Gosh i feel like updating i just dont want to make some gayyy post haha.. well lets see. i got to see an amazing person recentley and it made me realized how much i really did miss them, and idk Hopefully it will all work out even tho everything else is working to keep us apart it seems like.And i got to hang out with RACHHEL!!! shes pretty pimp ya know. haha. yeah.Anddd everyones always at walmart belive me i know this, i've been there i dont know how many times in the past week haha probley more than i can count! Grrrr i'm so bored gosh.

<3 always Brandiiiii.........

maybe you'll still belive me when i say i love you. i want you and only you, i promiss!

 a long time ago on mt. nebo, it was prettttyy!!!

 I know i look retarded but i dont have anymore pictures of me and rachels new boyfriend!!!!!

HE SO LOVES ME MORE RACHELLL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Everthing is so confusing.....

what have i got myself into???

why does everything in life suprise you, and not all suprises are good even if i used to think they were...nothing seems to make sense and people you know seem to always let me down, even if it's over something small all the same it still matters to me.

why cant you be there when i need you the most, why cant i just talk to you, why dont i understand you, why does it have to be this way, i'm stupid for beliveing anything

i hope your happy that i fell for you .

oh yeah and sweetheart last night was good. :) if only i could have stoped all the thoughts and questions runing thru my head everything would have been alot better. and if i could have stoped thinking about how horrieble last years sweetheart dance wa

why does life have to be like this

it seems like nothing ever goes your

way and something you never

expect to happen, happens

why does it have to be this way.

why do i have to care so much.

why did i have to do that.

love you 

byebye

ok well just to clear things up i broke up with ryan and the reason i did is really not anyone elses bussness. i had my reasons to brake up with him but the mane one is because my mom didnt really like him. and i know it sounds stupid but that is one reason i did and the other reason i dont think i really have to say but just to answer your quesions no i am not going out with Rusty. i know pretty much most of my friends are mad at me for doing that . i dont think that i sould have to stay with anyone just because i dont want to hurt there feelings. and i mean gosh i want to have a little fun and see who else is out there. and i know that everyone thinks i cheated on ryan but, like i have said to other people i could never cheat on anyone and i wounldnt cheat on ryan even if we were still going out.and it upsets me the most that ryan dosent want to talk to me because he thinks i cheated on him which i would never do. all i have to say is that i did this as nice as i could and now everyone is pissed at me for no reason. and i'm still trying to be as nice as i can to everyone but its not working.and i'm just soo pissed that it's not really funny. and you know i thought all my friends would agree with me but it seems like everyone is turning there backs on me, but oh well maybe its just me thinging all this up.

 I JUST WANT THIS ALL TO END

ok jennifer you may have a good point on some of that but i didnt say i stoped loving ryan because truthfully i still really care about him not that its any of you guys buisness,but i truely didnt belive in some of the stuff that i knew he was going to get into agin and i know alot of you probley dont understand or know what i'm talking about but yeah.i really dont think i should expane everything because it was mostly just the little things that all add up that i kept to myself. and did any of you ever think that it might be because i dont want to get that attached to someone this soon.well i'm just going to leave it at that.because for one thing i'm tried of typing.