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Sunday, September 10, 2006

Sun, 10 Sep 2006 06:32:58 GMT

from the left* --> jessica idihti noori breana kirsten
cindy me doris jessiE!

the gals from my floor..woo! TIMBUKTU yo! : D

sadly i havent taken much pictures on my camera for frosh week except for this from MONTE CARLO*! monte carlo was pretty cool.......;) was with people from renison whole nite..and saw kevin and his friends there! lollll my bad kev! anyways my feet hurts so much now cause of the 5 ' high heel i was wearing haha! wat was i thinking? : P ! the SLC was packed with ppl though...kinda crazy sceneee in the dance floor! had some disgusting mocktails and played some blackjack! haha niceyyy : D
food at renison tastes soooo bad! im so glad i came back home for some RICEEE and REAL food. feels like heaven to be back again! :D my roommmm feels so big and everything seems so nicey at home! home sweet home i guess.... : P

saw the yearly show: single and sexy on thursday! didnt really like it...it was pretty dirty and wasnt too good! kinda funny when that asian guy was speaking in chinese though! haha..other than that..it aint too good at all! so sad i missed the toga party tonite! heard its the BEST party of the year....ppl in bed sheetS? hahaa hmmmmm..** probably somebody cough-- went! anyways styll gotta line up for OSAP sadly cause i forgot my sin card! gonnna be such a HUGEEEEEEE lineup -_-;; oh noo..

met up with ju janice jen alvin ben celine will and andrew tonite @ kelsey's and world bowl! :) it was great meeting up with so many of you after my accident! thanks alvin and softball team for dinner and bowling..! heh..it was some yummy BROCCOLLI CHEDDER soup..! and i SUCK at bowling omgggosh! my thumb nail broke off.. : ( quite gross haha...cant believe it chipped off so easily! yucksss...it was fun none the less though = D thanks for the BLING BLING stuff alvin and ben!

TOMORROW i gotta head back to LOO for another week! im excited to go back but not excited for the food! went to T&T supermarket after i left bowling and got some cup noodles :D :D sooo prepared this time! haha styll gotta get lotsa stuff for res thooo: MINI fridge, kettle, printer, ....! atleast i have FOOD now though..stupid renison cafe only supply dinner from 4:30-6! starving us like mad OMG! not so cool...! best thing @ renison is the MOOSE ROOM! jits, pool, table hockey, big screen tv! its amazing there....cant wait till some jitss with my friends : D more pics to come laters =]

Thursday, August 03, 2006

Thu, 03 Aug 2006 19:30:22 GMT

hmmmm..so frustrated with university stuff : ( ! this whole decision of swapping from UTSC to UW has made my life miserable! it took so much effort just to accept the UW program and now i have no residence! what am i supposed to do with no res!!!! i've written letters..emails..called them uncountable times but styll there isnt any good news what so ever! I feel like quitting now and just go to UTSC instead! i got the UTSC management coop orientation invitation card today in the mail and i was so sad..! i could gone to such a great program ..high prestiege w/e..and no hassle at all! i started to question myself if i made the wrong choice or not..! seems like i wasted my whole gr 12 year of hard wark. people before were complaining why they didnt get this res or that res but i have no res now! why did i pick such a hard choice when i had such a better one. i would have a car and stay at home w/ moms cookin everyday..great program...less tuition..! what was keeping me from utsc? ahhhhhhhh...everytime i think about it..i feel like i made a wrong choice! dont even know wat to do now..its already august and no news styll! am i actually gona live on the street or sth! :( lookin for off campus housing right now and goin to UW AGAIN..(for the 4th time) with my cousin tomorrow to check stuff out. hopefully there will be good news soon..gotta stay optimistic! UWs so stupid arrg! they should have res for all freshmen!.. instead they save spots for upper year students when they are much more familiar with Waterloo1 WHAT IS THISSSS. aargg !
great news on the other hand though..! jennys comin back in mid august! some ppl are comin back from trips! going to the carribean end of august! playin softball..so soar from yest. practise ! -_- fridays off for school! finally got a super waterproof mascara :D ! and ummm successfully cooked kim chi jji gae and seafood spicy soup! : ] mmmmm* ..!
sigh! i SHALL pray for the best..... -_- F.R.O.G.?

Wednesday, February 08, 2006

Wed, 08 Feb 2006 20:21:58 GMT

you're listenin to...: Perhaps Love »ç¶ûÀÎ°¡¿ä ^^

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That's my favourite verse!!! God is sufficient in everyway..."My grace is sufficient for thee: for my strength is made perfect in weakness." i love this line/verse... : ) There are so many wonderful things that God has made for us...Sometimes I start thinking whether he always plans what WE is really best for us though...F.R.O.G.! it's so hard to do that but God is magical to me!
...painting all my weaknesses...drawing me close to him...going to church again..helping me thru bad times.... I don't think I'd be able to do all this without HIM. THANK you God! Also..Thank you all for praying : ) Thank you semester 1 classmates and teachers!
my goal for this semester is to be a NERD f'real! STUDY STUDY STUDY. : ) bio algeo data keyboarding here i COMMMEEEEE~~ !!

Monday, January 23, 2006

Mon, 23 Jan 2006 20:04:22 GMT

sometimes i wonder..why is THIS happening to me?... Other times I feel quilty for the things that i get but don't deserve. At School....am i working hard enough or are my potentials just not as high as i thought they were? Maybe i don't have potential -_-;;; I've been thinkin bout this topic for a longg while now
...am i qualified? university? work? future? These things seem so far away still and i dont think i can handle it yet. I'm only grade twelve but i feelll so stressed. I worry about school, I worry about my university acceptance, I worry about life and my future!i feel so stressed and worried and nervous everyday. I feel pressured to everything!!! : ( whens this goin to end? i feel dooooomed..i have both chem and english exam this thursday and THIS will determine my future! my FUTURE. my lifee...is going to depend on my stupid exam.I do not feel ready at alll..! English is my weakest subject and i have to take chem exam with that also? Sometimes i question..why is God doing this to me? Then i think..would i be able to get through this without God? it's just so unbelievably hard these days for me to deal with school and other stuff. why is LIFE so difficult? :*( I just hope I can overcome this soon cause i feel like im sufficating..i CAN'T BREATHE! ````````

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Tuesday, December 06, 2005

Tue, 06 Dec 2005 20:47:13 GMT

i can feel God's presense everywhere i go. : ] everything is just undescribibly better than before. Though at times I feel stressed and soar, God just seems to pull me out of it and i seem to hear voices working within me :) sounds magical but its TRUE :D God's presense makes everything that's bad seem better ..yay!!!

Other than that, christmas is almost coming!! : > im ecstatic about it since i didnt seem to have a great break for a while! x'mas shopping...movies..party...
*sounds too good to be true. hehehe : P styll got many weeks to go till we can take a break though. DECEMBER is a hectic month!!!!chem teacher has been gone for the past two days giving us class assignments and english is just massive workload. I hope i did well on my chem and stone angel test. hahaa ---

one last thing is please pray for my mom's friend, May, from fellowship who is suffering from some cancer(kidney i think). it has begun spreading over to her lung and spine already. She's receiving all sorts of crazy medication and the doctors said she's only gonna live for another 3 months if it spreads at that rate. Many people have been praying for her and my mom told me the spreading rate has gone down. It seems verily terrible how one's life can be so delicate. I just hope that she can live longer and if possible, heal. Please pray for her. P.U.S.H. ***

Saturday, November 26, 2005

Sat, 26 Nov 2005 06:16:23 GMT

i feel renewed by God! thank you God for bringing me close again :] even though i havent been @ church..God, your love is so great! worship @ fellowship touched me alot..¤Ð.¤Ð;; thanks maggie so! thank you God..! just hope you'll keep me going forever. i dont wanna lose it anymore. bring me near hold me close. =] yes yes yes yes. *

lastly, ³ª´Â ³Ê¹« ³Ê¹« ³Ê¹« Çàº¹ÇØ!! ¤»¤»¤». : )
many events to come next week: to be or not to be speech/doll's house seminar/chem test on wed/concert review. oh my! hectic week to come. --i dropped data today and im retaking it second semester. maybe i made a wrong choice but its been a hard decision and i hope it will turn out okays! ¢Ó > I < ¢Ó

Wednesday, November 09, 2005

Wed, 09 Nov 2005 00:44:21 GMT

que sera sera!! hmm last friday..i went to nexis for the first time after 2 yrs of not going! nobody seemed to recognize me..it was pretty sad!! :T ....should i even go back to church? everything seems changed..the place is renovating and it looks totally different! a church that i used to go to seems to become sth im not familar with anymore. ahhh~ i styll wanna go back for english service sometime though. i dont know..i dont know..i dunno!! --- schools awfully gay right now. chem data band english..its killing me! maybe i should drop a course or maybe all 4! stressed...=_=;;; on saturday..chris ling drove me janice and kendrew up to waterloo ! thanks chris. hehe waterloo is so uglyy but i liked it i dunno why! we saw some presentations and ate at village one! the fish burgers were pretty good though it was kinda expensive. haha then met janice's frend wilbert and i kept asking him about university stuff! hahaa its crazy. i need a good AIF* thanks for the euclid notes wilbert =] anyway we went ta buble tea after at commerce! too bad we dint have time for sticker pictures..we just went straight to ju's church cause she had a coffee house!! itttt was awesome :) ONE WAY (8) ...live by faith and not by sight ^^ hope everything will go back into place soon : (

Saturday, October 15, 2005

Sat, 15 Oct 2005 20:06:53 GMT

havent written in awhilee!! this morning i went to fairview with daniel to buy some materials for our chem project! sooo early. 10:30...heheee i was latee -_-" anyway we found lots of styrofoam balls from lewiscraft and now im trying to think of a creative way to build Thalidomide! = ] ....dududu* hopefully we'll make sth creative and pretty!! ^^ sighhh im so sad : ( ... my taekwondo membership is ending next tuesday!!! -_____- this reallie sucks...emily!! i'm soo sorrie i kant stayy but u'll styll be my homefry f'lifeeee !! loveee ya =] i'll miss all you guys.... homefry tessa phoebe laura constance jamal chris brandon danny nelson raphael alan andrew alex bernard mario dan justin kevin karen and ur cute brothers..the list goes on! taekwondo has actually made me more confident and im like addicted to it now -_- ...i always think about side kick and roundhouse kick lolll...taekwondo is awesome!! MTA fight fight. =]..homefry, you made the summer go by so quickly! our training...i'll never forget you guyss..it'll be like a stone stuck in my heart : '( aww man! this is so depressing..i wish i could stay : ( stupid gr. 12..yuckkerrs! i dont feel that im ready for shcool at all..i know its so important but i dont seem as hard working as others! im not nerdy enough !! i cant concentrate at alll....i tried praying...! argg maybe i should delete msn : [ boooooo* sigh im going to watch a uoft concert tonight for band concert review! yuckk...hope i won't sleep during then! : P oooo westley im sorriee we couldnt go today! : P i did call you bak thoughhh..hehe !! =] nexxxx week ;)...hopefully!! : ) and jaredd! thanks on tues =]..c-c-catipult hehehee** oh and no food pics janice styll : T kant find any yummmmm ones : 9 too bad! i have a ladiebug ~_~``

Saturday, September 24, 2005

Sat, 24 Sep 2005 23:31:16 GMT

today was one of the biggest days...tkd tournament - -" MTA fight fignt :P hehee..im so toucheddd ^^ thanks you guyys + master huh !! :]our team spirit was soo high..i felt like i was in air while i heard them* though i didn't do as well as i could of..i learned something new today! the key to winning: ``` being AGRESSIVE.!! i wasnt nearly as agressive as the other opponent. she had the keeup of a cow and owned me with roundhouse kicks. >< but that's okay 'cause i have already conquered my fear! the fear i've always had for sparring. i remember when i first sparred as a yellow belt..i wouldnt even dare to touch the persons chest guard. and today..i competed in a tournament!! i still got bronze...* hehee. now that the tournament is over..i feel much calmer! i've got HAMLET test to worry about for monday and chem pres. tues* and chem test friday* STUDY awayyyy :S hahaa.. guess i'm not soo calm after all : P

Saturday, August 27, 2005

Sat, 27 Aug 2005 00:13:52 GMT

roarr. that white taekwondo instructor is making soo madd!! >< soo stupid cause i asked him nicely to teach me taekguk 4 but he wont teach me...wtcrap* i tested for green and got my certificate already!! hes like oh i think u could "perfect" your 1 and 2 more!! wtfudgeee so mad** pshhht i learned it from nicey master jamal tho :"] he's such a cool instructor :"pp emily ;);) anyways after class today..master john told me to take some pictures for their advertisement =_="..jamal was supposed to be this thug but then he had to teach class so danny did it instead~..it was hard though cuz i couldnt smile or look @ the camera!! i had to pretend i was doing self defense and hurting the opponent with it -_-" !! we had to repeat the same move over and over again....``acting is much harder than you think!! ahahaa and the pictures will be in paper soon --``` oman** im quitting in the end of september too :S : (anyhow yesterday i went out with nikki** we walked all the way from first markham to the restaurant nexx to taekwondo!! farrrr` hahaa we ate sooo muchh and our waiter was totally funny!! * : 9 ;; we called black taxi to take us back to first markham but they umm rejected we were too far from " toronto"!! and so we walked back and ate at this dessert place @ fm. ~ sooo full** great day though.. i miss the st. andrew's days heheh* have fun in P.E.I.!! niceeee` lisa is coming back tonite!! not much time to go out cause its almost school```.. soo scared for grade twelveee*:T oh nooo```` ><