| uhm yeah today was completely soawesome.! lmao! . i went to NEW YORK NEW YORK <3 with the cousin= meghan black. and my momma . and saw a play. hairspray. about fat and black people trying to fit in . and trying to dance together. fucking great . and it has GORGEOUS guys. i got a picture with Link . <3<3<3 lmao i am so awesome! . anywayss. did that. kicked brother off computer like an hour ago to get on this big box thing to do social studies flag project thing. i am glad i know a lot about my backround with greece and almost all of the information i needed. i'm good like that. and right now i am changing my radio station because i hate green day. Now i am listening to The Verve Pipe =love. they rock hardcore style. anyways. again. i miss stephen but is till have to get over it . all i thought about when the people in the play were kissing was "wow i miss steve a lot. especially the way he kissed.(tear)" and then i got off that and started thinking about the GORGEOUS kid sitting by me that i kept eye flirting with during the whole being in the threate part thing. lmfaoo yeah that made sense. yeah he was with his grilfriend too, [i think]. pretty funny. there werre sooo many kids there . and they were wearing like tanktops? and i wanted to be like ." are you fucking kidding me? don't your parents talk to you? did you not realize it is freezing out? and that it is almost winter? fucking idiots!" alrrighty i'm done. P-out yo.
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| Monday NOVEMBER 7TH.
did nothing . woke up wiht eddie and richard in my hosue . then went to ikea . ( i love that place with a passion. oh and they are healthy eating people.) lmao yeah then came home and was suppose to go to a movie to get my mind off of steve. but i ahd dance . [bitches] and i couldnt then my sister was suppose to pick up and take me and my cousin to a mvoie. but i guess that didnt happen but its cool because that was a plan that wasnt suppose to happen. anyways .... i fuckingg hate boys and their little fucking stupid ass mind games. i wish some people would just grow up.
TODAYY...
i'll get back to you for today to see what i am doing. PEACE OUT!@#$#@!
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| uhmmm yeah i am completely unhappy. today was actually not horrible. i made 100$ from walking around and putting flyers on doors for doug forrester. (ewwwwwwieee) but anyways yeah i made 100$ and it was pretty cool because i got to hang out wiht my sister and my brother and his ohh so flipp'n amazing girlfriend jessica.. then we went home and dyed my brother's hair. by the way.. it looks freaken awesomee! lmao. yeah it's now black. and jess dyed the back of my hair black. i need to get it cut the way it was suppose to be cut a while ago tho otherwise you cant really tell it's black. my momma doesnt know and i think she does because we left the bottle with the dye in it on the bathroom counter and the counter is stained black from it. itt was actually pretty funnny. hehahe .. oh well what can you do?!
now to get started on the "guy" subject. i was torn apart last night and all day today because of news i heard. and i am completely disguisted with. its is fuckinggg gross as heelll and i dont even what to think of it. i was crying last night and it wasnt cool at all. =/ whatever what can i say ? anything i do or say doesnt matter any more so . everyone should shit on life. Have a nice one. ='/ |
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| alright well i feel completley shitty. i miss stephen soo much it is unbelievable. knowing that he doesnt care at all hruts so much. i never undertsood how hwo he could just out of nowwhere break up wiht me and go to another girl .. ( and i know he didnt go to her for sex because he wont have sex with her. thats at least what i heard.) and not care at all. i am devistated to the end. i think about him all the time and i get really upset . i am not the same . i am normally loud and happy now im neither . people keep asking me what is wrong and no one understands. i say nothing and they are just like alright whatever she sed she was fine lets leave her alone and not care. i hate it . i wish stephen would call me and just be like "listen i fucked up im sorry" and actually tell me a true reason why he broke up wiht me .i dont talk to him at all. and it is really weird because we normally talked everynight til like 2 in the morning and most of the time we never got off the phone until mine died because my fone was the only one that ever died. i cry all the time and thinik about him whenever anything happens . i acnt even go shopping without thinking about him because i always saw him at the mall or movies. and now the beach wont even be the same because of one day we were there and it seirosuly was one of the BEST days of my life. i wouldnt trade it for anything. sometimes i wish i never even met him. but then i think of all the fun i had wiht him and im like well if it didnt happen the past 5 months probably would have been really boring. idk i am like speechless still over the whole thing and he broke up with me like 2 weeks ago. i never got over it and it sucks because i have this feeling i wont get over it for a lonngg timeee. and ittt completely terribly blows. =/ i still love him and miss him soo much. and i know he was the one guy that made me feel special and happy.. i was inlove with him and now there is nothing i can do to get that back. because he already has another girlfriend. bummer. it is fucking gay as hell how he can do that and not even think twice about it. another thing i dont understand is why he called me two days ago. he had to think about me right? i mean ou dont call your ex with 2 weeks of not talking and just call her to say "hi" i still think there was a reasonb for that fone call that i wasnt able to get because i wasnt home. whatever i'm done. i cant say i dont care about him because i do and always will.
i still love you and i always will . =/ |
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| Uhm i deifnitly have a xanga now and i have a LONGGGG thing that you are goingt o be forced to read and it is really upsetting but first i have to make this thing trendy =/ |
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