeping busy so i don't think of alex as much and it isn't really working. i didn't talk to him for 2 days straight but then he had to call me last night to see if i was mad at him and to say hi..... and well he had called me at the concert so i only talked to him for a minute and well since then i've called him 3 times and he wasn't home those times so yea.... and i was doing sooooo good at not calling him and then he just had to mess it up! My aunt even thinks we shouldn't talk anymore because she says it is going to be just as hard as if we were still going out whih i agree but I just can't help it. well, i'm going to go for know!

news!!!!!! for everyone to hear!

welp, alex and i talked for 4 hours and 45 mins on tuesday. well, we talked about if i was to ever get pregnant and all that kind of stuff. And he says we are still together which i don't really know if we are, i guess if he says we are then i guess we are. i haven't seen him since tuesday tho and it sux. i miss him so much. It is gunna suck when he moves. i can't wait til i turn 18 cuz i'm gunna move out. He wants me to move in with him when i move out of my house. i don't know if that is really gunna happen or not. Well i'm gunna go smoke (something) now.......(j/k) but i am really leaving you because i just am! love yall!

amanda