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| BK SICKHoly shit this is so insane. I haven't written in this thing since I was getting dominated by depression. I stole so much fucking shit when I was depressed you have no idea. No seriously, you have no idea. I hope I can make this private because what if my parents find this. Bummer.
I still want to ride my bike with Kriss for a long time though.
Me and Katie are still going out and it's almost a year. A YEAR. I can hardly believe that. I never ever thought I'd ever be able to be with a girl for a year. Crazy.
Well, we got signed. Everyone who reads this already knew that. It just feels good typing it. Too bad it will only last for another year and a half and then college is gonna take over my life. Sometimes I wish I could put my life on hold and just ride out the band for longer, but I know I would regret that in the end. I'd be in college when I'm 29 and be really bummed. Plus Katie probably wouldn't go for that. Even though she's gonna be gone and in college. I wonder if we'll stay together. I hope so but sometimes it seems like that would be impossible. She'd be home on some weekends, but we'd probly have shows. Christmas break, we tour. I kinda foresee it causing a lot of stress on our relationship. But I think it'll work out.
Jesse and Seth need to get happier. Jesse is better looking than me so I don't see what his problem is. Seth is smarter than me so he's about to be set for life. But who am I to talk. I know what they're going through, kind of. As long as they dont break into buildings and trainhop and hitchhike it'll be fine.
We are getting so many sponsorships. Cheap gear...awesome.
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| omfg i can't wait for my explosion of emotions to come out in physical form. it's gonna tear down my family and friends. | | |
| i don't like it when people say they wont ever find the person they're
supposed to marry. it's just them trying to get attention.
honestly...look at the people in this world who have gotten married. my
old piano teacher when i was 6 or 7...ugliest lady in the freaking
world, totally had sex tons of times with her husband. but honestly,
don't say that, because it's lame.
i don't have the right things to say to anyone to make them want me.
i'm a friend to everyone, but nothing more. i've said in the past that
i want to move away to another state, even another country, but that
isn't what i want. i don't want to "move" anywhere, i want to move
everywhere. i don't want to have a house, or apartment. i wanna fit
whatever i can into my backback and get on my bike next to chris and
his stuffed backpack, and i want us to ride our bikes on highway 24
west until it ends somewhere in missouri, then flip a coin and if it
lands heads we'll go north, tails we'll go south. i usually flip tails,
so we'd be in texas soon.
it's fucking stupid because it won't happen. it will happen. but it
won't happen how i want it to. eventually i'll have to return to my
friends that i love, but can live without. there's only a few i'd die
for. i think it's crazy if you have a ton of people you'd give your
life for. who are you trying to be, some sort of hero? i take medicine.
nothing. and it's fucking stupid because it won't happen how i want it
to.
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| it's been like, 9 months since i've written in this thing. i only
wrote in it twice. i'm so awesome. no one even knows i have one of
these. it's gonna be more serious than my livejournal i think. that
being said, i really want to find a long term girlfriend. the only
problem is, i still want to be able to be best friends with sam. i
don't think any girl would let me hang out with sam as much as i do and
still be in a relationship with them.
i want to be in love with God, but i don't think i can be. i'm too selfish.
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| i had sex 4,657,981 times last night. seriously. but not really.
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