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Name: Abby
Metro: Pittsburgh
Birthday: 12/19/1985
Gender: Female
Interests: hangin wit friends, shoppin, partyin "all the way up to the lobby", bein a music/art teacher! and just havin fun!
Expertise: messiness of room
Occupation: Student
Message: message me
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Member Since:
2/3/2005
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|  ok well...havn't written in this thing in quite sometime!! I am now living in St. Louis and loving it! I am going to school for social work...and hope to someday make a difference! Even though momma tells me i make a difference everyday now :) love her!! i went back to my undergrad this weekend. It was wierd! fun to see all my friends..but definitly changed...and wierd not to have mike there...or have me tumblin down the muskie hill at 4 in the morning goin to depot to see him! i miss the puppies too....kacey and kage!! love them! Halloween and everything fun is coming up... i like it here but i miss good ole pgh.... I cant wait to go home and see my favorites! this simmer was so awesome that i just want to relive it again! I think ill try to keep up with this more...fun times i remember from fresh and soph year! there is one thing that hasn't changed.... i still love mikey <3 xoxo yoitsabby19
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| Well, Michelle and I were stalking people on xanga until I remembered "hey, I have a xanga." So i thought why not update... I have no idea if anyone reads this...well proabably nobody but it beats doing homework. Senior year is closly comiIng to an end...its actually really scary! I have so much stuff to do in the next two weeks, papers, exams, club events, working super much, then goinng home packing and going out with my best friends cuz i miss them terribly.... I am reading a ton about hispanic immigration... i want to be an immigrant where should i go? Here is a lovely poem i wrote... do you understand it.. becuz im not too sure i do: I sit here, hearing voices but not understanding what they say.
My mind wonders, questions arise way inside my head.
I want to let go, I want to be free.
I want people to understand, I want them just to see me.
I hear the voices louder now, I open up my mouth.
I try to speak outloud but I am just drounded out..
I reach for a friend, who says she's always there but when I need her most she is never, never aware.
She cries on my shoulder when the same boy breaks her heart, but there is only so many times I try and cannot help her anymore.
There is something in the distance, I can't see what it is, my eyes are wet and blurry while the image disapears.
I guess its for the best but then I will never know because the only thing that is left to do is just let go.....
I sit inside a box, a box I call my room
The pictures of my wall
The people that are so close too soon
I need to get out, I run for the door but something holds me back there is something on the floor
I watch it shine in the light, I wonder why it's there
I try to look away but I continue to stare
I try to pick it up, but its stuck to the ground
This thing that stops me now makes my mind go round and round
I am not supposed to leave this box, I am locked up in it tight
Until the shiny thing hides away from the light. I guess that is it for tonight...ill update soon or later i would bet on the latter one. PS> GO STEELERS!!!! | | |
| so i moved to new concord because i thought it would be an escape from home, be better and fun! and being with mike and ridge has been a blast i have really enjoyed my time with both of them..... but theres lindsay and shes just really not makin my time fun. i came here because i needed a friend and i thought that she was it, but as i have lived here for the last three weeks i have seen that is not what she is to me, or obviously what i am to her.... and it makes me wonder about a couple things. first of all why did i think this was such a good idea when i was in europe?? because it was obviously not a good one second, she talks behind so many peoples back all of the time and then the next minute shes best friends with them shopping and such, it just makes me wonder how much she talks behind mine. i think i forgot when i was in europe what being a friend with her is like.... and now i remember i just wish i had remembered that before i definitly said we would both live here this summer. when she's moody she takes it out on everyone and doesnt see a problem with it, or i think she likes to start fights with people and see that she has hurt them. i just dont get it you know... i am the kind of person that puts a lot of effort into a friendship... and its hard when the other doesnt care! but i have decided i know whats out there in the world. i have a lot going for me and do not need to be held down by a person who doesnt care about me or our friendship....so im letting her go........yeah we live together but just because we are roomates doesnt mean we have to be friends.... i dont need someone in my life that doesnt need me in theirs...while i was in europe she sounded like she needed me in hers but since i have returned i have realized she doesnt...... i have lots of amazing people in my life that care about me those are the people i want in mine my life because they make me better!! mike has been the best person to enter my life and i am so glad we are together and can share all these amazing experiences!!! not to mention my loves like michelle and kelly they are the ones that we will always be friends because we have something more than friends we trust and respect each other and that is very important in a friendship. i am going home this weekend and when i come back... im not going to care anymore, she can continue to try and put me down or hurt me but its not gonna work because im giving up on her because i dont like being treated that way and i dont feel that i should have to. its gonna be a good summer!! i have the boys we are going to have a blast no matter what!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i am so thankful god put those amazing people in my life, it helps me realize that there are others just to be around but not to be part of it...... | | |
| well i have been here in spain for about 130 some days... wow i cant believe its been that long, i remember the first day when we arrived off the plane and everything was so crazy!! its been a great time though i really have loved it and i am so glad i did it!!! i have made some amazing friends from all over the world.... and have seen so many cool places such as, portugal, africa, the uk and all of spain!!! i am going to italy with my parents which they come in like 17 days holy crap i cant wait!!!!! then i spend 10 days with them and head back to the states... and my michael will hopefully be at the airport waitin for me!!!! i hope people are excited to see me back! im so pumped to live in new corncob this summer!!! with my lindsay and mike and wel ya know brock as well!!! well im off to enjoy the lovely weather in spain... ill update soon!! keep it real kids | | |
| well im in spain and its been over a month! i still like it here i just miss things like peanut butter and ranch dressing, my friends especially lindz n sm from muskieland and then obviously my plumbums...i bought something really cool for lindz today since we are possibly living together this summer!! today my friends here and i went to the market it was like a four hour walk but it was super cool once we got there... we have school tomorrow. i wish we could just be here and not have to go to class!! valentine's day is coming up... i will be away from my love and that makes me really sad. but mike and i are doing well and we are just going to celebrate when i get home... hopefully he gets the internship so i will be able to live with him this summer.... well its siesta time here in spain and i think im going to take one...keep it real kids!! ps... the boys that mike lives with are going to do this dance for the talent show...check it out. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=azzVRW-pfdY | | |
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