ok so last night was totally to fun for word! erica and natalie are definitely my funnest girls! late night dancing and omg we met these four guys! you should have seen them dance! like i didn't have to move, i jus stood there and i looked good with them dancing around us! so it was definitely sad when we had to leave ..but we all decided to go to deny's and each and get to know each other ..which was weird cause my mom was at the same deny's we ended up in ..at 2 in the morning?...idk well we all started telling these scary stories! and one of the boys told us some shit about donkey lady ..i was petrified! ..and what's worse is the on the way home we went thru look out road. all i could think about was donkey lady coming out and stomping us to death!  so we definitly didn't go to sleep till like 5 or 6!

 

well i had a doctors appointment like yesterday about my spinabifida because lately i was having these like stabbing pains on my back. well turns out it wasn't anything jus that i should be careful when i fall and stuff . except for the part when the doctor said that i might have some problems giving labor..if i ever do of course. well idk i didn't think much about it cause i mean i dont really want kids right now maybe later .. well the thing about ppl with spina bifida is that they dont walk straight ..which i do i am one of the most fortunate ones ..he said.. and that most have many surgeries ..i haven't needed one  and that most kids with severe dont live past the age of 25..it didn't bother me much because he said the word ..SEVERE..and im not severe. but he said even mild ppl dont live longer then 60 ..so that's when it got me thinking. well after the appointment my mom asked me if i was ok ..and i said yea why..she brought up the fact about labor problems ..she explained that now women are able to get some sort of shot before labor so it doesn't hurt so much.i forgot what its called any way they get it right on the spinal cord ..i cant use one of those ..i have to do the all natural labor and that's not the worse part..so the doctor thought best if my mom told me that it is fatal for me to be pregnant  cause cause my back isnt as storng as most ppl but strong enough for hard fall and car accidents ..but during labor i could be paralyzed or even..w/e ... so i guess kids wont be an option for me ..my mom said if i do i have to quit at one.so it makes me sad cause i wanted a big family. idk why but it doesn't bother me so much now but i have a feeling that when it comes time ..its gonna be hard for me i guess ill de depressed forever ..well w/e i shouldn't think of that now. i concider myself normal and ill live y life normal.

 

on a better note: Andie comes home soon!  what should i get her for her birthday?!!?

<3 Ana