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Saturday, October 22, 2005

Sat, 22 Oct 2005 04:39:11 GMT

I really really really wish i knew what i wanted. It's sooo incredibly confusing.

Sunday, October 09, 2005

Sun, 09 Oct 2005 05:03:18 GMT

I don't feel like updating, but i also don't feel like going to bed.... so i suppose i could give you a little sneak peak at my life.

schools good. I got a 91 in chemistry. thats right bitch. i got a freaking 91! i know. be jelouse. lol, uhmm and i got bs n cs besides that. oh and a 70 in math. but its math so i doesn't really count. haha. uh, works going good. I have $640 saved so far. that car is lookin mighty fine right now. Last weekend i got in trouble, so i cant drive for like a month... it basically blows alot! haha andd lets see thats basically it for me. I went to manda's house last night with katie and it was funn, we watched that Amettyville Horror. idk how to spell it... but you get the picture... it was a good movie though! i definatly recomend it. lol Then, today i went and ordered my class ring, and chick-fil-a and such. it was delicious. and thenn tonight i went to cynthia's house for dinner. and i watched the ¢¾astros!!¢¾ they kicked some major butt!!! i decided that baseball is my favorite sport to watch. football is fun when your there.... but a little to confusing for me on tv. haha.

Its getting coooooolddd!! im stoked !!!

wellll i think im gonna go.

maybe ill update more later? .... don't count on it though... haha

<- thats out off a book that i read! (Gossip girl!!!) there gooood books

Tuesday, September 27, 2005

Tue, 27 Sep 2005 14:25:44 GMT

Not, alot going on, the hurricane completely sucked. if i do say so myself.

This weekend went by slow and fast at times. saturday night i stayed at Manda's house, even though she didn't have power... her house was alot cooler than mine. idk why. but anyways it was alot of fun!! haha. uhm and thenn sunday i hung out with lindsy for the afternoon/night and Matt and Ross and Parker and Sam at nightime. lol uhm yes thenn

Yesturday was pretty fun, did some nothingness and then work till like 8. and then i ment Matt Lindsy and Ross back at my house and we hung out. and we watched this movie... that was intresting to say the least. It was funny. just not a movie i would watch over again... haha idk. anyways.

i have to work again today. possibly. I hope so, something to do. and i have homework. only im thinking about not doing it....

<I hope I'm getting paid alot...

thats all for now. ill add more later. for now. breakfast!

Thursday, September 22, 2005

Thu, 22 Sep 2005 16:37:27 GMT

There is a hurricane coming. im kinda excited. now that i know its most likely going east of us. lol

Thursday, September 15, 2005

Thu, 15 Sep 2005 20:24:19 GMT

So uhm, let's see school's going alright, I think im doing alot better in chemistry lately... so thats good. uhm, I started my new job, and its already kicking my butt! ugh real jobs suck!

I've been driving alot lately... i LOVE it!!! I drove around for like an hour yesturday it was pretty sweet.

i miss the way things use to be.

uhm. thats all for now.

i LOVE you.

FIND YOUR BIRTHDAY MONTH! AND READ IT!
JANUARY:
You've got the best personality (bar none) and am an absolute pleasure to be around. You are probably a massive Burzum fan, and more than likely have an a very attractive partner. It is also more than likely that you have a massive record collection (that is better than anybody elses from any other month). YOu have a great choice in films, and may one day become a famous actor yourself - hell! youve got the looks for it!!! You are definitly more metal than anyone born in February (especially Simon from Seventh Cross).
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FEBRUARY:
Abstract thoughts. Loves reality and abstract. Intelligent and clever. Changing personality. Attractive. sexy. Temperamental. Quiet, shy and humble. Honest and loyal. Determined to reach goals. Loves freedom. Rebellious when restricted. Loves aggressiveness. Too sensitive and easily hurt. Gets angry really easily but does not show it. Dislikes unnecessary things. Loves making friends but rarely shows it. Daring and stubborn. Ambitious. Realizing dreams and hopes. Sharp. Loves entertainment and leisure. Romantic on the inside not outside. Superstitious and ludicrous. Spendthrift. Tries to learn to show emotions.
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MARCH:
Attractive personality. sexy. Affectionate Shy and reserved. Secretive. Naturally honest, generous and sympathetic. Loves peace and serenity. Sensitive to others. Loves to serve others. Easily angered. Trustworthy. Appreciative and returns kindness. Observant and assesses others. Revengeful. Loves to dream and fantasize. Loves traveling. Loves attention. Hasty decisions in choosing partners. Loves home decors. Musically talented. Loves special things. Moody.
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APRIL:
Active and dynamic. Decisive and haste but tends to regret. Attractive and affectionate to oneself. Strong mentality. Loves attention. Diplomatic. Consoling, friendly and solves people's problems. Brave and fearless. Adventurous. Loving and caring. Suave and generous. Usually you have many friends. Enjoys to make love. Emotional. Stubborn. Hasty. Good memory. Moving, motivates oneself and others. Loves to travel and explore. Sometimes sexy in a way that only their lover can understand.
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MAY
Stubborn and hard-hearted. Strong-willed and highly motivated. Sharp thoughts. Easily angered. Attracts others and loves attention. Deep feelings. Beautiful physically and mentally. Firm Standpoint. Needs no motivation. Easily consoled. Systematic (left brain). Loves to dream. Strong clairvoyance. Understanding. Sickness usually in the ear and neck. Good imagination. Good physical. Weak breathing. Loves literature and the arts. Loves traveling. Dislike being at home. Restless. Not having many children. Hardworking. High spirited. Totally BADASS. Best person you'll ever meet!
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JUNE:
Easy to talk to. Thinks far with vision. Easily influenced by kindness. Polite and soft-spoken. Having lots of ideas. Sensitive. Active mind. Hesitating, tends to delay. Choosy and always wants the best. Temperamental. Funny and humorous. Loves to joke. Good debating skills. Has that someone* always on his/her mind. Talkative. Daydreamer. Friendly. Knows how to make friends. Abiding. Able to show character. one guy/girl kind of person. Loveable. Easily hurt. Prone to getting colds. loves music. pretty/handsome. Loves to dress up. Easily bored. Fussy. Seldom shows emotions. Takes time to recover when hurt. Sensitive. Down-to-Earth. Stubborn.
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JULY:
Fun to be with. Secretive. Difficult to fathom and to be understood. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Takes pride in oneself. Has reputation. Easily consoled. Honest. Concerned about people's feelings. Tactful. Friendly. Approachable. Emotional temperamental and unpredictable. Moody and easily hurt. Witty and sparkly. spazzy at times. Not revengeful. Forgiving but never forgets. dislikes nonsensical and unnecessary things. Guides others physically and mentally. Sensitive and forms impressions carefully. Caring and loving. Treats others equally. Strong sense of sympathy. Wary and sharp. Judges people through observations. Hardworking. No difficulties in studying. Loves to be alone. Always broods about the past and the old friends. HOT. Waits for friends. Never looks for friends. Not aggressive unless provoked. Loves to be loved. Easily hurt but takes long to recover.
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AUGUST:
outgoing personality. takes risks. feeds on attention. no self control. kind hearted. self confident. loud and boisteroius. VERY revengeful. easy to get along with and talk to. has an "everything's peachy" attitude. likes talking and singing. loves music. daydreamer. easily distracted. Hates not being trusted. BIG imagination. loves to be loved. hates studying. in need of "that someone". longs for freedom. rebellious when withheld or restricted. lives by "no pain no gain" caring. always a suspect. playful. mysterious. "charming" or "beautiful" to a special person. stubborn. courious. independent. strong willed. a fighter.

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SEPTEMBER:
Suave and compromising. Careful, cautious and organized. Likes to point out people's mistakes. Likes to criticize. Stubborn. Quiet but able to talk well. Calm and cool. Kind and sympathetic. Concerned and detailed. Loyal and always honest. Does work well. Very confident. Sensitive. Positive Attitude. Thinking generous. Good memory. Clever and knowledgeable. Loves to look for information. Must control oneself when criticizing. Able to motivate oneself. Understanding. Fun to be around. Secretive. Loves sports, leisure and traveling. Hardly shows emotions. Tends to bottle up feelings. Very choosy, especially in relationships. Systematic. sexy but has brains.
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OCTOBER:
Loves to chat. Loves those who love them. Loves to takes things at the center. Inner and physical beauty. Lies but doesn't pretend. Gets angry often. Treats friends importantly. Brave and fearless. Always making friends. Easily hurt but recovers easily. Daydreamer. Opinionated. Does not care to control emotions. Unpredictable. Extremely smart, but definately the hottest AND sexiest of them all.
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NOVEMBER:
Trustworthy and loyal. Very passionate and dangerous. Wild at times. Knows how to have fun. Sexy and mysterious. Very skilled at making love. Everyone is drawn towards your inner and outer beauty and independent personality. Messy, playful, secretive. Very emotional and temperamental sometimes. Meets new people easily and very social in a group. Fearless and independent. Can hold their own. Stands out in a crowd. Essentially very smart. Usually, the greatest men are born in this month. If you ever begin a relationship with someone from this month, hold on to them because their one of a kind.
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DECEMBER:
This straight-up means ur the most good-looking person possible... better than all of these other months!Loyal and generous. SEXY. Patriotic. Competetive in everything. Active in games and interactions. Impatient and hasty. Ambitious. Influential in organizations. Fun to be with. Loves to socialize. Loves praises. Loves attention. Loves to be loved. Honest and trustworthy. Not pretending. Changing. Fearless

Sunday, September 11, 2005

Sun, 11 Sep 2005 20:27:00 GMT

This is a tribute to the nice girls. To the nice girls who are overlooked, who become friends and nothing more, who spend hours fixating upon their looks and their personalities and their actions because it must be they that are doing something wrong. This is for the girls who don't give it up on the first date, who don't want to play mind games, who provide a comforting hug and a supportive audience for a story they've heard a thousand times. This is for the girls who understand that they aren't perfect and that the guys they're interested in aren't either, for the girls who flirt and laugh and worry and obsess over the slightest glance, whisper, touch, because somehow they are able to keep alive that hope that maybe... maybe this time he'll have understood. This is a homage to the girls who laugh loud and often, who are comfortable in skirts and sweats and combat boots, who care more than they should for guys who don't deserve their attention. This is for those girls who have been in the trenches, who have watched other girls time and time again fake up and make up and fuck up the guys in their lives without saying a word. This is for the girls who have been there from the beginning and have heard the trite words of advice, from "there are plenty of fish in the sea," to "time heals all wounds." This is to honor those girls who know that guys are just as scared as they are, who know that they deserve better, who are seeking to find it.

This is for the girls who have never been in love, but know that it's an experience that they don't want to miss out on. For the girls who have sought a night with friends and been greeted by a night of catcalling, rude Shattered Nights and explicit invitations that they'd rather not have experienced. This is for the girls who have spent their weekends sitting on the sidelines of a beer pong tournament or a case race, or playing Florence Nightingale for a vomiting guy friend or a comatose crush, who have received a drunk phone call just before dawn from someone who doesn't care enough to invite them over but is still willing to pass out in their bed. This is for the girls who have left sad song lyrics in their away messages, who have tried to make someone understand through a subliminally appealing profile, who have time and time again dropped their male friend hint after hint after hint only to watch him chase after the first blonde girl in a skirt. This is for the girls who have been told that they're too good or too smart or too pretty, who have been given compliments as a way of breaking off a relationship, who have ever been told they are only wanted as a friend.

This one's for the girls who you can take home to mom, but won't because it's easier to sleep with a whore than foster a relationship; this is for the girls who have been led on by words and kisses and touches, all of which were either only true for the moment, or never real to begin with. This is for the girls who have allowed a guy into their head and heart and bed, only to discover that he's just not ready, he's just not over her, he's just not looking to be tied down; this is for the girls who believe the excuses because it's easier to believe that it's not that they don't want you, it's that they don't want anyone. This is for the girls who have had their hearts broken and their hopes dashed by someone too cavalier to have cared in the first place; this is for the nights spent dissecting every word and syllable and inflection in his speech, for the nights when you've returned home alone, for the nights when you've seen from across the room him leaning a little too close, or standing a little too near, or talking a little too softly for the girl he's with to be a random hookup. This is for the girls who have endured party after party in his presence, finally having realized that it wasn't that he didn't want a relationship: it was that he didn't want you. I honor you for the night his dog died or his grandmother died or his little brother crashed his car and you held him, thinking that if you only comforted him just right, or said the right words, or rubbed his back in the right way then perhaps he'd realize what it was that he already had. This is for the night you realized that it would never happen, and the sunrise you saw the next morning after failing to sleep.

This is for the "I really like you, so let's still be friends" comment after you read more into a situation than he ever intended; this is for never realizing that when you choose friends, you seldom choose those which make you cry yourself to sleep. This is for the hugs you've received from your female friends, for the nights they've reassured you that you are beautiful and intelligent and amazing and loyal and truly worthy of a great guy; this is for the despair you all felt as you sat in the aftermath of your tears, knowing that that night the only companionship you'd have was with a pillow and your teddy bear. This is for the girls who have been used and abused, who have endured what he was giving because at least he was giving something; this is for the stupidity of the nights we've believed that something was better than nothing, though his something was nothing we'd have ever wanted. This is for the girls who have been satisified with too little and who have learned never to expect anything more: for the girls who don't think that they deserve more, because they've been conditioned for so long to accept the scraps thrown to them by guys.

This is what I don't understand. Men sit and question and whine that girls are only attracted to the mean guys, the guys who berate them and belittle them and don't appreciate them and don't want them; who use them for sex and think of little else than where their next conquest will be made. Men complain that they never meet nice girls, girls who are genuinely interested and compelling, who are intelligent and sweet and smart and beautiful; men despair that no good women want to share in their lives, that girls play mindgames, that girls love to keep them hanging. Yet, men, I ask you: were you to meet one of these genuinely interested, thrillingly compelling, interesting and intelligent and sweet and beautiful and smart girls, were you to give her your number and wait for her to call... and if you were to receive a call from her the next day and she, in her truthful, loyal, intelligent and straightforward nice girl fashion, were to tell you that she finds you intriguing and attractive and interesting and worth her time and perhaps material from which she could fashion a boyfriend, would you or would you not immediately call your friends to tell them of the "stalker chick" you'd met the night prior, who called you and wore her heart on her sleeve and told the truth? And would you, or would you not, refuse to make plans with her, speak with her, see her again, and once again return to the bar or club or party scene and search once more for this "nice girl" who you just cannot seem to find? Because therein lies the truth, guys: we nice girls are everywhere. But you're not looking for a nice girl. You're not looking for someone genuinely interested in your intermural basketball game, or your anatomy midterm grade, or that argument you keep having with your father; you're looking for a quick fix, a night when you can pretend to have a connection with another human being which is just as disposable as the condom you were using during it.

So don't say you're on the lookout for nice girls, guys, when you pass us up on every step you take. Sometimes we go undercover; sometimes we go in disguise: sometimes when that girl in the low cut shirt or the too tight miniskirt won't answer your catcalls, sometimes you're looking at a nice girl in whore's clothing - - we might say we like the attention, we might blush and giggle and turn back to our friends, but we're all thinking the same thing: "This isn't me. Tomorrow morning, I'll be wearing a teeshirt and flannel shorts, I'll have slept alone and I'll be making my hungover best friend breakfast. See through the disguise. See me." You never do. Why? Because you only see the exterior, you only see the slutty girl who welcomes those advances. You don't want the nice girl.. so don't say you're looking for a relationship: relationships take time and energy and intent, three things we're willing to extend - - but in return, we're looking for compassion and loyalty and trust, three things you never seem willing to express. Maybe nice guys finish last, but in the race they're running they're chasing after the whores and the sluts and the easy-targets... the nice girls are waiting at the finish line with water and towels and a congradulatory hug (and yes, if she's a nice girl and she likes you, the sweatiness probably won't matter), hoping against hope that maybe you'll realize that they're the ones that you want at the end of that silly race.

So maybe it won't last forever. Maybe some of those guys in that race will turn in their running shoes and make their way to the concession stand where we're waiting; however, until that happens, we still have each other, that silly race to watch, and all the chocolate we can eat (because what's a concession stand at a race without some chocolate?)

Saturday, September 10, 2005

Sat, 10 Sep 2005 23:49:39 GMT

It’s funny how hello is always accompanied with goodbye,
It's funny how good memories can start to make you cry.
It’s funny how forever never seems to really last,
It's funny how much you'd lose if you forgot about your past.
It’s funny how friends can just leave you when you're down,
It's funny how when you need someone they're never around.
It’s funny how people change and think they’re so much better,
It's funny how many lies can be packed in one "love letter".
It’s funny how people forgive even though they can't forget,
It's funny how one night can contain so much regret.
It’s funny how ironic life turns out to be,
But the funniest part of all, none of that's funny to me.

This is for the girls who have left sad song lyrics in their away messages, who have tried to make someone understand through a subliminally appealing profile, who have time and time again dropped their male friend hint after hint after hint only to watch him chase after the first blonde girl in a skirt.

This is my tribute to the nice girls. To the nice girls who are overlooked, who become friends and nothing more, who spend hours fixating upon their looks and their personalities and their actions because it must be they that are doing something wrong.

Fate decides who walks into your life
You decide Who stays.Who you allow
to walk away, aNd who you refuse to
L e t L e a v e Y o u

Went out to the Woodlands with Britt last night. twas funn. had a goood time! haha. then we saw The Man. oh my gah that is suchhh a funny movie! no joke! everyone should go see it. ahh love! anyways today we went to Old Navy, and I'm fixin to go out with the parents to run some errands... I'm such a good daughter... haha nooot! but church tomorrow. possibly lunch with mi amiga Katie Lynn. Hopefully we will do lunch or hang out or somethingbecuase i haven't seen her in a while...! weelll i must gooo!

<3 Jessica

Thursday, September 08, 2005

Thu, 08 Sep 2005 20:44:05 GMT

Happniess comes through a door you didn't even know you left open.

Ever notice that people that are late are alot more happy than those who have to wait on them?

Something to Think About....

As we grow up, we learn that even the one person that wasn't supposed to
ever let you down probably will.

You will have your heart broken
probably more than once and it's harder every time.

You'll break hearts
too, so remember how it felt when yours was broken.

You'll fight with
your best friend.

You'll blame a new love for things an old one did.

You'll cry because time is passing too fast, and you'll eventually lose
someone you love.....So take too many pictures, laugh too much, and love
like you've never been hurt because every sixty seconds you spend upset
is a minute of happiness you'll never get back

Silence is sometimes the best answer

Guess who got their license!! yah baby! thats right.

Friday, September 02, 2005

Fri, 02 Sep 2005 00:50:23 GMT

She says she doesn’t care
but the look in her eyes and
the tone of her voice
tells a different story .

The greatest challenge in life is to find
someone that knows all your ; flaws
differences & mistakes yet he still
manages to love everything about you

After all the rain you'll see the sun come out again. :0)

Trust your -heart- and believe in f.a.t.e.
Good things come to those who wait.

When a guy tells you that you're hot; he is looking at your body. When a guy tells you that you're pretty; he is looking at your face. When a guy tells you that you're beautiful; he is looking at your heart

Just to See you *S.M.I.L.E*..I'd do anything..

* it something that happens as you get older - -
* it becomes alot less important to have more friends - -
* and alot more important to have real ones - -

Wednesday, August 31, 2005

Wed, 31 Aug 2005 20:32:53 GMT

Church tonight. <3

1. We want to be hugged all the time no matter what!
2. We want you to show us affection even when people you know are around.
3. If you piss us off, we WILL kick you there, so don't push it.
4. Don't take us for granted.
5. If you like us, make your move before someone else does.
6. Not to sound selfish, but we'd much rather YOU call US.
7. If you don't shave, don't expect us too...
9. Don't make bets about us, because one of your friends will tell us, if you don't.
10. We don't care how sexy your ex was.
11. We absolutely do not care about how hot you think other girls are even if were not going out with you.
12. Even though you almost never are, we'll pretend that you're right sometimes.
13. Its not our job to make all the plans.
14. We understand that size doesn't matter.
15. We're not as shallow as you think we all are.
16. PMS is ALWAYS an excuse so get over it.
17. On that note, anything we say or do during that 4 days to a week each month cannot be held against us.
18. Ashton Kutcher IS hot, so get over it.
19. We like it when you say that you're sorry (even if its not entirely your fault)
20. The excuse "I can't dance" is absolutely unacceptable...we'll appreciate the effort.
21. if you Make fun of us...prepare to DIE!
22. The "little things" are really the biggest things
23. No girl just wants to be "your friend with benefits".
24. Don't smoke and expect us to kiss you, its gross beyond words.
25. We're sensitive.
26. When we trip and or fall, throw yourself upon the altar of sacrifice and humiliate yourself to make us feel better.
27. Don't lie to us...ever.
28. If we take the time to write you cute notes, write us back, we really like that.
29. Hold our hand!!!
~*~THE MOST IMPORTANT~*~
30. Dont ever just say I love you if you dont mean it. were not stupid and we can tell if you mean it

don't forget i'm allways here for you.