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Name: Dustin
Country: United States
State: Maryland
Metro: Gaithersburg
Birthday: 9/18/1989
Gender: Male
Interests: The secrets of the universe tumbled out of the mouth of a fallen starlet in a copy room at three o'clock in the morning. But considering what the secret was; it was perfect.
Expertise: Being ignorant.
Occupation: Student
Industry: Media
Message: message me
Website: visit my website
AIM:  reptarxbars
Member Since:
9/18/2004
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I've
become re-obessed with architecture. It started with an article in the
New Yorker a few months ago about Mies van der Rohe that just reminded
me the almost eternal beauty that a building can create. That led to me
pouring over all of my old architecture books. Which influenced my
class project for ComSysTech which involved designing a beach house
with three bedrooms, two baths, a kitchen/dining room, entertainment
space, and a utility room; and all under 1600 sq.ft. My design was
influenced slightly by Le Corbusier's design for Notre Dame d'Haute.
Anyways,
this re-emergence of passion has made me even more excited for
college. There are so many classes I want to take, in every discipline
from Russian romantic era composers to the impact of country clubs on
society. I'm still nervous though. I settled on James Madison
University, not sure why. Then again, I'm not sure why I make any
decision. But, it'll all work out.
Otherwise, I
almost cried during the last scene of Streetcar named today. I don't
think that play affects anyone as much as it does me. It's so closely
tied to how I live my life, with the deception Blanche goes through to
preserve her image, even if only to herself. Plus the whole, living in
a false reality thing is very reminiscent of my life. I'm scared, and
nervous, and unsteady, and giddy, and generally unsure. But I think
that's where I'm supposed to be in my life right now. | | |
| I'm stuck in a romanticized view of the world.Scarlett: Oh Ashley, Ashley, I love you.
Ashely: Scarlett...
Scarlett: I love you, I do.
This
weekend has tightened the bonds between myself and Miss Scarlett even
more than usual. I too confessed my love to the unattainable. It was
exciting, until I was rejected.
then i watched My Best
Friends Wedding to just tie the weekend together, to allow me to
realize I'm not alone in my imaginary world where everyone wants me.
"I
love you. I've loved you for nine years, I've just been too arrogant
and scared to realize it, and... well, now I'm just scared. So, I
realize this comes at a very inopportune time but I really have this
gigantic favor to ask of you. Choose me. Marry me. Let me make you
happy. Oh, that sounds like three favors, doesn't it?"
(if you haven't seen the movie, julia roberts character gets rejected after this plea)
well,
not quite nine years, but two years is still a very long time. and
seriously, this is worse than a breakup. It's put me in the most
melodramatic mood. And, what's worse, I'm still not convinced the
relationship i created in my head is over. I still have hope. | | |
| Phillyjust got home.
earlynovember+rocketsummer+melee
amazing show.
sad they're breaking up.
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ace is a cutie. and bryce apparently became an xscenesterxcorex since last time I saw him. gheyy.
i'll post pics later.
ps. there's no fucking way i'll be making it to church tomorow morning at 8.
pps. parents, don't take your fucking eleven year olds to shows and ask me to duck so they can see better. fags. | | |
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I just realized, I don't want to go to any of the colleges I applied to/was accepted into.
I
feel like no matter which school I chose I won't be happy. I should
have applied to schools I actually want to go to, not ones that are the
highest ranked. I guess I'm stuck though.
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