Okay seriously if anyone wants to do anything anytime, please call me at (871-1113) because I'm going out of my mind and I just need to get out, get some friends, and have a life again.

I'm single again too. *sigh*

I hope you know, I hope you know
That this has nothing to do with you
It's personal, Myself and I
We've got some straightenin' out to do
And I'm gonna miss you like a child misses their blanket
But Ive got to get a move on with my life
Its time to be a big girl now
And big girls don't cry
Don't cry
Don't cry
Don't cry

Hmmmm... Watching videos on youtube with Christian asleep in bed next to me. This is going to be a really random update or whatever you want to call it. Does anyone have videos on youtube? I like watching hill88, paperlillies, markdaycomedy, etc. I figure everyone is watching those. I have one video up but it's pretty cheesy and I'll put up a link to my channel after I get a good video up.

So we graduate next week, huh? What do we wear to senior breakfast? Whatever we want?

I got married on May 9th... It's a lot different than you think. It's SO important for everyone to shove off the idea that marriage, love, sex, kids, being pregnant, etc is NOTHING like in the movies, Cosmo, etc. Also, people express their love in really different ways and you have to deal with it or you'll end up divorced. That's just my little advice. We were having some problems and it was mostly my fault because I expected Chris to treat me like a princess, but that's not real. And no one can say, "oh it's just him" but it's everyone, kwim?

Christian is 3 and half months. He smiles and "talks" and rolls all over the place. He is adorable and such a little man already.

We'll be living at WSU in their family apartments so I won't have to drive an hour everyday. Chris is trying to get a job on second shift (grrrrr) and he'll be making twice as much an hour as he is now.

The penguins at the zoo are ugly! The rain ruining our trip (Xtian's first trip there dang it!) really made me mad! Yay for the RiverFest starting tonight! Chris and I have our first date in oh say seven months on Sunday! How exciting is that?!

I hope everyone is well and leave me some comments!!!

Hmm... What a busy week... today was one of two of my only free days and I cooked a few nights worth of dinners and did 5 loads of laundry. Tomorrow I get to drive clear to the other side of town for a pregnancy test so I can get my IUD. I get to drive even further to take Annalee to soccer practice. Then on Wednesday I get to pick up my cap and gown. My dad is going to take the day off so he will keep the baby while I go do that... because when we did the deposits for cap and gowns, everyone was REALLY RUDE AND WERE PUSHING AND SHOVING AND JUST BEING DOWNRIGHT RUDE (GROW UP!). I know if I took him, someone would end up bashing his head. Which is sad that people who are about to graduate and be adults can't even behave well in line. Wednesday is my birthday too. Thursday is another 45 minute trip to her soccer game. Friday I actually get the IUD. Saturday we all spend time with my dad and take the kids somewhere fun... well fun to them... We went to Chuck E. Cheese last Saturday and it was a real nightmare... (sadly some of those kids behaved better than a majority of the people on cap and gown deposit day").

How's the baby? Well, now he's 12 pounds and 25 inches. He's 2 and a half months old. He's already teething. He rolls over and scoots. He goos and gahs. He gives me just the biggest smiles in the whole world. He is a real dream. He can't sleep if he's being held and he always sleeps in his bassinet. He never fusses or cries, except when he's hungry. After he gets shots, he cries for maybe a minute. He usually sleeps through the night too. Someone please tell me why no one thinks young people are capable of raising a baby?! And why does everyone say it's so hard?! He's a real piece of cake... And my goodness, no one in the world compares to him... He's my life.

Chris and I are getting married soon!!!!!!!

I want to update but I don't really have anything to say... I guess a lot of people update about nothing so why not?

Today my dad, Christian, and I went shopping for diapers and formula and baby stuff. My milk supply is way up. Yippeeeee!!!! I will tell you one thing that is tough... GETTING UP IN THE MIDDLE OF THE NIGHT TO PUMP! Yes that IS the hardest thing about being a mom... but take note, there is NO mother, from the youngest to the oldest who would enjoy that.

Christian has started smiling out of joy... I get the biggest smiles. Today he laughed at me... It was the first time he has ever (and the only) laughed when he was awake and been provoked to do so. I had this little stuffed Speedy Gonzales that has a big yellow sombrero on. I could tell he was starring at it so I started zooming that little rat around screeching HOLA HOLA HOLA and my little sweetheart laughed. It was.... amazing. Love my little baby soooooooooooo much.

BTW, what's up with Patrick?! He hasn't updated in forever! Can someone fill me in to what's going on? Is he grounded (again) or something? And XXXTina, you better update too!

PS: Who knew they could give you a pill to make you have a period?! Crazy huh?!

I am so tired. I have really terrible insomnia lately. It's not the baby... He's asleep in his bassinet right now. I just have a lot on my mind I guess. I know that I will be okay no matter what happens, it's just a matter of making the absolute best choice. It's hard to explain... It's mostly about timing. Like should I go back to work now? Should I wait? How will he do in daycare? How will I do without him?

Fish are really stupid. If you ever decide to get a fish because pets aren't allowed in your house, DON'T!!!! We have had 4 goldfish and 1 tropical fish die in the span of oh say... two weeks. Three goldfish died yesterday alone. And I wonder if it's sad that I was relieved... Goldfish are way disgusting. Our whole house smelled so gross from them. Now they are dead and gone. I was a little sad that Dorothy, Christian's fish, died, but he's just a baby and it was just a fish. Now I have a snail named Gary and a frog named Hip Hop (he lives in the water). Chris has an Oscar named Oscar (the grouch).

My 6 week check up is tomorrow. I really don't want to go. I don't want to step on the scale and I sure as heck don't want "checked up." Gahhhhhhh...... Well, for the first time in months I have mascara on so I better go wash it off............. zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.........