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Monday, December 18, 2006

Mon, 18 Dec 2006 02:15:03 GMT

I just want to know. I need answers. You can never prepare yourself that phone call...saying someone you know is gone, and they don't know why, they don't know what happened...you never think it will happen to you. Laura was one of my teammates, and I'll never forget how happy she was, she always had a smile on her face and went out of her way to say hi. She will be missed, no words can describe this.

We love you Laura, always and forver. We will never forget...

This is the article from the GR press--

HASTINGS -- It was in Ypsilanti on the campus of Eastern Michigan University that the body of Laura Dickinson was discovered Friday afternoon in a dorm room on the fifth floor of Hill Hall.

In Laura's home town of Hastings, flowers and a condolence card were placed in front of the State Grounds Coffee House. Laura's family owns and runs the business which cancelled its holiday schedule of events and temporarily shut down to mourn the loss.

"It's been really hard on everybody," says Dray Huis. Huis works at a bookstore, just doors down from the coffee shop. Huis says he knew Laura, 22, from their days at Hastings High School, where she was active in music and drama. Huis says it was Laura who convinced him to perform in the school play.

"In the musicals, she was one of the first ones there and one of the last ones to leave," Huis said.

Many familiar with this family run coffee house say it's more than just a business, it's a gathering place, one of the few places in town that young people can call their own.

"They always catered to the teens of the town and you don't find that very often. A lot of businesses would shun children away for hanging around, but Bob just opened his doors and took everybody in," says Huis.

As the holidays approach, it's the family that will now draw on the support of the community, as everyone awaits official word on exactly what happened to their beloved Laura.

Police say the medical examiner's results could be available as early as Monday.

Visitation is scheduled for Wednesday at Girrbach Funeral Home in Hastings from 2 to 4 p.m. and 6 to 8 p.m. The funeral is scheduled for Thursday at 11 a.m. at Thornapple Valley Church in Hastings.

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RIP LAURA. always and forver.

Saturday, October 21, 2006

Sat, 21 Oct 2006 01:35:28 GMT

ok, its been about 2 months since i've used this at all...a lot has happened.

i'm back at school and in full force. rowing is great? haha. we're finally racing this weekend and i can't wait :)

but on a more serious note, i've really noticed how lucky i am to have certain things lately. today, alyssa and i went into detroit. like not nice downtown, comerica park detroit, but ghetto trashy, falling apart building's detroit. it was dark and i was scared to death. BUT i realize just how good i have it. getting off the highway, on a stretch of road about a mile to two miles there were probably only 3 houses that didnt have bars, boards or fire damage. it's a total wakeup call. i was terrified to be in a locked car in that area, let alone actually being out there.

also, on the way into detroit, we saw and AWFUL accident. i have never seen anything so awful in my life. there was only one car...that i could see. it was completely smashed in, no front in left at all and a sheet was covering the side of the car. and it was about 100 feet off the highway in some trees. obviously someone had died. the scariest thing, alyssa and i hadnt missed this accident by much. the cops had arrived not much earlier and traffic was barely backed up. thank God right before we left campus we had to turn around and go back to our place and get her license that she forgot otherwise we probably would have been there right around the time it happened. that is so scary, i cannot imagine having to see something like that. it seems that they spun out of control and hit a cement pole along the highway. it was horrible.

i just need to remember how lucky i am, even to just be alive.

Friday, August 25, 2006

Fri, 25 Aug 2006 13:23:40 GMT

ok, well its been a while since i've updated...so i'll give it a shot.

i move in a week from sunday. i can't wait, i miss everyone sooo much:(

i leave for canada on thursday morning and come back friday morning then work friday night and saturday morning...so basically if you want to hang out before i leave, we need to do so before thursday! lol.

ok, so i've been getting really bad headaches lately and i'm not sure whats wrong with me, maybe its stress, who knows...but i'm sick of it. i absolutely hate headaches.

OH! annnd i tried to dye my hair last weekend, it turned pink. hahaha, oh it was awful! i wanted brown, but NO i got pink, so its almost all washed out, but its still got a tint of nasty pink to it....oooops ha.

love you all....calllll meee and we'll hangout before i leave!

Friday, July 28, 2006

Fri, 28 Jul 2006 20:18:56 GMT

i love my life. as crazy as it has been these past 2 weeks or so, i absolutely would not take any of it back. i've found things out and learned things about myself. as much as somethings have sucked, i'm glad it happened. its opened my eyes to many new things. "life is crazy, lifes a mess, sometimes a curse sometimes a blessing. don't worry 'bout a thing" its so true. dont worry. let things work themsleves out. things happen for a reason, we may not know the reason at first, but we will eventually know. if God brings us to it, He'll bring us through it. Its so true, but SO hard to believe. i need to rely more on God, and less on myself and those around me. He is the one thing that is forever. I have had problems remembering that. GOD IS LOVE. hes is ever-lasting, unconditional love. this is an unconditional love that can be found from no one else. He is everything i've ever needed. I'm glad i'm finally back on track. This year has been a roller coaster of emotions. I'm finally finding myself again, and i'm finally happy again. I can tell i'm changing, and its for the best. I've done things that i regret, but still even though i regret them i wouldn't really take it back. I've learned, and moved on. i love my life, and i love my God so much.

yes i do dream of all we've had together
yes its true we've lost it all forever
do i pray anyway? yes i do.
i dont live in the past,
wanting love that wouldn't last.
yes i do.

--rascal flatts.

Thursday, July 20, 2006

Thu, 20 Jul 2006 18:51:44 GMT

seriously sleep deprived. its making me sick. i cannot wait to sleep tonight. its definately going to be the highlight of my week.

ugh. i feel like i'm gonna puke :(

Wednesday, July 12, 2006

Wed, 12 Jul 2006 15:10:57 GMT

mmmk, well sorry about that last post. i'm not crazy, really ;) haha.

lets see, danielle's birthday is TOMORROW! yay :) so HAPPY BIRTHDAY BOO :)

ohhh, and i just started coaching last night. i'm excited/nervous. i've never coached before, but i'm coaching learn to row adults at the boathouse so i know more than they do since they've never even rowed before...so i just need to remind myself that lol. so for 7 weeks i'll be coaching every tuesday and thursday nights from 6:15-8:15 i'm excited :) YAY!

other than that, nothing too exciting is happening.

i just want to say thanks to all of my friends for being with me this past week. you guys are so awesome. thank you for everything :)

Friday, July 07, 2006

Fri, 07 Jul 2006 01:40:47 GMT

sometimes the hardest thing and the right thing are the same.
--the fray

lets be honest
im not the type of chick that you use
and if you want it,
if you want it
you'll have to choose
ive been thru this
i ve been cheated on..
i know how it feels
how would i know that you wouldnt do the same to me.
--jennie ortega.

Now you can drag out the heartache
Baby you can make it quick
You can get it over with and let me move on
Don't concern yourself with this mess you left for me
I can clean it up you see
Just as long as your gone
--the wreckers.

it hasn't exactly been a good week. these lyrics are just a few that explain what i'm thinking and or feeling right now. i'm stressed, frustrated, hurt, confused, and it's making me sick. i hate this feeling more than anything in the world.

Thursday, June 29, 2006

Thu, 29 Jun 2006 22:27:29 GMT

i really dont even know where to begin. this is really just going to be one of those long emotional, venting sort of posts...so ya know ;)

life is good, don't get me wrong. things are great. but i'm just a bit lost and confused. it's so hard to watch someone you love mess up time and time again. thinking that the choices they make are OK. thinking that they can continue they way they are and be happy. i've noticed a change slowly over time and its killing me. i love this person to death, and to see them like this hurts. i know they want to be happy, but i really feel that they're looking to the wrong place to get validation in their lives. looking to the wrong thing to feel love. if they took a step back, and looked at their life a few years ago sooo much was different. it hurts me because i want whats best for them, and i know this isn't it. but how do you tell that to someone when they think they are looking to the right thing to be happy. as a friend, you know, you have a feeling when something isn't right. this isn't right, this isn't the person i know and love. i miss them :(

Thursday, June 22, 2006

Thu, 22 Jun 2006 00:39:29 GMT

:) i love my life.

people make me smile.
i have awesome friends who i LOVE.
i get to see a certain someone this weekend and i can't wait!

just a boring little update for you all ;)

i really love them!

Monday, June 05, 2006

Mon, 05 Jun 2006 16:40:47 GMT

grrrrrrrr, people are pissing me off lately.

i want to be able to be trusted to make the right choices and do things that i want to do. is it bad that i already kinda want to move back to ypsi?