| WOW! haven't wrote in here for a while. kinda forget i had it lol. so what's been up with me? well i'm no longer on that cloud 9 anymore. sorta but not alot. yesterday was ashley's funeral. seems like everyone around me is dying =\ when my grandma told me about it friday i couldn't believe it. and i hadn't cried about it. but at the funeral home yesterday, i just couldn't stop.....prom is like 4 weeks away!! i have to buy my dress this weekend and get my date monday :) i have soooo much to do before hawaii too. well hopefully the next update won't be a month away lo <3 |
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| so friday and saturday were pretty much the greatest nights of my life :D I'm still on cloud 9
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| lets get fucked up and dieSo donna told me that this guy, derek beall, died yesterday. I knew of him because I've had to take wrestling pics. I couldn't believe it. And then it made me think of matt. I was just kinda in a daze from 3rd period to the end of the day. How can someone go from being alive and breathing one day to dead the next?? It just makes me think of how ungrateful people are sometimes. And I admit, I do take life for granted sometimes. I'm soooo sorry to those who were close to him....it will get easier.
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| happy, nervous, sad, excited, shakey, mad...
he makes me feel all these emotions and he doesn't even know it. and he makes me smile like no one else :D just seeing him makes my day better
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| and some things will never change. it'll always be the same. the hurting will never stop and I'll be alone forever |
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