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KoL - Use Somebody

Sat, 15 Nov 2008 21:18:39 GMT

i've been roaming around, always looking down at all i see....
painted faces fill the places i can't reach.

Friday, November 07, 2008

Fri, 07 Nov 2008 08:43:57 GMT

i spent two plus hours looking for a freaking song i heard today. still no outcome. just tired, bugged out eyes/mind.

i have a bruise on my left elbow and both of my knees. i kind of want to take a picture of this bruise triad.

i kind of want to enter an old hell of mine to get out of this current "hell" i'm in. it's not really a current hell. just impatience causing frustration.

GRE studying isn't as bad as i thought. as long as i get started. and i have a study buddy, so i don't just sit around. would you like to be my study buddy? (prerequisite: must live in la)

whoa. shit is getting MESSY.

i want to go running tomorrow morning at the beach. i think i will.

j seriously challenged me today. was not expecting that at all. was nice. SOMEONE stand up for what we used to believe in. and who we were.

Tuesday, November 04, 2008

Tue, 04 Nov 2008 19:23:44 GMT

two little nuggets

nugget 1: yesterday during dance class, there's this fob girl wearing this shirt that says "I did blow with Kate Moss and all I got was this stupid t-shirt." so a couple of us are looking at it, and one girl's like what does it say? I read it to her and they laugh. The fob girl wearing the t-shirt, now wearing a half smile says, "It's funny? My t-shirt?"

the other little nug is with my mom, it's not as cute as the one above, but more meaningful.
nugget 2: i took my grandma to a physical therapy appointment yesterday, but there was a little miscommunication with my mom, and i got back from class late, both my grandma and i haven't eaten, my grandma wasn't aware of the appointment, all these little things that made the whole event more hectic and therefore frustrating. So i'm like venting at my mom over the phone, things like "what's with these directions?! why didn't she know about this?! where are you??" So later we get home, and we clarify the misunderstanding, and I apologize for being FRUSTRATED with her and she says, "It's ok, you have to let it out sometimes."

...

Wednesday, October 22, 2008

Wed, 22 Oct 2008 04:34:31 GMT

i just experienced the magic of sprinting.

it's amazing...what's interesting is that once my body got in the zone, i was unaware of my body and aware more of my mind. and my mind was saying "holy crap, we are moving FAST!"

one more day until norcal!
which means:
play date in san francisco filled with oysters, fresh fruits, eccentric people, art and red trolleys.
a spontaneous laughter filled hip hop workout
vino y dancing for a very important 25
an unconventional beachside wedding i'm looking forward to
a date with one of my best friends who happens to be 45
a full day with the baby i've missed and who squealed "i excited TOO!!!"
being in close proximity with long term loves.

Tuesday, October 14, 2008

Tue, 14 Oct 2008 05:18:53 GMT

I WANT ONE!!!!!

he seriously gets so freaking ridiculously cute. gyu, 4:35 so freaking cute. you don't have to watch it all. just the parts i tell you, not just the one i mentioned. u can call me when u watch it.

please? i want someone who makes me die cuz i'm laughing and having so much fun.
rosie wants that for me too! ya-hohhhh~

neh gah cheng pi heh?
ah nee. jah lang seu luh wuh.

what happened to me. i've reduced to a gushing school girl again.
but i'm serious. about what i want.
and right now i want someone who makes me die laughing.
well...that's just for starters....

Saturday, October 04, 2008

Sat, 04 Oct 2008 19:36:40 GMT

today i will clean the clutter around me in hopes that i will clean out the clutter of my mind.

Father, i want it ALL!!!!

Thursday, September 25, 2008

Thu, 25 Sep 2008 04:34:34 GMT

few ramblings...

-been busy. really busy. hoping to unwind a little this upcoming weekend. by unwinding, i mean not doing anything. maybe go out to the beach before it starts getting really cold. anyone want in? how about a bike ride????
-my heart keeps longing for thinks i don't believe in anymore.
-even so, i'm starting to have a school girl crush on mosaic.
-looking for community
-serious, g. it's time for some fresh music.
-i revisted a old list of things i want to do before i die, turns out i completed some of those tasks. that's crazy exciting because the list wasn't even in my mind frame when i did any of them. some goals i haven't completed yet but got close!

examples:
- be able to carry my own weight. (yes, i can. but i want to be able specifically to lift myself up, from a hanging, pull-up stance. just in case i am hanging over a cliff. yes, this is the real reason.)
-travel with just one carry on bag (yucatan & guatemala/honduras)
-live closer to my family
-develop close friendships with people of different generations.
-learn different dance forms (now this i'm so excited about because when i wrote this about 3 years ago, i didn't think i would actually be in a place where i actually am doing this. these goals were just lustful wishful thoughts.)
-run through hundreds of trees on I-5 (so, I sat in an orchard by myself on the 5, i pulled over on the freeway, and decided not to run through because it's considered trespassing. so i decided to just sneak in and sit, indian-style, undetected. the running through is still desperately on my list though!)
-run my own business. (whoa. this just caught my eye on the list. damn.)

random things still on the list:
-do a laughing meditation
-remember how to calculate with an abacus
-milk a cow
-watch people blow glass
-paint on a REALLY big canvas
-ride a glider

final ramble:

why?!!! do i attract that type of guy?! arghhhhhhh.

Sunday, September 21, 2008

Sun, 21 Sep 2008 22:06:26 GMT

damn this has been a loonng week, no?!

Wednesday, September 03, 2008

Wed, 03 Sep 2008 05:21:01 GMT

so i kinda forgot that i am an extreme person until i was talking to gyuhee on the phone today telling her about my experience at terra nova.

me: it was great. it was. i'm just waiting for the pastor to reveal some major flaw. and you know, i hope it's not a cult.
gyu: do you know what's coming out of your mouth?

but terra nova was great. i forgot about a community that attempts to invest in character. i met some great people, did things i haven't before. made friends with comedic genuises, dancing souls, and impassioned poets. witnessed a beautiful drummer with a beautiful spirit, a saxophonist who blew out my mind, and lots of folks i want to continue to be around.

this video amazes and saddens me. it fills me with a longing for a few different things/people. and the details from the guy in the red hat are brilliant to me. enjoy though, this is from folks at mosaic, but not from terra nova.

Thursday, July 31, 2008

Thu, 31 Jul 2008 20:56:12 GMT

balls out, no joke.

i am beat.
work hard. play hard. is hard on the body and soul.

need to retreat into the resting lonelies.

thank you.
[bows. falls over.]
thunk.

i think she's pretty amazing.