| | i am completely over it. i dont know why..but i am. my friend phil has been talking to me a lot about things, and i just woke up the other morning and was completely fine. it is kind of sucky how things can change so fast within a persons heart. true love doesn't change. you dont fall out of love. love is always, love is forever. so, i am happy for her. at least we both know that she never loved me. i on the other hand have always loved her, and always will...it will be a different kind of love now i believe...there will alwasy be sexual attraction, there will always be personality draws, there will always be the memories of the good times and the bad that we had. i am ready to move on. i am ready to take a step forward, not leaving that behind, but moreso taking it with me as an "experience" as we both used to say. we never wanted "experience". haha, it is kind of funny in a way that things turned out the way they did. i still go to bed holding the stuffed monkey she gave me (STILL smells like her), and i still wake up in the middle of the night wishing she was next to me..but its ok, because she will always have that affect on me. i dont know where i am going with this i guess. i will always miss her, ALWAYS...she has changed completely though. she is a completely different person, and i am now a completely different person. it is really sad that we are parting ways and that she leaves in three days. i have this feeling that we are never going to see eachother again...it is weird...well, i have to go...i just wish her the best of luck and all. find someone that can make you happy. date people that are better than me, because there are a lot of people like that, and dont have too much fun with your newfound independence that you have always wanted...if there is one thing i have learned it is that independence is what you make it..partying is not something you should do with your independence..maybe party a little, but be aware of what you're doing/taking/saying all the time. |
| | Posted 8/9/2003 1:52 PM - 4 views - 1 comments
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