And another month slips into the past. much has changed but i still remain the same confused and bewildered creature i have been. People have come and gone in this month, lives nearly lost, all amounting to a shmillion new poems here. here is a few of the ones i wrote, these three written in regards to a certain friend. well.... enjoy!

Betray Me

what are you waiting for?
my back is turned
im not watching now
take this oppertunity
do what you always wanted to
quickly now
before you lose your nerve
cut the ties
stab me in the back
Hurry now,
time's almost up
betray me, my friend
do your job
Stop wrestling with your conscience
just get it over with
quick and painless
cut swiftly and deep
No regrets,
I forgive you for what you have to do
This is the last thing i can give you
this chance to end it on your terms
I am willing
i am ready
I am waiting for the stab of a friendly dagger.
Et tu, Ami?
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You Said

You said
"Be strong, it'll all get better,
you have me to lean on
me to depend on"
You said
"I'll always be here
you'll always have me"
You said
"Youre the stronger one
better than me
help me"
You said
"I need him to live on
i need him to help me"
Was he all that you lived for?
Was he all that you'd die for?
you said
"I cant go on any more
You'll get over it
you forget
and then you'll go on"
You said
"its fate's will that
makes me do this
its out of my hands now"
You said
"Im already gone
so why prolong this?
you cant change, niether can i"
you said
so much to me
you lied
so much to me
you said too much
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Deep

You want this
Cut so deep
they laugh at you
deeper
you want this
deeper
they cant see you
cut so deep
you want this
deeper
Dont you?
youre ready
its set
your aim is perfect
but you miss your mark
red lines
pain but not death.
lack of courage
and you back down.
so scared to die,
but so afraid to live like this.
Afraid,
To cut too deep.