Thursday, October 09, 2008

• DAYS WHEN YOU WANT TO CRY

  DAYS WHEN YOU WANT TO DIE

  I am so stressed these days.

  1) My Zune just totally broke down on me!!! I'm so pissed, I can barely cuss. -_- My dad was also freaking out. I told him about how all I did was update my program and he was like "Don't update, if the thing works fine!!!" He yelled other crap, but I didn't listen because... I never? Besides, I only did what the program told me to do! Anyways, I feel like I just severed a limb! That Zune was like the only actual present my dad EVER got me! It's also the only important possesion I have other than my laptop. (I don't own much because I'm poor!) TT.TT The damned (What? I said 'barely'.) thing costed 200 big muchas in the gut! I lost money! Wahhhhhh! Sadness. I cried. This is the first time since I got shoved down by that one bitch while playing kickball and scraped half of the skin on my arm off that I cried in public. (I'm semi-emo so I cry in my sleep[sometimes] or in private.) Just imagine me saying all the cuss words in the world subconsciously now...

  2) I have a freakin ass presentation tomorrow. I was suppose to VOLUNTEER to go today. So it was like 'I'll go third (raises arm, thinks, puts arm down), nevermind.' I was chicken, okay? CHICKEN. Like EL POLLO LOCO chicken. I just felt scared, exposed, and naked! Damn! I wasn't gonna go present the worst presentation ever! Then some bitch just had to do the same topic as me, and that made me feel horrible because hers was so much better than mine. T^T

  3) I just can't get along with the world anymore. These small simple entries help me vent so much. (Sigh) If I was older, I would be drunk now! How can I have these weird(emo filled) thoughts in my head?! I'm only 13 DAMNIT! (Don't worry, I only cuss in writing, not so much in real life, just sometimes.)

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