|
your_shining_star81
|
read my profile
sign my guestbook
Name: Elizabeth State: Arkansas Gender: Female
Interests: music is my life, i love love love most every kind of music, clarinet, jazz, country, rap, pop, oldies, UCA stuff, talking on the phone, hanging out with friends (the walmart-social-club is the best), grey's anatomy, procrastinating...but i'm never late :) Expertise: i've been told that i can play clarinet, but i dunno... Occupation: Other Industry: Education/Research
Message: message me
Member Since:
3/28/2006
|
|
| Well, I certainly haven't updated in quite a long time. Quick overview of this semester: marching band was hard, but amazing. classes haven't been the best, but I'm making it. Had a quick one month relationship deal that didn't mean as much as I would have liked for it to. Right after that was over, someone who I didn't ever really expect to show back up, did. And I'm grateful for it. It's still pretty complicated and in the works, but I'm praying hard.
The past two weeks I've been sick, and nobody knows what's wrong with me. I'm sore all over, coughing, low fever, nauseated, no appetite, and it sucks. I'm so tired of chicken flavored stuff! ack! I'm going to a gastroenterologist tomorrow, and hopefully he'll find some answers. My mom's head nurse thinks that it's very likely to be just a bad stomach ulcer or something like that. I hope it's not too serious.
Hmm...let's see, what else. I have one more final tomorrow. Sociology. It won't be hard seeing as how it's only over one chapter. Next semester I get to start some major classes, and I'm excited about it. Oh yeah! I made 5th chair Wind Ensemble for next semester! And we get to spend 8 days on tour in AUSTRIA!! I'm SO excited!!
Well, I have to go so I can finish studying and go to bed. I may try to start updating more often.
Love. | | |
| So...it's been a while, hasn't it? Well....short summary....the 1st semester ended well. and the 2nd semester was okay too, i guess. This summer has sucked so bad. On May 28th, my mamaw was diagnosed with cancer. Lung, Kidney (adrenal gland), and Brain cancer. So...I quit my job at subway (nooo problem lol) to stay with her because she needed someone there full time with the meds and treatment she was going to start taking/receiving. Over the two months that I stayed with her I learned so much...about life, about cooking, about God and beliefs. Well, on Friday July 27th, we took her to the ER because she was having trouble breathing. They admitted her into ICU. She developed pneumonia over night. She also had a kidney and bladder infection. Well, Saturday morning her blood pressure dropped and they called the family in immediately. She made it that time, but they transported her to baptist in LR that afternoon, and shortly after we got there, they called the family back, and within 15 minutes, she passed away. Anyways, since then...I have been struggling to memorize all of the music that I have to memorize. I'm moving into my apartment on Wednesday, and in a way i'm extremely ready to leave Sheridan for a while. but then again, it's like i just got to be home for a couple of weeks this summer. it's been the longest yet shortest summer of my life. anyways i guess i gotta go. i have some work that i need to be doing. hope everybody is ready for school to start back..because it's about that time!
| | |
| okay....so im starting another round in this game that we call life and i feel like i'm already losing. i suppose this losing streak started towards the beginning/middle of last year, but i have a feeling that it's going to continue into 2007. and just to let you know...i can't take another loss. i honestly think it would be the end of me. i'm not sure of his intentions, and i wish i did, simply because i wouldn't dig myself deeper and deeper if i knew it wasn't the right thing to do. i want this to work out, really badly actually. yet i'm not sure if he does. and i know it's just a crush, its just a "phase" so i've been told...but this is big phase for me. its the phase of getting over previous phases. i should be happy, yet i'm not sure if i am. i'm confused. i'm nervous. i'm anxious. and it's all because of one person. one person that probably doesn't know the impact he's already had on my life. for one, i'm comfortable enough to be with somebody else. and two, i know that i can trust him. he's the kind of guy that wouldn't let me down. somebody told me to go along with whatever his plans are because i'm so introverted. but i'm tired of being this way. i'm tired of just giving in. i want to stand up and know exactly what i want and when i want it. i wish it were that easy though. if people only knew of my sleepless nights and then when i do get to sleep, the night is filled full of dreams and images of what could happen, only further getting my hopes up. yet...hope is the only thing that keeps you going sometimes. i'll always remember the phrase "There's Always Hope" from a youth retreat thing i went to a long time ago. but sometimes i feel as if i'm hopeless. i dont know. i honestly dont know how people deal with me because i have problems dealing with myself sometimes. and if i can't deal with myself, how is he supposed to deal with me? and if he reads this...i really don't know what would happen, even though i could guess. but i need a place to talk and rant. i need a place to let go of things that i can't anywhere else. somebody suggested a journal; do you know how much easier it is to type than write? lots. somebody please have an answer. and a few of you have been so great with putting up with me, and i thank you so much. really...i dont know what i'd do without everybody.
love yall... libby.
| | |
| okay.....sooo its been forever since i've updated this thing. okay....so lets see. school ended. finals were okay. my grades were: Writing: A Both Bands (Marching and Lessons): A US Government and Politics: B World History II: B Biology: C
sooo yeah....3.067 for semester. not too bad. not great. but not too bad. christmas break is okay...had a good christmas. came back to conway yesterday. got to hang out with someone today (friday) :) and possibly tomorrow (saturday) too :) ....new year's eve is sunday. fun times with the family...bleh. wish i could stay in conway. anyways...i hope everybody is having a great break! love yall.
libby. | | |
| High school: Sheridan High School Junior high school: Sheridan Jr High School Elementary school: Carthage/Sheridan Elementary Favorite place: Tulip Favorite soda: coke...recently i've grown fond of strawberry fanta though Favorite band: The Fray Favorite animal: dog Favorite burger place: Either McDs or Wendys
Bar hopping or clubbing: never been either and doesn't appeal to me Favorite fruit: apples Favorite weather: about 70 degrees, sunny, windy
Do you: Have a crush on someone: it's complicated Have a girlfriend/boyfriend: nada Wish you could live somewhere else: i wish i could live in an apartment instead of the dorms in conway Believe in online dating: nada Think others find you attractive: certain people have told me so Want more piercings: um...possibly belly ring? i dunno Want a tattoo: yeah Like cleaning: not the actual process, but the after effects are good Last talked to: mom Last thought: my soup is hot
Last showered: yesterday Last watched movie: Road Trip
For or Against: Long distant relationships: depends on how strong the relationship is Killing people: only if it's a must, haha Teenage smoking: against...i hate smoking Gay relationships: i'm supportive...to an extent Bush: against
Have you: Ever cried over a girl or boy: yes Ever been arrested: no Ever had a friend die: yes Ever dated a cousin: no Ever used a gun: yes Ever finished a puzzle: yes Ever got surgery: yes Ever got beat up: nope...i kick ass! haha Ever hated someone: yes Ever made a huge mistake: yes Ever jogged a mile: yes Ever played with someone's feelings: not on purpose
Person who last: Slept in your bed: um, i dont think anybody has slept in my bed in conway, um...at home...me Saw you cry: jay Made you cry: um...myself
Yelled at you: brent
Pick one: Blue or red?: Red Spring or fall?: Fall...because it leads to winter
Random stuff: Criminal record?: not yet :) Do you speak any other languages?: little spanish Do you have piercings? yes...earrings...but shouldnt this q have been up there with the other piercing question?
Your: Initials: ERS How old do you look?: well according to jay, 50...haha...but maybe 20ish How old do you act?: probably 22-23 Braces: got them in 7th grade and off in 9th Do you have any pets?: waaaay too many Do you get embarrassed?: yeah What upsets you?: a lot of weird things | | |
|