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Monday, May 15, 2006

Mon, 15 May 2006 15:54:33 GMT

Prom was amazing... I think I probably danced with the most random people ever.. if I was all up on you at prom, I apologize, wait. No I don't, you liked it!

Senior skip day is amazing, nothing like staying in bed until noon! Too bad I have to work today, that sucks.

So I went to work yesterday with "leftover" prom hair, it was hot, I must say. I can't believe we only have 2 days left.. what are we going to do with ourselves? It's going to be strange....

I'm loving life right now, I'm happy, probably happier than I've been in a long freakin' time. I hope it never stops.

Love you all!!!!!!!

Monday, May 01, 2006

Mon, 01 May 2006 18:26:21 GMT

12 days until I'm done with high school forever!!!!!!!!!!

8 days until my 18th birthday!!!!!!

11 days until prom....

24 days until graduation....

Everything major in my life is happening in the next few weeks! I don't know what to do with myself.. I'm so FREAKIN' EXCITED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Sam quit the Waffle again.. big shocker there... ha ha. What a slut.

Not much going on with me... staying busy.

Love you all!!!

Monday, April 10, 2006

Mon, 10 Apr 2006 18:20:19 GMT

Everything happens for a reason, even if the reason doesn't reveal itself for a long, long time.

They finally put me on hormones for my endometriosis... I am now experiencing hot flashes and night-sweats~ yay for early "menopause" ha ha...

I'm actually off work today, not sure what I should do with myself. Me and Matt are gonna do something, I think.

Got a prom date, since Matthew doesn't wanna go.. me and Zack are going now.. can't go wrong with the gay guy! At least he's fun and he knows how to dance!

I love you all!

Wednesday, April 05, 2006

Wed, 05 Apr 2006 00:58:28 GMT

You know that old saying "to take one step forward and two steps back"? It seems like I do that all the time. I give and give and give of myself and I feel like I am never given the gratitude I receive. I'm not conceited, that's for sure, but I bust my ass to make him happy and I guarantee that I treat him better than anyone ever has, and I get nothing.

I know he loves me, he says he does, at least. What would it hurt him to show it once in a while? I don't want him to act like a woman, and get all emotional and shit, but I have to wonder sometimes what the hell is wrong with me. Am I incapable of being loved as much as I love someone?

Thursday, March 30, 2006

Thu, 30 Mar 2006 14:09:53 GMT

Going back to work today.. I don't know if I remember how to do my job.. ha ha. It's been a whole week! I love vacations...

I'm tired of drama... I just want to go back to leading a peaceful laidback life.

But, on the upside, Jesse is my best friend in the entire world, and I don't know what I would do without her!!!

Saturday, March 25, 2006

Sat, 25 Mar 2006 01:14:11 GMT

Yay for being in Kentucky.. woo-hoo wild and crazy Spring Break! ha ha...

I've been thinking about a lot of stuff lately, and I can't believe how much my life has changed since the beginning of my senior year. I can't believe that we were all avidly saying that we were so happy that we finally had a secure group of constant friends, and that we were glad that the petty bullshit was finally over.

Hmm... fast-forward to now.

Our "steady group" of "friends" is in shambles. I've lost one of my very best friends, and despite my attempts (I admit, they were pretty weak) to communicate with him, I get nothing. I don't understand. I haven't done anything to him. It completely and totally breaks my heart. I feel like a part of me is missing, basically because he was my conscience and was responsible for any amount of logical thinking I experienced. He was my hero, my light in the dark, and I don't understand how someone can change so much. It's like he doesn't care about me at all anymore. Why? Maybe some people aren`t meant to be in our lives forever.. maybe some are just passing through to teach us a lesson..* The lesson, unfortunately, is yet to be learned, and I really wanted him to be in my life forever.

Talent show was amazing, and he did a great job. And with prom and the end of our senior year approaching, I just want everything to be perfect. But I know that can't happen. So I propose we fake happiness for the next 2 months... Who's in?

Tuesday, March 14, 2006

Tue, 14 Mar 2006 15:19:18 GMT

Isn't it funny, how when you want something so bad, like you pray for it and cry about it, and genuinely wish for it... you get it.

But then, when you get it, you realize that maybe you don't really want it... how do you deal with that?

Friday, March 10, 2006

Fri, 10 Mar 2006 18:19:42 GMT

We are in the last leg of 3rd quarter.. it's unbelivable. I can't believe my senior year is flying by like this. Next week is OGT week, and we get out everyday at 11:20... it's amazing!

Then talent show and Spring Break...

Senior girl dance is coming along fantastically. It's so cute, and I can't wait for everybody to see us up there shaking our asses.. ha ha.

Work sucks, today's my only day off after 6 straight days of the Awful Waffle...

Other than that, life is good.

I love my boyfriend, and my friends...

Thursday, March 02, 2006

Thu, 02 Mar 2006 22:43:36 GMT

It's March.. and that means that the seniors' last day is in 2 months and 15 days... YAY!!!!!!!!!!!

Life is good.

Went through a little drama with the senior girls' dance, but not too much. Got out of hand, that's for sure. However, the sophomore girls were too scared to try out! Ha ha.. bitches.

Friends are fantastic... except today is Thursday, and I haven't seen my Thursday buddy in a month of Thursdays at least... why is that? I hung out with my boyfriend this Thursday.. what the hell? Oh well.. what can you do? Sometimes I really feel like he doesn't care about me anymore. I never get the random text messages, I don't have nearly the amount of conversation that I used to have, and I certainly don't get my Thursday Starbucks fix anymore. I miss him!!!!!!!

Started tanning a few days ago... I feel so much better when I have a little color to my skin. Y'all need to warn me when I start looking too dark, though, I still feel pasty, I can't really tell.

Work is exhausting, but fun... I got my tax return back and bought tires for my car. WOO-HOO!! Tires are SO EXCITING... ha ha. I would've rather gone shopping.

Saturday, February 18, 2006

Sat, 18 Feb 2006 06:23:18 GMT

Back from an utterly random night... yay for Rainman! I love that movie...

Matt and I had a nice little fight yesterday, but all is well today, as usual. Imagine that.

The thing that bothers me the most about the whole fight was that it used to tear him up when I would cry. Yesterday, he just left me standing outside, tears streaming down my face, and didn't let it bother him at all.

However, we talked a lot this afternoon, and he understands why I felt the way I do. It just bothered me that it was the only day off we had together for a while, and he was going to spend it with the same people he sees everyday of his life. Ugh... boys are dumb!

But I love my big dumb boyfriend, and I don't see that changing anytime soon.

Senior girls dance is SOOOOOOO CUTE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

And it's a lot of fun... and I learned something at practice today. You know how they say that everyone is a little bit racist? Well, I also found out that everyone is a little bit handicapped, because I discovered that my body just doesn't like to move to the left before it moves to the right. But, after a lot of practice, it works! I can effectively "save a horse and ride a cowboy" with the rest of them. Beware underclassmen! We're definitely too hot to handle...

With that being said,

BRING IT ON, SOPHOMORE GIRLS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!