You know I really think all the TV and Movies I've seen have fucked up what reality really is sometimes... Like all the romantic mystical stuff that happens to these "average joes" isn't going to happen to me.

Today I googled a specific name, and I found out that one of my ex bfs from a longgg time ago, got married... holy shit! It shouldn't bother me, and I guess the word bother doesnt quite fit the feeling, but its not preferable. Aren't all my ex-bfs supposed to live in a cave and never meet anyone else again!  Wasn't I the "good" one that ended the realtionship for something better, but here I am single... I guess still waiting for the better-ness to come along... haha  ohhh life.  And its been so long since we dated, that you can't even remember the shitty times, so now hes the good one that got away! shit!  I hope this doesn''t plague me for too much longer, because that ship has sailed.

I had a dream about a year ago about him, and he died in it.  Since we hadn't talked in like 2 years at this point, I decided to try to contact him to see if this was true or not.  He never got  back to me, but finding out he was married, I actually would have prefered the dream senerio. Bitchy, maybe.  But hey nobody likes to be burned 4 years later, by snooping online, and forcing the information on myself. GOD whata Jerk, now I recall why we broke up.

I blame it on tv. 

meows

Kt

Movinggg!

So next weekend I'm moving!! Nicole and I got an apt. in Ypsi and hopefully are going to have a blast!

Nala the pup is coming too and that should be an interesting transition for her!

I have a 3 day weekend this weekend, and just sunday off next weekend when im moving! of course!

Job is good... things are fine!

and yea

I got a new computer, and I'm going to get a new tv soon too.

:o)

new jorb

Hey Its almost March, and I have a new jobby.  Most of you know, but Im like an MIT @ a bank. Kinda different then expected but not a bad situation.  I might have dragged my friend Pam from Lenscrafters into it as well. Which is nice bc this isn't where she saw herself after college either. I like the randomness, but don't know if its a forever change. 

I got a puppy in December and shes a pain to take care of! especially since I work more these days. She <3s attention so I worry about moving her to a new apartment where me and my roommates will have full time jobs and probably dont want to deal with the burden of a doggy! shes cute tho!  we will see how things turn out. as of now, donny, my parents, and me all watch her at times.  She gets to ride around in the car alot and she likes it!

Anyways nothing really exciting is going on.... kinda miss school and working part time that was better than 40 hours!

welll maybe I'll update this sooner than I have !

bye

meow humor

So I applied to 7 dental schools and so far 1 application is denied... I think I took the news as expected. A few tears... not that it was a specific school that i really wanted to get into, its just worrysome.  As Nicole says I can't do anything till I hear back from all the schools, then I guess I'm allowed to freak out...  It just seems unfair that I can get this far in school towards the thing I want to do, and a group of people can say "no find something else you want to do."  I dont know if I would reapply or not, I havent decided, it will just be another year in limbo. Transition stages in life blow.

I volunteered at habitat for humanity last friday (black friday) and it was fun! I'm pretty handy!!

work is absolutely boring, i cant even explain, I just play online for hours, but there are no chairs so, the task is to be able to stand for 8 hours. answer phones, deal with customers, which there arent that many of...  Nobody has felt the need to train me, so its really just a joke, I just get thrown into this position where i look like a jackass because i have no answers because nobody trains me.  but on the other hand I can really fuck things up and not feel bad.  Im all alone, so I just do whatever I please.  but after 6 hours of doing what I please, I just feel like leaving, and even without training, i know thats not allowed. sigh

well thats an update.