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Name: Zach
Country: United States
State: Indiana
Metro: Indianapolis
Birthday: 8/4/1991
Gender: Male
Interests: guitar(which i suck at), wieght lifting, being online for hours upon hours, making stuff, sunkist (now thats one kick a$$ drink right there), music, keyboard/piano, alto saxophone, ocarina (yes, from the zelda series), purdue university, golfing (hey, it only sucks if you're not playing, so don't judge till you've tried), hunting, airsofting (better than paintballing because its less messy, yet not as accurate.), reading, limewire (free songs + cd burner= crap to listen to)....
Occupation: Student
Industry: Education/Research
Message: message me
AIM:  altosaxman91
Member Since:
6/23/2005
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| You know what's depressing? Is seeing someone who has said that they love you, back away when you try to hug them or even tap them to get their attention. Hm..seems like no one really cares what I have to say anymore. except a few of you. well...i'm gonna go.. | | |
| Hm...not a lot has been going on. if you haven't noticed I've changed my background. I took that picture at Arlington National Cemetery. That place is really peaceful. I don't know about any one else that's been there...but being there seemed to heighten my sense of respect for the dead. There are hills and hills of graves in every direction. This was probably one of my favorite parts of the trip. If you've never been you should definately go sometime. Ahh...the Washington D.C. trip....good times....good times.... Yeah...well....I'm gonna go now. Later. | | |
| you know. school has been going pretty well the past two days. brandon is fucking awesome at running! you should've seen him in gym..that is if you don't have 4th period gym. uh...band is going alright. so are my other classes. i'm really starting to like the song i'm playing with jesi, cassandra, and kevin in the ensemble. it sounds pretty sweet. yep. hmm...i might be going to a movie this weekend. idk yet. i want to see hostel..yeah...chainsaw....torture...looks like a good movie. there's also the ringer. i really want to see that. hm...well..there's really one thing i love doing and that's playing music. hopefully i can make a career out of it. my schedule sure is setting me up for something like that. i mean..i'm doing...like...piano/electric keyboarding in 10th grade, which i already know quite a bit about piano. uh...music theory...should be good. learning about harmonies and stuff. well..basically i'll have just about everything done before my senior year thats required for honors. as long as i don't fail any classes.. . i really want to get into purdue. that'd be my first choice but if ball state had a really good music department i might go there. depends. music is basically my life. i love it and i'd hate to be deaf and not be able to hear it. so...one thing i'm thankful for...being able to hear. yep. do i seem a bit happier in this post? that'd be because i am. things seem to be going great. i just hope it keeps going that way. well. i'm out. later ese's. | | |
| Ok. school started today. it was actually a really good day for me. i haven't laughed as much or been as happy at school ever before. well. marissa and i are still going out. that was one bad night though. yeah...i'll never make those mistakes again. i'm really happy. heh. i got "tested" online this week. i thought someone was someone but turned out to be someone else. yeah...jesi and marissa know what i'm talking about. i was told that i passed the test though. woohoo! i have my highschool classes planned out. all the classes i have down should help me with a music career but if i change my mind about it i could still do a lot of other things. i hope i have classes with some of you. that'd be nice. hmm. i'm gonna go now. later. | | |
| Okay. Worst night of my life....i wish it was the last.....i hate life so much right now. I'm not acting "emo" or trying to get attention or whatever. I doubt it's possible to feel as low as i do right now. I think Marissa is going to leave me again...it's my fault too....I mean....without her...what do I have? Tonight I've probably lost the best friends I've ever had. I don't see the point in life really...I don't feel like spending the rest of my life like this...No wonder there's so many teen suicides. For me...i brought this upon myself. I guess i deserve whatever I get....getting broken up with again...When she tells me it's over....for the 3rd time...my heart is going to shatter. i know this is true. Yes...right now i'm in tears...I can't stand this...I can't stand myself. People...like Jesi tried to help and all I've done is been a cruel ass bitch to them. No one should have to put up with me...but...see...the thing is...people think that middle school relationships don't matter....to me this seems to mean the world..it's one of the only things I've got that keep me feeling good about life...I hate my pessimistic outlook on life and I hate myself. Now...don't worry..I probably won't do anything suicidal...I don't have the guts...I do know that I'll be spending a lot of time depressed and sorrowful for awhile...Yes yes...laugh at me all you want. I just don't care anymore...This hurts a lot...more than it probably should...well...I guess I'll go now...What a crappy world. | | |
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