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Wednesday, May 11, 2005

Wed, 11 May 2005 00:18:57 GMT

Wow, I'm SERIOUSLY almost done. I took all my take-home finals. I just need to revise my Buddhism paper tonite, and that's it. And I'm moving all my stuff this Thur. I am going to go beg for boxes from the Kroger across the street from my apt tonite. Then I'm off to San Antonio on Friday. I want to spend at least a quality day with Jenny before her graduation on Sat. Then I'm coming back and leaving for Korea on Monday. I feel like a grown-up with a busy schedule.

I killed two big-ass roaches last nite. It was so disgusting. I had to keep spraying raid onto them. They hopped out while I was taking out the trash. I'm so glad I'm moving soon!

Feel like so many ppl are going away. Tommy for good, and Becky for a lil bit at least. For me too, this week is crucial. I hope to find out certain things in a day or two. It might come down to now or never. I don't know. People can be quite heartless. It's kind of scary.

The pic's have nothing to do with my entry, but oh well... Enjoy!

Friday, May 06, 2005

Fri, 06 May 2005 00:13:05 GMT

I feel like an ugly duckling. Why am I here? I keep asking myself the same question. "I wanna be beautiful. Make you stand in awe ..."

My goal tonite is to finish my Buddhism paper as well as my phil paper. I haven't even started my phil paper, but I think I have a pretty good idea about my topic. So hopefully, it'll be a piece of cake. I just had a bacon classic with a biggie-sized french fries from Wendy's. I am so full I can't think.

Music in general is so misleading, it seems. The world appears to be such a beautiful place when I'm listening to certain songs. But once the songs end, I'm left with an even bigger hole in my heart. I sigh and realize I'm back in this world, where I feel sober and things are sobering. I don't like waking up to feel like I've just been stranded in a dreary place. Oh trees, flowers, and even the sky are as beautiful in this place as anywhere else. Yet they don't smell of life. They are like pretty dolls with a fixed, artificial smile.

Wednesday, May 04, 2005

Wed, 04 May 2005 21:49:19 GMT

Yes, he is my dog. The striking difference between the hairy and hairless Happy. Anyways, he is a hot beast.

Friday, April 29, 2005

Fri, 29 Apr 2005 03:24:32 GMT

Thursday, April 28, 2005

Thu, 28 Apr 2005 00:49:28 GMT

²É (Flower) - ±èÃá¼ö

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³»°¡ ±×ÀÇ ÀÌ¸§À» ºÒ·¯ ÁÖ¾úÀ» ¶§/ ±×´Â ³ª¿¡°Ô·Î ¿Í¼/ ²ÉÀÌ µÇ¾ú´Ù. (When I called his name, he came to me and became a flower.)

³»°¡ ±×ÀÇ ÀÌ¸§À» ºÒ·¯ ÁØ °ÍÃ³·³/ ³ªÀÇ ÀÌ ºû±ò°ú Çâ±â¿¡ ¾Ë¸Â´Â/ ´©°¡ ³ªÀÇ ÀÌ¸§À» ºÒ·¯ ´Ù¿À./ ±×¿¡°Ô·Î °¡¼ ³ªµµ/ ±×ÀÇ ²ÉÀÌ µÇ°í ½Í´Ù. (Like I called his name, according to my hue and fragrance, someone please call my name. I want to become a flower for him.)

¿ì¸®µéÀº ¸ðµÎ/ ¹«¾ùÀÌ µÇ°í ½Í´Ù./ ³ª´Â ³Ê¿¡°Ô ³Ê´Â ³ª¿¡°Ô/ ÀØÇôÁöÁö ¾Ê´Â ÇÏ³ªÀÇ ´«ÁþÀÌ µÇ°í ½Í´Ù. (We all want to be something, an unforgettable glance/wink (not clear which is the right translation).)

Why is it so hard to like anyone? Why am I such a misanthrope? I'm so impatient, irritable, and unreasonably demanding with ppl. I'm really not looking for responses like, "No, you are a nice person" at all. I know myself. I feel like I have a poison running through my blood. I need to rid myself of it.

Tuesday, April 26, 2005

Tue, 26 Apr 2005 04:45:08 GMT

If MY daughter told me she wanted to marry a potential wife-beater/abuser (in my eyes) I'd threaten her by saying I'd sever ties with her if she insisted, just like those traditional Korean parents in soap operas.

But I wouldn't do it for wrong reasons. When it comes to my daughter, the foremost things I would look at are, 1. Whether the guy treats her like a princess, and 2. Whether she's in love with him as well.

By "treating her like a princess" all I'm implying is that he treat her whole-heartedly with genuine love and care. I'm not saying he needs to shower her with material gifts. I just want the guy to be someone that makes her feel precious/cherished. Then and only then will i allow her to marry the guy.

If condition 1 is lacking, even if condition 2 is satisfied, I'd say a firm 'NO' to her. That you gotta love someone you marry is a given, but I don't believe in falling in love with insincere jerks. First of all, I don't see how it's possible for an individual to love someone that's not really in love with him/her. Secondly, being in love with someone who doesn't love me as much as I love him doesn't sit well with me. True, I might be self-centered in being that way, but I'd be too disturbed to stay in the relationship if that was the case.

For me, love is all or nothing. Only on a solid basis, can love mature into something grand.

Random pic of the day: Our Ming Ming (my family's old doggie)

Sunday, April 17, 2005

Sun, 17 Apr 2005 03:52:11 GMT

I was checking out random stuff on the web, which i haven't been doing in a while. I came across this awesome article on sexual abstinence, http://www.boundless.org/regulars/kaufman/a0000838.html. We tend to think teenage sex is wrong b/c teenagers in general are unable to take responsibilities for the consequences that might arise (unwanted baby, for example). Also there is a probability of contracting STD's. I didn't know 1. herpes was a STD and 2. it's not curable once you get it. How horrifying!

Anyways, the article makes a point that premarital sex is wrong b/c God prescribed sex within the bounds of marriage. In the author's own words, "It's in marriage that sex finds its intended meaning: lasting lifelong intimacy on every level. That's not only a good thing, it's a holy thing. The fact that it can produce children is far from incidental. The creation of life is one of the great earthly manifestations of the love of God; the loving life together of man and woman is meant to produce children bound to them in a great circle of love." I never understood, in a meaningful way, why women are designed to become pregnant after sex. If you have 5 min to spare, read the article.

Friday, April 15, 2005

Fri, 15 Apr 2005 02:30:05 GMT

I think this girl's hair is HOT! I don't think I can pull it off b/c my face is kinda long, but that hair is so beautiful. It's probably her face too, I admit.

I'll share with you pics I took when I went to Moody Gardens this past January. Look at that creepy yellow eye.

The penguins looked like they had their arms/flaps raised for some kind of ritual. Animals are cool, don't you think?

Monday, April 11, 2005

Mon, 11 Apr 2005 00:28:53 GMT

YUM, my discipleship mtg with Becky was awesome. It was a good sharing time. I'm happy. The theme of the pics I'm posting today is "When I am happy." So here they are!

I notice someone looking at me so I hold up my fist at him/her ( I know my hc members will think this is very typical of me, but look, I'm j/k, okai?)

Then I laugh cuz I feel silly & embarrassed, and then I laugh with my eyes closed cuz I'm happy.

And then I'm SO happy that I can't stop laughing.

My story doesn't make any sense at all, but still thought it would be kinda fun/nice for you all to see someone laugh! Have a good week where you feel loving and loved!

Sunday, April 10, 2005

Sun, 10 Apr 2005 03:09:13 GMT

I've been missing out. I finally learned to use "photobucket" to upload pics on my xanga. Yes! I'm posting pics of the Hermann Park. I took these in February 25, 2005. It was such a beautiful day, I remember. I luuuub my digital camera. My fav. ones are the last and the 2nd to last one. Tell me which one you like!