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| ahhhhhh yes its time for my yearly entry. wow, let me see what has gone on in the past year or so sence my last entry. well i am doing very well, this august will mark 2 whole years being clean and off drugs, i never would have thought that i would be doing so well on that battle field, i have quit smoking......again, and i have quit drinking......again, but this time is different i have new power in me and it is all thanks to my newfound releationship with God, without that i would be weak to temptation. the whole legal matter is going well, i guess, but i would just like for everyone to know that it is not my fault, if there is anyone that has followed my case thay should know what i am talking about. well.......new topic please, i am so happy for life right now, i am starting school in july, and i am really excited about that. my job is going well, i am now the floor supervisor at PPG in carlisle, i have a little office and everything, it is sweet. but they were really sad when i told them that i will be leaving in august for school. and my church life has never been better. i am getting baptized on the 24th of this month, i love my church. and for the first time in my life i can say i am in love. there is this girl at my church that i have been kind of seeing for about 6 months now, we were togother but now we are just good friends, but just by the way we are whenever the other person is around you can tell that something is going on......i know that i was "married" but i was never in love with my wife, i did it because it just made sence.....but at least that nightmare is over. i can honestly say that being married was the main reason that i had such a bad drinking problem in the past, but sence that is over i have been doing very well, i would state the days i have been sober but i lost count. without haveing the urge to drink it feels really weird, like i could not wait till my 21st birthday (which is in a little over a month) but now it seems like just another day too me. well anyway like the greassed-up def guy off of family guy says "see ya nex yeauh". | | |
| wow, been a while since i have done this. where should i start..... well i guess i should start by saying that i am in the process of a divorce, i quit smoking, i even kicked back my drinking addiction a great deal. it is very hard being in my shoes right now, i am paying my own way through life, i am even paying the way of someone who just uses me for money, someone who lives with me and does not pay one cent, i have tried getting rid of that person but it seemes that ia am stuck licking her boots. every day i am forced to watch my soon to be x-wife out with her boyfriend, i am sorry but we arnt even divorced yet and she is in bed with another man, wow she workes really fast, in fact we wernt even "appart" two weekes before she started shacking up with him. but i guess she is only still living with me until she has drained every last cent out of my fucking pocket. oh well, i guess these things happen. last night i was over at a girls house and i was drunk, and so was she, we messed around a bit, we did nothing "explicit" but i just ended up falling asleep with her in my arms, and i woke up the next morning and i did not feel bad about it at alli guess i can finally start livin' without a cloud hanging over my head. | | |
| wow been a long time since i undated. i wonder what things have changed sience then. well i am moving back home soon, because it is hard to make a living up here, the only good thing about this place is that cigarettes are as cheap as a dollar a pack. but that is not enough reason for me to stay. so to all my friends up there i will see you again soon. | | |
| - well, my life has offically started, i am living the american dream, well sort of. i got a long way to go , but life looks good. and the best part is that i am going to be a daddy soon. | | |
| life is different now, i am married, i have a family, and life seems that it will start for the very first time.
rest in peace mom, someday we will watch more westerns togother. | | |
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