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Name: Elizabeth
State: Arkansas
Gender: Female


Interests: music is my life, i love love love most every kind of music, clarinet, jazz, country, rap, pop, oldies, UCA stuff, talking on the phone, hanging out with friends (the walmart-social-club is the best), grey's anatomy, procrastinating...but i'm never late :)
Expertise: i've been told that i can play clarinet, but i dunno...
Occupation: Other
Industry: Education/Research


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Member Since: 3/28/2006

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Thursday, December 13, 2007

Well, I certainly haven't updated in quite a long time.  Quick overview of this semester:  marching band was hard, but amazing.  classes haven't been the best, but I'm making it.  Had a quick one month relationship deal that didn't mean as much as I would have liked for it to.  Right after that was over, someone who I didn't ever really expect to show back up, did.  And I'm grateful for it.  It's still pretty complicated and in the works, but I'm praying hard. 

The past two weeks I've been sick, and nobody knows what's wrong with me.  I'm sore all over, coughing, low fever, nauseated, no appetite, and it sucks.  I'm so tired of chicken flavored stuff! ack!  I'm going to a gastroenterologist tomorrow, and hopefully he'll find some answers.  My mom's head nurse thinks that it's very likely to be just a bad stomach ulcer or something like that.  I hope it's not too serious. 

Hmm...let's see, what else.  I have one more final tomorrow.  Sociology.  It won't be hard seeing as how it's only over one chapter.  Next semester I get to start some major classes, and I'm excited about it.  Oh yeah!  I made 5th chair Wind Ensemble for next semester!  And we get to spend 8 days on tour in AUSTRIA!! I'm SO excited!!

Well, I have to go so I can finish studying and go to bed.  I may try to start updating more often. 

Love.


Sunday, August 12, 2007

So...it's been a while, hasn't it?  Well....short summary....the 1st semester ended well.  and the 2nd semester was okay too, i guess.  This summer has sucked so bad.  On May 28th, my mamaw was diagnosed with cancer.  Lung, Kidney (adrenal gland), and Brain cancer.  So...I quit my job at subway (nooo problem lol) to stay with her because she needed someone there full time with the meds and treatment she was going to start taking/receiving.  Over the two months that I stayed with her I learned so much...about life, about cooking, about God and beliefs.  Well, on Friday July 27th, we took her to the ER because she was having trouble breathing.  They admitted her into ICU.  She developed pneumonia over night.  She also had a kidney and bladder infection.  Well, Saturday morning her blood pressure dropped and they called the family in immediately.  She made it that time, but they transported her to baptist in LR that afternoon, and shortly after we got there, they called the family back, and within 15 minutes, she passed away.  Anyways, since then...I have been struggling to memorize all of the music that I have to memorize.  I'm moving into my apartment on Wednesday, and in a way i'm extremely ready to leave Sheridan for a while.  but then again, it's like i just got to be home for a couple of weeks this summer.  it's been the longest yet shortest summer of my life.  anyways i guess i gotta go.  i have some work that i need to be doing.  hope everybody is ready for school to start back..because it's about that time!

 

 


Friday, January 05, 2007

okay....so im starting another round in this game that we call life and i feel like i'm already losing.  i suppose this losing streak started towards the beginning/middle of last year, but i have a feeling that it's going to continue into 2007.  and just to let you know...i can't take another loss.   i honestly think it would be the end of me.  i'm not sure of his intentions, and i wish i did, simply because i wouldn't dig myself deeper and deeper if i knew it wasn't the right thing to do.  i want this to work out, really badly actually.  yet i'm not sure if he does.  and i know it's just a crush, its just a "phase" so i've been told...but this is big phase for me.  its the phase of getting over previous phases.  i should be happy, yet i'm not sure if i am.  i'm confused.  i'm nervous.  i'm anxious.  and it's all because of one person.  one person that probably doesn't know the impact he's already had on my life.  for one, i'm comfortable enough to be with somebody else.  and two, i know that i can trust him.  he's the kind of guy that wouldn't let me down.  somebody told me to go along with whatever his plans are because i'm so introverted.  but i'm tired of being this way.  i'm tired of just giving in.  i want to stand up and know exactly what i want and when i want it.  i wish it were that easy though.  if people only knew of my sleepless nights and then when i do get to sleep, the night is filled full of dreams and images of what could happen, only further getting my hopes up.  yet...hope is the only thing that keeps you going sometimes.  i'll always remember the phrase "There's Always Hope" from a youth retreat thing i went to a long time ago.  but sometimes i feel as if i'm hopeless.  i dont know.  i honestly dont know how people deal with me because i have problems dealing with myself sometimes.  and if i can't deal with myself, how is he supposed to deal with me?  and if he reads this...i really don't know what would happen, even though i could guess.  but i need a place to talk and rant.  i need a place to let go of things that i can't anywhere else.  somebody suggested a journal; do you know how much easier it is to type than write?  lots.  somebody please have an answer.  and a few of you have been so great with putting up with me, and i thank you so much.  really...i dont know what i'd do without everybody. 

love yall...
libby.


Saturday, December 30, 2006

okay.....sooo its been forever since i've updated this thing.  okay....so lets see.  school ended.  finals were okay. my grades were:  Writing:  A
                     Both Bands (Marching and Lessons):  A
                     US Government and Politics:  B
                     World History II:  B
                     Biology:  C

sooo yeah....3.067 for semester.  not too bad.  not great.  but not too bad.  christmas break is okay...had a good christmas.  came back to conway yesterday.  got to hang out with someone today (friday) :) and possibly tomorrow (saturday)  too :) ....new year's eve is sunday.  fun times with the family...bleh.  wish i could stay in conway.  anyways...i hope everybody is having a great break!  love yall.

libby.


Saturday, December 02, 2006

High school: Sheridan High School
Junior high school:  Sheridan Jr High School
Elementary school:  Carthage/Sheridan Elementary
Favorite place:  Tulip
Favorite soda: coke...recently i've grown fond of strawberry fanta though
Favorite band: The Fray
Favorite animal: dog
Favorite burger place: Either McDs or Wendys
Bar hopping or clubbing: never been either and doesn't appeal to me
Favorite fruit: apples
Favorite weather: about 70 degrees, sunny, windy

Do you:
Have a crush on someone: it's complicated
Have a girlfriend/boyfriend: nada
Wish you could live somewhere else: i wish i could live in an apartment instead of the dorms in conway
Believe in online dating: nada
Think others find you attractive: certain people have told me so
Want more piercings: um...possibly belly ring?  i dunno
Want a tattoo: yeah
Like cleaning: not the actual process, but the after effects are good
Last talked to: mom
Last thought: my soup is hot
Last showered: yesterday
Last watched movie: Road Trip

For or Against:
Long distant relationships: depends on how strong the relationship is
Killing people: only if it's a must, haha
Teenage smoking: against...i hate smoking
Gay relationships: i'm supportive...to an extent
Bush: against

Have you:
Ever cried over a girl or boy: yes
Ever been arrested: no
Ever had a friend die: yes
Ever dated a cousin: no
Ever used a gun: yes
Ever finished a puzzle: yes
Ever got surgery: yes
Ever got beat up: nope...i kick ass! haha
Ever hated someone: yes
Ever made a huge mistake: yes
Ever jogged a mile: yes
Ever played with someone's feelings: not on purpose

Person who last:
Slept in your bed: um, i dont think anybody has slept in my bed in conway, um...at home...me
Saw you cry: jay
Made you cry: um...myself
Yelled at you: brent

Pick one:
Blue or red?: Red
Spring or fall?: Fall...because it leads to winter

Random stuff:
Criminal record?: not yet :)
Do you speak any other languages?: little spanish
Do you have piercings? yes...earrings...but shouldnt this q have been up there with the other piercing question?

Your:
Initials: ERS
How old do you look?: well according to jay, 50...haha...but maybe 20ish
How old do you act?: probably 22-23
Braces:  got them in 7th grade and off in 9th
Do you have any pets?: waaaay too many
Do you get embarrassed?: yeah
What upsets you?:  a lot of weird things



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