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When I know

Sun, 16 Nov 2008 20:30:40 GMT

something REALLY bad is going to happen to me I do the following:

Worry..A LOT.

Cry for a little

Try to forget about it

Tell people and ask for advice

Read

Draw

Clean my room (where I am now.)

Face the problem

Move on.

So...I got an F in Gov..and I think I have a bad grade in Italian.

I told my mom...she's just disappointed.

I don't know about my dad though. The thing that scares me is that I don't know what he'll do.

Will he scream at me? Or will he give me the silent treatment?

Will he hurt me?

I'm so scared. I know i'll be grounded...probably longer than ever. Maybe even until the Summer..

Which means no techonology at all.

I know it'll be the best for me. I'm obsessed with the computer. It's like a necessary evil.

With it taken out, my grades will get better. I won't mind at all..

I just wish I could skip the part where I face my father.

My plan is to try not to cry and just agree to everything.

I know i'm going to cry though.

I feel like such a fuck up.

and I'm still not dropping out.

Uhgg....got to pull it together.

See you guys....who knows when.

Report cards are mailed Thursday.

Pray for me.

-Katie

Friday, November 14, 2008

Fri, 14 Nov 2008 00:08:40 GMT

I think i'm going to go to another school that has better art programs...

It's free..and close.

But I would leave Oak..all my friends..and not graduate with them.

uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhggggggggggggggggggggggggg

-Katie

Edit: Hahahaha. Look at what my horoscope said.

Thursday, November 13
You can't make up your mind whether to redecorate, rebuild, or to simply give up and move to a new home. Today is not the day to make the final decision.

It's about moving to a new home...but I guess it applies for schools too. haha. I'll listen, no final decisions tonight.

Today was a sweat shirt day.

Thu, 13 Nov 2008 00:01:08 GMT

I love sweatshirt days...because I look good in sweatshirts.

I always get over sized ones that look like dresses, but that makes them ten times comfier!

Nothing really exciting happened today..

I swear, computer graphics is the best period ever!

I can let my creativity out because the teacher doesn't give a shit about our class at all.

At least at the beginning of the year she taught us how to use the programs. Now, i'm just making whatever I want!

AND I listen to my ipod while doing so.

It's the most relaxing period everrrrr.

So, today was just chill. It wasn't a bad day, but it wasn't a great day either.

At least it wasn't a bad day..haha

Oh! Look what I made today.

It kind of goes with the pulse about that girl who was wearing the "save the world!" shirt, but littered..lol

I hope you guys like. Click on it to make it bigger.

-Katie

Wednesday, November 12, 2008

Wed, 12 Nov 2008 03:28:43 GMT

http://zackperry.typepad.com/blog/files/01_beirut_lon_gisland_e.P. - Elephant Gun.mp3

http://mp3.dmoon.ru/beirut - prenzlauerberg.mp3

http://notfine.com/muse/Beirut/Lon Gisland E.P/05 Carousels.mp3

http://www.beirutband.com/mp3/Beirut_Mount Wroclai (Idle Days).mp3

http://www.stane-island.net/goodies/tunes/Beirut-Bratislava.mp3

http://64.207.133.60/mp3/Beirut - A Sunday Smile.mp3

http://queijoderretido2.no.sapo.pt/07 - The Penalty.mp3

http://www.fileden.com/files/2007/7/29/1305715/cherbourg.mp3

http://media.soundfixrecords.com/music/beirut-track2.mp3

http://notfine.com/muse/Beirut/Gulag Orkestar/06 Rhineland ( Heartland).mp3

http://www.iridebeatsandmelodies.com/mytop5/top5ers/may/06 Cliquot 1.mp3

http://www.trickpixel.com/rhino cubes/mydeathcar/Beirut 12 - St Apollonia.mp3

http://beirutband.com/mp3/Beruit_Postcards From Italy.mp3

~~
http://www.box.net/shared/static/uclg87fhi9.mp3

http://www.fileden.com/files/2008/3/27/1839500/Elephant Gun.mp3

http://audio.sxsw.com/2007/mp3/Beirut-Elephant_Gun.mp3

so...

Wed, 12 Nov 2008 03:07:16 GMT

Germany is a no go.

Crystal is still going, but I am not.

This is why:

1.) Money

2.) I know no German, and the school / teachers/ host family does not know english

Yeah... I knew deep down I wasn't going to be able to go..but it's okay.

Germany was the last on my list for place to see around the world..hahaha.

I'm happy for Crystal though. I got to see Italy, and now she'll get to see Germany.

I still don't know how I'm going to get through Junior year without her.

I know I will though.

It'll be an experience for both of us.

She'll get to explore a whole new country with new people and places..

and...what about me?

I don't know. I guess I can discover new people and friends..i'm not sure any positive things.

I must say, I'm a little jealous. I wish I was going somewhere. I want to have an adventure.

I wonder if she'll find a friend that's better than me.

I'm tired of thinking. Goodnight guys.

-Katie

My head really hurts.

Tue, 11 Nov 2008 22:03:05 GMT

That's usually what happens when I think too much. (haha)

My best friend, Crystal, is going to go to Germany next year for a foreign exchange program.

I won't be able to see her for an entire school year. It seems a bit selfish, but I need her. She's so close to me, she's like a sister to me.

I love her.

(not romantically. lol)

So, I'm thinking of coming along. (WHAT?!)

Even though i'm 100% Italian, and do not know anything about Germany, I want to go. I'm slowly starting to make this possibility a reality. I've been asking my parents, and i'm about to call Crystal to get more information.

It's a once in a life time chance, why not take it? How amazing would it be to go to a foreign country with my best friend....and her family. (aw crap, forgot about that part.)

Yeah, we would be staying with her aunt. I have no idea what these people are like, I'd have to get more information on them.

Plus, there's also the part where I can't see my family for an entire year. No Christmas visit or anything.

As much as my family ANNOYS ME, that's gonna hurt deep.

But, i'm growing up. I'm going to go to college soon...I don't know.

I'm really just confused about the whole situation.

Basically...

My heart is telling me to go out and explore the world, and enjoy life!

But my brain is telling me to stay home, work, save money, have your junior year at Oak, save the excitement for later.

Later..that's what they all say. "Oh! I'm traveling the world AFTER college!"

then you put it off until AFTER you get married.

and until AFTER your kids grow up and move out.

Before you know it, it'll be too late.

I don't want it to be too late.

What do you guys think? I'm really stuck here.

-Katie

Saturday, November 08, 2008

Sat, 08 Nov 2008 20:21:20 GMT

I slipped away last night
Took me away from sight and the place I know.
All crushed upon my skin
This mess I put you in and the punch I thrown.

It was a strange reaction
For someone like you to remain on side
And in a chain reaction
I was down and calling for a place to hide.

I saw a broken arm
Machines will all break down in the way I know.
Mended and all made clean
I saw upon the screen all the stones I thrown.

It was a strange reaction
For someone like you to remain so sure
And in a chain reaction
I dissolve and break and then away I crawl

And then away I crawl
And away I crawl
And away I crawl
And away I crawl

Wow, I haven't felt this way since 7th grade when I had a crush on that one weird little kid. (He now smokes pot and skips school! I always pick the good ones! ;D)

ANYWAY, this is crazy. I don't have a crush. It'll go away sooner or later..ha...haha...

..

-Katie

I don't understand.

Fri, 07 Nov 2008 01:10:24 GMT

How you could be mad at me

because YOUR boyfriend takes an interest in me.

.....

It's not my fault.

(Even though I'm much more cuter and much more exciting then you'll ever be.) >:[

Edit:: I just read MiraiWa's entry, and she seems to be having the same problems as me.. what a coincedence! Gosh, everyone is jellin. Good luck with your jealous class mates!

-Katie

Real life would be so much cooler

Thu, 06 Nov 2008 03:11:49 GMT

If there was background music. :)

Yes, that's all I got for today.

-Katie

It's Wrong!

Tue, 04 Nov 2008 03:26:31 GMT

but it feels so right!

Yeah. I'm obviously not taking this election seriously...even though I should.

Fact is, I just don't care anymore! :D

-Katie