Currently Listening Fungus Amongus By Incubus Hot Dancer see related

so um life is pretty boring. i have school a lot, and lots of homework which i should probably be doing right now, but instead i am listening to music and not getting anything done. im so good at that. so i have a bit of a problem. Friday night is the last S1eepisdead concert that the original guitarist will be at. Friday night also happens to be Gallaghers party in athens, which i told mark i'd go to. Now i know if i go to the concert, it will probably be natalieandjoey (which is all one word for a reason) along with myself. You all know how i love being the third wheel and all, but i dont want to make mark go to something he doesnt really like. And i dont much care for supporting the old sleepisdead gang because well morgan doesnt much give a fuck about getting in contact with me ever so i dont feel too much of an obligation to them anymore.

On the other hand, theres a party which i could attend and possibly get wasted and spend the night with mark. Im not seeing a downside to that. I guess fate all depends in the hands of my mother and what she will allow me to do.

Currently Reading Siddhartha By Hermann Hesse see related

yay i saw chris martin dancing! i took mark to a coldplay concert last night for his graduation present. we ordered really good tickets, but since the credit card company hadn't gotten our address changed yet, ticketmaster couldnt send the tickets. of course, instead of calling or sending an email or anything, they just cancelled the order and didn't tell us. luckily, we found out before the lawn seats sold out so we got to see them, although we had to sit on a very wet ground for an hour and i had to stand on my toes the majority of the time to see the one and only chris martin. but all i really wanted out of it is for mark to be happy, because i did buy the tickets for him. i really really hope he liked it. I think he almost fell asleep on the way home 3 times though. i think the experience was completely ruined by the horrid conditions of getting out of the parking lot and back on to 270. i fell asleep on accident and felt really bad. woopsies.

They played Till Kingdom Come, which had a lot of meaning to both mark and i, as well as Amsterdam, which is going to be our wedding song. yay!    bye kids

eh i started school. it doesnt suck. it is much better than highschool. i just hate the fact that i have a 2 hour break on mondays and fridays and an entire 3 hour break on wednesdays. other than that, it aint too shabby at all.

in other news, mark and i went to chillocothe last night. i dunno why but i was being a huge bitch. i was just being very emotional and overly sensitive. i dunno, i apologized and such like a thousand times. im just  a stupid girl like that sometimes. he also started talking about serious stuff and it made me cry. i worry myself sick about him going to school. i want him to have so much friggin fun, but at the same time i dont want him to leave me. because then i would be dead.

i dunno, im just stuck in a shit hole of a situation. once we get used to it hopefully it won't be too bad. other people have pulled off the ol' college/highschool relationship, right?

hear ye hear ye, i have a decree from far across the land:

The lord Mark Miller is having a mad crazy gathering at his castle friday night. if you are his friend, he probably wants you to come. so do it. i dare you.