yeah, well school starts tomorrow.. i've been hanging out with a lot of friends latly.. haven't been getting into trouble :) ..

yeah we broke up.. again.. but this time i KNOW its for good. we aren't allowed to hang out with eachother for a while because if we do then we all know we'll just end up getting back together.. BLEH! so for now its school that we can only hang out at. we do have effing 3 DAMN classes! HAHA.

i don't know them by heart so i can't really post them now.. but i know i have kimpton first hour.. then davis second.. then math last hour.. mmkay .. soo

yeah xangas getting REALLY old.. i've had it since like.. what, last summer.. OH I'VE HAD XANGA FOR A YEAR! HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME & XANGA.. haha wow, this is gay. go to myspace everyone..

www.myspace.com <<

mine is www.myspace.com/carlyboyd_19

yeah, don't ask me why its carly boyd. . i accidently left it up while iwas singed on and my sister went on the computer and thought it was her myspace so she made that.. yeah, shes gayyy.

soo, i'm gonna try out for HOCKEY CHEERLEADING.

yeah i don't know what else to say sept i'll see you at school everyone! :) hope you had a good summer and yeah..

byee<33
sydNey*

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THIS POST IS DEDICATED TO MY BABY CODY.
I love you.

I have a boy.

yeah I don't know what to say. Me and Cody got back together. Some people told me it wasn't a good idea and that we should just move on. some people told me to stay with him. whatever, I just followed my heart. I really hope though that I did the right thing. I love him so much to let him go again. But I don't know, we'll see. I don't really want to type anymore about this.

anyways, on a lighter note... Today was pretty fun. I biked up to Codys house, woke him up and we biked to Tastee Freez and met up with Lauren and her boyfriend Eric. we all got a bite to eat and Cody left so Lauren Eric and I just sat there and chatted about things..Then I left to his house to hang out before I went to Homer for the weekend. But it turns out I'm not leaving until tomorrow morning, since my dumbass stupid slutty bitchass sister made some stupid shit mistake.. we can't leave until tomorrow. But so I went home then around nine biked to Codys house and hung out with him and jess until like, 10. then went home. now I'm sitting here, Tired/bored. I think I'm gonna go to bed now. I'll post maybe on Monday. have a fun weekend guys! <3

- by the way thank you Hana & I'm sorry.

Currently Listening Breakaway By Kelly Clarkson Behind These Hazel Eyes see related

I know I've said this before, but yesterday absolutly was the worst day of my life. It all started to be okay and all. I went home from Sydneys house, we sure had fun staying up all night talking about her boyfriend, Brandon, and my boyfriend, Cody. So her mom dropped me off at my house around ten. I layed on the couch watching tv. I guess I must have dozzed off because the next thing I knew Cody was calling me. So I talked to him saying I can't wait to see him since I hadn't seen him since Sunday. And I wouldn't be hanging out with him until Friday. I so couldn't wait until then! So anyways we're talking on the phone and I text him, "I love you baby <3" so hes like, wait! I got a new voice message. Let me check them and I'll call you right back. So we hang up. and I guess right .. now, is when his grandma calls him saying that my mom called Codys mom, Kim, yelling at her because Codys mom and Grandma both talked to me about sex. and my mom was ferious. So Codys grandma is telling him I don't know what. And then she calls me. saying it was out of line for my mom to tell kim to stay out of it, and all this stuff. It was so horrible. I was crying. And I figured, well, our parents aren't getting along, his grandma is way, wayy too into our relationship. and I figured it was for the best. So I texted him again, but this time saying "I think we should break up, its for the best..sorry." and he called me so I hung up with his grandma and he was like, So you wanna break up? I said yeah, only for the best. and he was like, okay. and we hung up. so his grandma called me back again saying the same things over again. I really didn't want to talk to her, at ALL. but still, she kept calling. So Cody called me back again, but this time was different. he was like, "you know. you're right. it is for the best." And i was like yeah. totally shocked that he thought that too. so hes like, so we're broken up now? I was like, .. yeah. trying soo hard to hold back the tears. and he was like okay. and we hung up. and I just felt, nothing. Just, so empty. So I called up John and talked to him. He wanted to know if there was anything he could do, so David, Speedy, and John came over, and while they were on their way over I talked to my sister.. and I talk to my older sister Jessica about everything so I told her what was going on, as I was bawling..It was soo hard to talk about it again. Just as I was talking to her the door bell rang, it was them. so they came in and Jessica left to her boyfriends house.. and we just hung out and me and john talked about soo many things. and everything, them being there, knowing he cared, and everything they were doing, like dacing retarded to my country music I was listening to just cheered me up. so we jumped on my trampoline... and my dad took them home later. and on the way home we got in a fight and I just wanted my mom. its funny how whenever you're hurting, no matter how old you are, you still always call for your mom. So I called her up and went to her house and when I got here my sister was on the computer. So I sat and watched tv. talked to her. told her that me and Cody broke up..and when I got online, seemed like everyone already knew. So I talked to Brian Chavaz. he just listened. and helped me. Thanks Brian. so Mike told me to call Cody because Cody wanted to talk to me. So I called and Cody said that Mike told him that I wanted to talk to him. but it seemed retarded to hang up because we both knew we had something to say. So I went in my room and we talked. He said he thoguht it was best. and I kept bawling. So we hung up, and I set the phone down and started bawling. and everything that we've been through just flashed in front of me. I mean, EVERYTHING. All the walks, holding hands. staying up till 1 am texting. The towl whipping. water fights. just, everything. it was horrible it was like a movie played of us in front of me.. I kept listening to that song by kelly clarkson - behind these hazel eyes. every word fits just perfect how I felt. I cried soo hard like, I've never cried before. My eyes were blood shot.  So around three am I went in my moms room and I had to sleep with her. And I fell asleep listening to the rain..

¢¾ Sydney.