Insomnia kind of blows. I realized I actually have something to talk about. I'm bored, and just feel like typing or doing something before I try to fall asleep. I don't know. I'm kind of bored with this site lately, I really wish people I knew had one, besides the two that do. It's nice to read shit and comment and whatnot or whatever. People do lurk around this, but never really bother to leave something. I realize as time goes by and as years pass by, you start losing people. Slowly. Maybe it isn't happening to everyone, but like, if I think about every person I talked to freshman year, and now, only half of them are still people I talk to either as an acquaintence or a school friend or whatever. It's somewhat lonely, but it's life, and hopefully I meet more people down the road. I really hope I get into a decent college after community college. It's kind of scary thinking about being on my own. I really need to get enough money to support me, along with like, a car as well. I just hope I'm happy. I can say I'm happy now, and that's a good thing. It's been awhile since I felt this way.

Wow. This jumped around a tad. Stream-of-consciousness. Boooya.

I really need to get motivated

To save money for shit
And somehow get better at my life, with learning and school so I can go to college. I wish I had the smarts.

I really do.

This layout is real cute. Cause I made it. Hah.

I really need to start expressing my emotions.

I wanna say something. But I can't. I just fucking can't. I don't want to, it's not right to do it too soon.
But I do. I don't know. Maybe I'm just used to it happening previously. I just, don't know.

See, I couldn't even say how I really felt up there.

I feel like if I say one thing, I will blow up. Just in general with things. Even at work I keep my trap shut, I just don't know why. I'm letting people walk all over me again, which blows. I really need to cut this shit out and stand on my own ground. It may make people dislike me, but you can't win them all.

My weekend = pretty epic. I saw my boyfriend three days in a row.

And yesterday was the first time I got remotely jealous. I mean, how would you feel if some random girl pounced on your boyfriend? I was upset, and pushing it out of my mind made it worse, I just seemed like I was in a bad mood. But besides that, it was a good time and I enjoy being with him.