yougotme_socaughtup's Xanga

Wednesday, October 26, 2005

Wed, 26 Oct 2005 20:12:30 GMT

hey guyss! life is so great right now, i think it would be hard for it to go any better, except for maybe a couple things? schools pretty stressful, dive's pretty fun, everything else is great!

mm everything has been great the past month! homecoming was fun, visiting greggy was a blast, the weekends & everything have been so much fun..what else could you ask for?

i just want to say that i love it when you "make-up" with friends or whatever. like you were friends and then not so much but now you are again. it makes me smile you know who you aree!

& i dont really like xanga, so its for comments only basically so leave me lots of them!! haha and i have facebook so basically ya.

look at this photograph, every time i do it makes me laugh, how did our eyes get so red, and what the hell is on joeys head? this is where i grew up, i think the present owner fixed it up, i never knew we ever went without, the second floor is hard for sneaking out, this is where i went to school, most of the time i had better things to do, criminal record says i broke in twice, i must've done it half a dozen times, i wonder if its too late, should i go back and try to graduate, lifes better now than it was back then, if i was them i wouldnt let me in, oh oh oh oh god i know.. *every memory of looking out the back door i had the photo album spread out on my bedroom floor, its hard to say it, time to say it goodbye goodbye..every memory of walking out the front door i found the photo of the person i was looking for, its hard to say it time to say it..goodbye goodbye. remember the old arcade, blew every dollar that we ever made, the cops hated us hangin' out, they say somebody went and burned it down, we used to listen to the radio, sing along with every song we know, we said someday we'd find out how it feels to sing to more than just the steering wheel, kims the first girl i kissed, i was so nervous that i almost missed, shes had a couple of kids since then, i havent seen her since god knows when..*chorus* i miss that town, i miss their faces, you can't erase, you can't replace it, i miss it now, i can't believe, so hard to say, too hard to leave it, if i could relive those days, i know the one thing that would never change **chorus** look at this photograph, every time i do it makes me laugh, every time i do it makes me....<3333photograph by nickelback! listen to it.

love you guys!!--kels

Tuesday, September 27, 2005

Tue, 27 Sep 2005 01:48:59 GMT

wow. life is just so amazing right now. i dont even know how to explain it. its like everything just fits right into the right place and its just awesome..ahh i love my life. and my friends and everything!

these past couple weeks have been sorta crazy. working every saturday morning at 7:30 and sunday at 10 (which isnt SO bad) and i have quite a bit of homework all the time. jeez school like consumes our lives. we're there for 7 hours a day & then we have like 3 hours of homework..its sweet & basically i love it.

umm the past few weekends have been FUN! football games, the hoedown or whatever you call it, spin, and even through the rough times, we make it through my friends!! so homecoming is next week & im pretty excited for that! and then i get to go see timmy&greggy a week from thursday!! woohoo i love and miss those big guys! umm i love you.

basically-->motion city soundtrack:everything is alright!<33

KELS!

Monday, September 12, 2005

Mon, 12 Sep 2005 01:08:10 GMT

AHH i just wrote the longest entry ever and this stupid thing erased it all!!! so now you'll have to wait until i have more than 10 seconds of spare time to do it all again...ahh im so angry! ASLKGJALKSJG

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now ill finish that entry!! umm so wow. what first? well this past weekend marisa came in town from wichitaa! or the weekend before last or whateverr. it was SWEET we went to cactus and the plaza and we watched a weird movie and it was fun. because i miss her and shes the biggest deal (i mean who DOESNT know her?) and it was fun. even though she was like bored most of the time. its alrightt. i love her! miss you marisa!! & all my other kamp kids..

school is like insanity. we (or at least i) have so much homework like every night!! and it doesnt help that im busy every day of the week after school except friday but ya know thats when we party so uhhh yah. it sucks. like tonight is one of my lightest loads and i still have homework in 4 subjects! like who does that? plus one of my teachers is basically making me fail. its not fair & i dont know what i did to her..its my best subject and always has been. MAYBE random guess that should say something? its really stressing me out and its like what? still the first month of school...ahh i can tell that this year is going to be a really long one and im not so much looking forward to it. but its ok i still get to see all my beautiful people at school every day! i guess its not so badd.

work is like amazing though! i basically love everyone i work with. i mean basically. i havent gotten to see caitlin in so long though its sad. but ive been working quite a lot. every tuesday night!! woohoo and um ya on the weekends. and the good news is that i am being trained as an opener which means you guessed it...PAY RAI$E! wow i love my job. its a good thing i love it so much too. i mean think about it i hated it..wow sadness.

diving is going good i guess for what it is. we've been working like only on drills lately and so i dont know. i really hope this year pays off or i might have to think seriously about it. because im not even that good and i want to be successful in what i do. i mean im real dedicated so it should be for a reason riiiight? oh well im not stressing over it. but my kcdc divers are SOOO CUTE!! wow i dont think they come any hotter than that...dang. haha and DIVER NIGHT this saturday so be jealous. because you're not invited if you cant do it in every position... haha kidding. ok i love ya guys so much you are the bestest!!

ahh life is so good right now..for the most part. my friends are amazing. and um especially jess&lynds you guys like complete my life. we are the coolest kids ever. you know that you are jealous. haha mmm. and all of my other friends i love you all too! it was so fun to hang out with evvie&rachel&michelle the other night!! i missed them so much and short conversations in the hallways are just not enough. remember when we all used to be best friends in 7th and 8th grade? wow i miss and love you guys so much!! we should most def do it more often!! haha wow<33.

greg is loving college which is so awesome and guess what? I GET TO GO VISIT HIM IN LIKE A MONTH!! in october..im so pumped! that kid is so much fun and i miss him so much. its soooo sad. and i get to see timmy too! ps mich is coming homew uhhh...THIS WEEKEND!! mm i love those kiddos.

i still miss writing. it hasnt really been a priority to me lately and thats sad. i used to write poems all the time..so maybe i just need to be in the right mindset or something. or maybe its just not me anymore..hmm i sound like such a loser but hey! i am..haha so i love you times infinity so sorry this isnt as long as the original one but i have to do homework. it is a MUST.

<3kels.

tuesday 6-9, saturday 7:30-3:30, sunday 10-2. be there or be triangle!

Thursday, August 25, 2005

Thu, 25 Aug 2005 23:21:16 GMT

HEY THERE!!

whats up everyone? ive been gone from here for quite a while so lets see. both of my brothers are successfully gone at college. :( i dont know if thats so successful for me though. but i cant be selfish right? greg is doing great and hes running and guess what? he gets to go to Florida in december to train for track. um ya really jealous--that is not fair. okthanksbye. AHH :) i love those big guys though.

so we got a new couch today. its really purdy & i love it. its in the basement where i am all the time so thats pretty nifty. its so comfy and soft and ahh im in love with my couch. it rocks so ya...kcool.

school is ok...my classes are all pretty good except for the major lack of friends in almost all of them. i have a couple of friends in each..well one in some i dont know it just kinda sucks ya know? blah oh well my lunch is pretty awesome :) especially my thursday lunch :):) haha! umm so ya..some of my teachers are kind of i dont know about them...um ya its kinda bad. but what can ya do riiight?

so pretty much ive been working kind of a lot. im working friday saturday sunday (oh ya and i worked last friday too...W-HAT is this?) and then ya i worked on tuesday but i only wanted one weeknight so its all good in the leahood. ok that was stupid im cool um yearbook is going good, cant wait to actually get that started and im excited for photo class!! it should be pretty dang sweet. and ya. i have a math quiz tomorrow and im not lost or totally confused on what im doing its just one of those things where ya need some practice..oh wait arent most things like that? so ya i have to go do that. um you're cute though...and i love you.

&ive come to the conclusion that i enjoy ice cream with "stuff" in it. its better than "stuff-less" ice cream. the end.

LISTEN TO:
lifehouse<3
fall out boy<3
daniel powter<3
keith urbannnn!!<3
blessed union of souls<3
ok&thatsall.

..she's just the flavor of the week..

<3KELS!!

ps i have a cute picture of my mom&i that i will put up here soon when i get bored sometime..unlike now.

pps i love marisa terpkosh..she is a huge deal, my biggest inspiration, goes to the coolest school on this planet, people know her, she is coming to kc for labor day so we should probably give her a cookie a party and a small parade and pretty much i would be lost in life without her.

I MISS KAMP! love you girls so so much.

Saturday, August 13, 2005

Sat, 13 Aug 2005 00:57:11 GMT

so kids..hows it going? its been a while..hmm hmm

timmy leaves for college on tuesday. and greg on friday. i think im going to cry like right now, i SO do not want them to leave. only child=pain. i hope it'll be ok..:(

i got an iPod yesterday! wow coolest thing ever :) :) i looooove it!! and since ya know the hondie is like so old && the cd player doesnt work very well, i have an iTrip now to make life easier. and pretty much im bringing it to work and we're gonna play it since we no longer have the radio...psssh what? speaking of work we FINALLY are getting our new manager next week. yippeeeeee! wow :) but all the summer kids left to go to college...&& i am going to miss carrie and jen. so much.

school is in like 5 days...is that depressing or what? im reading my book for ap comm arts 3 again and hopefully starting that paper on it soon...you know...oh wait i mean those two papers. ahhhhh death. ok and lynds&i are supposed to do the math packet tomorrow night..hopefully we can finish. and hopefully math wont be SO incredibly hard this year. hopefully...

jessie&i went to visit..MARISA!! on wednesday in wichita. we were supposed to go tuesday and spend the night but uh miss debbie from blue chip ruined that one. arrghgjgghjsdgfhg! but it was a TON of fun. um love those two. we went out to lunch with candice and then we went to coldstone with mark and then we went to marisas house and it was awesomely sweet. um marisa there's something in your pocket...umm please yell at me...crazy mike-ahhh scariest thing ever!! :(-this is the ghetto of wichita...sure just invite yourself to the east side...burrito...just get out of the car...hitchiking at the pay phone...looks like ill drop you off in lebo...umm so many more but i love you people!! jessie's dogsitting story is hilarious..ask me & i'll tell you. wow i love you people so much and miss you so much!! cant wait for labor day..party in the hood..leahood oh wow cool. :)

ok so back to reading for ca & obsessing over my iPod.

<3LOVE-kels

I can't remember the last time that we kissed goodbye
All our "I love you"s were just not enough to survive
Something your eyes never told me
But it's only now too plain to see,
Brilliant disguise when you hold me
And I'm free

I've been thinking and here's what I've come to conclude
Sometimes the distance is more than two people can use
But how could I have known girl
It was time and not space you would need
Darling tonight I could hold you and you would know
But would you believe

There's a light in your eyes that I used to see
There's a place in your heart where I used to be
Was I wrong to assume that you were waiting for me
There's a light in your eyes
Did you leave that light burning for me

Cards and phone calls and photograph pictures of you
Constant reminder of all the things you get used to
Is there a chance in Hell or Heaven
That there's still something here to build on
Or do you just pick up the pieces after they fall
But after all

There's a light in your eyes that I used to see
And a song in the words that you spoke to me
Was I wrong to believe in your melody
There's a light in your eyes
Did you leave that light burning for me

Should I keep on waiting or does love keep on fading away
Fading away

It's been a while since I've seen you so how have you been
Did you get my letter I wrote you that I did not send
I tried to call your old number
But the voice that I heard on the phone
I recognized but she told me the number was wrong

There's a light in my eyes it's too bright to see
And a pain in my heart where you used to be
Guess I was wrong to assume that you were waiting here for me
There's a light in your eyes
Did you leave that light burning for me<33thanks jessie-its my new favorite.

Friday, August 05, 2005

Fri, 05 Aug 2005 03:24:47 GMT

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so this has been a pretty great summer kids. i pretty much have the greatest friends ever..the best i could ask for and the best family..im so sad to be an only child. what am i going to do with tim..um&greg? it is going to be torture. im gonna miss them so much i love my brothers times a million and only those of you with older brothers understand. seriously im going to miss all of gregs jokes and every time we listened/rocked out to the gumbo song in the car & got old town pizza and i just dont want his high school years to be over. :( and timmy is the best brother ever..ahem he will be 21 on sunday the 7th and that is so crazy. i miss him like crazy already especially since ive hardly seen him this summer& i dont want him to go back to school either. its so depressing. ahhh.

so a lot of things have happened lately and some of the things i really miss. i miss how some things used to be and i miss stuff i used to do all the time and some of the people and everything. its just sad that everything happens so fast and one minute your life is so clear and the next minute its all fuzzy and its like you dont know whats going on anymore. i just miss how some things used to be. but i also love how everything is now!! some things that have happened have made life SO much better & i cant imagine if they hadnt happened!! i am becoming such a better person and only learning more about myself each day. and now that everything is good im just building myself up for some more struggles and im ready to handle them. each time you fall down, you only get back up stronger. so hopefully this year will be a good one & i bet it will be awesome and i just cant wait!! i just sometimes find myself thinking about people i used to be friends with and things i used to talk about all the time and the music i listened to and everything and its just funny. how the people you are truly supposed to be friends with you always will be. how life has a direction and a path and thats the exact path you will go down..no matter how many heartaches or great things happen to you, thats exactly how its supposed to be. each and every one of us has a plan and i think thats so cool that we have no idea whats in store for us but we still go through life ready and waiting for anything..

so its really sad how like some of my best friends dont live in leawood. like kamp buddies..i mean seriously. people just dont understand how good kamp friendships are..people ask me how im like friends with kamp people all year round and like why kamp is so worth it and so fun...but you know what? its all so unexplainable and unless you go and meet people and have that kind of fellowship i guess you'll never know. its not all fake and snob people and people wanting to be popular and have all the coolest stuff, its down to earth real people and i just love them all. each year i learn so much more at kamp and i dont know what im going to do without it. this was my last year and it was amazing. a great way to end it but i miss it all so much. and im going to wichita on tuesday with jessie to visit marisa!! WOOHOO. so excited about that. but its definitley time for some more change in my life and im ready for it..i think. just please help me & encourage me & it'll all turn out alright..i think :)

i think im going to start writing again, i havent written in at least 8 months now. and i miss it, it just hasnt felt like ive needed to for a while. but i miss the poems..they just all seemed to be getting cheesy after a while. so hopefully i have some creative spurt to get me going again right? ahh now im just rambling. i love you! :)

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so sorry i havent had any time before this to update this thing..ive been so busy the past couple days. im working every day this week..but i got my own key & im working more than any one else at the store which is good! um pretty much im a big deal, not gonna lie.

so got back from kamp on monday. oh my gosh..best time of my life. i had SO much fun and i learned so much and i met the most awesome people ever and its so hard to be home now and away from all of them. because they are exactly the type of people that i want to be around all the time because they are so amazing!! and the numa numa song is my favorite now!!<33 and um oh jeez. so lindsay one of my counselors was the best i think that ive almost ever had in 5 years. she was amazing and had no authority and i just loved her to death!! HOOK EM HORNS! oh wow i miss you so much!! and my other counselor mckenzie was like the funniest person alive. EXCUSE ME!! ahh i miss her so much too and it was the funniest thing because she didnt even know where kansas..or missouri where camp was is on the map. um EXCUSE ME kansas is the coolest place ever..where most of the cool kids live!! ahh and katie and marisa we were like the craziest people in the whole tp!! umm completley insane..longhorn races and jokes and omgsh you two are some of those who i really miss the most. and um marisa we talk like 5 times a day and its so much fun and i love it!! haha umm pretty much kelseys ice cream palace. and katie i miss you so much and your beautiful drawings and ahh!! kansas is cooler than oklahoma!! ROAD TRIP!! and of course jessie&allison are like my favorite kids ever. jessie i am pretty much coming to every single one of your games this year at college..well at least as many as i can!! haha love you! and allison umm whats your wig made out of? ya pretty much you're the cutest kid i know. not gonna lie..umm dont forget to take your underwear off before you put your swimsuit on ummm ok thanks for reminding me!! and wow..quoting mean girls 24-7 is like my life. i need to watch that movie so dang bad now!! but wow. and everyone else in tp 14 superdeal I LOVE YOU SO MUCH AND MISS YOU SO MUCH!! I LOVE AND MISS EVERYONE SO MUCH!! ahh im so sad that its over. and its been like 5 days and im still so sad about it. so pretty much i havent got my pictures back yet..HOPEFULLY i will get them tomorrow..so cross your fingers. kthanks. but ya those will be up soon!! and i miss it so much i love you people. umm ill post inside jokes and all that stuff later but uh one last thing..pretty much best tubing driver ever..not gonna lie. ok wow. they didnt have a devil smiley!! haha kidding kidding..or not. AH LOVE MISS YOU TIMES A MILLION!

umm 10 things i love:
1. the smell of breakfast blend coffee at work.
2.diet coke with no ice.
3.mocha almond fudge ice cream&blue chip joy cookies.
4.the lion king and mean girls.
5.harry potter!! :)
6.peaches.
7.music..especially country!
8.the coolest friends ever..which i have!
9.98 degrees&dreamstreet.
10.YOU!! :)

ok wow that was fun..try it out sometime.

rawrrr im a lyon..ok or a dinosaur that works too!

listen to because of you-98 degrees and dreamstreet by dreamstreet!! umm ya greatest songs alivee! :))