| When I knowsomething REALLY bad is going to happen to me I do the following:
Worry..A LOT.
Cry for a little
Try to forget about it
Tell people and ask for advice
Read
Draw
Clean my room (where I am now.)
Face the problem
Move on.
So...I got an F in Gov..and I think I have a bad grade in Italian.
I told my mom...she's just disappointed.
I don't know about my dad though. The thing that scares me is that I don't know what he'll do.
Will he scream at me? Or will he give me the silent treatment?
Will he hurt me?
I'm so scared. I know i'll be grounded...probably longer than ever. Maybe even until the Summer..
Which means no techonology at all.
I know it'll be the best for me. I'm obsessed with the computer. It's like a necessary evil.
With it taken out, my grades will get better. I won't mind at all..
I just wish I could skip the part where I face my father.
My plan is to try not to cry and just agree to everything.
I know i'm going to cry though.
I feel like such a fuck up.
and I'm still not dropping out.
Uhgg....got to pull it together.
See you guys....who knows when.
Report cards are mailed Thursday.
Pray for me. 
-Katie
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| I think i'm going to go to another school that has better art programs...
It's free..and close.
But I would leave Oak..all my friends..and not graduate with them.
uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhggggggggggggggggggggggggg
-Katie
Edit: Hahahaha. Look at what my horoscope said.
Thursday, November 13
You can't make up your mind whether to redecorate, rebuild, or to simply give up and move to a new home. Today is not the day to make the final decision.
It's about moving to a new home...but I guess it applies for schools too. haha. I'll listen, no final decisions tonight.
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| Today was a sweat shirt day.I love sweatshirt days...because I look good in sweatshirts.
I always get over sized ones that look like dresses, but that makes them ten times comfier!
Nothing really exciting happened today..
I swear, computer graphics is the best period ever!
I can let my creativity out because the teacher doesn't give a shit about our class at all.
At least at the beginning of the year she taught us how to use the programs. Now, i'm just making whatever I want!
AND I listen to my ipod while doing so.
It's the most relaxing period everrrrr.
So, today was just chill. It wasn't a bad day, but it wasn't a great day either.
At least it wasn't a bad day..haha
Oh! Look what I made today.
It kind of goes with the pulse about that girl who was wearing the "save the world!" shirt, but littered..lol
I hope you guys like. Click on it to make it bigger.
-Katie
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| so...Germany is a no go.
Crystal is still going, but I am not.
This is why:
1.) Money
2.) I know no German, and the school / teachers/ host family does not know english
Yeah... I knew deep down I wasn't going to be able to go..but it's okay.
Germany was the last on my list for place to see around the world..hahaha.
I'm happy for Crystal though. I got to see Italy, and now she'll get to see Germany.
I still don't know how I'm going to get through Junior year without her.
I know I will though.
It'll be an experience for both of us.
She'll get to explore a whole new country with new people and places..
and...what about me?
I don't know. I guess I can discover new people and friends..i'm not sure any positive things.
I must say, I'm a little jealous. I wish I was going somewhere. I want to have an adventure.
I wonder if she'll find a friend that's better than me.
I'm tired of thinking. Goodnight guys.
-Katie
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