When people see me they see a happy child
one that is always hyper and wild
but what they dont know is my true sorrow
wishing for a better tomorrow

i put the bad things in the back of my head
giving hope on fate now its dead
i live with a broken family
why cant i just live happily?

I lay down at night and think about what  i have to live for
theres no one to love me, or me to love anymore
I've been through heartache
A love that I thought was true, now i realize it was fake

I've made bad decisions in life
Something I chOose to strive
I put the past behind me
waiting for whats in the future to see

I think about my loved ones who will die
to keep the tears away from these horrible images I close my eyes
I keep all my feelings inside
its almost as if i hide

I hide only from you
and the crazy things i've been through
I think about suicide
to kill the pain inside
but i chose to live
for what god had to give

I thank the lord from above
for showing me that family i must love
I cant turn back
from pain and tears that have packed and packed

I have to sit and wait till time passes by
never hoping that I will die
I wish for health
and for wealth
knowing not all dreams come true
but believe me they will and do

So this is the end of my story
are you hoping this will be the end?
dont worry,
I'll be back again

RAWR!

hey peoples I know you guys miss me a whole lot. but my screen hasnt been turning on lately I FIXEDED IT! see whos MISS FIX-IT now monica?! lol holler its me! lol.anyways I shouldnt be online much now because u know been waiting for them phone calls and so is monica..her and her mister simone haha and me and my will-ie haha yup yup well uh...I MISS YOU WILLIE  >.< and everyone else too if you guys noticed that I havent been going to skOol well I'm going tomorrow so dont be too excited hehe...anyways BYE BYEZ!

--katrina--

//.todae.//

well I wasn't planning on doing anything..but as usual things come up. I went to the movies and I went with a bunch of little kids the only person my age was Tow/David he walked me to Rachels house to go swimming with Kevin, Vince some dOode and some more dOodes and my new son Anthony who is another Viet child...man oh man he so built foe a lito boi hehe BUT DAMN it was fun..INCOMING NEWS ABOUT ONE OF THE GUYS I LIKE...so sad... todae was fun but now its horrible

Okae this is how todae started yesterdae..

Me and my mom went to get her nails done. we went to kathy's nails near Natomas Crossing. Then I went to go get some TO-GOES ((togos)) lol and then I went to get some coffee and i went back into the shop after i called daniel and told him i was near his house then he was like walk over here i wa slike no...then i went to throw something away in the trash can..as i walked out guess who i saw but Vince and Daniel! lol it was funnie then we went inside LANatomas it was dark inside...a little weird. then they left to the bus stop and I was on my way to go to skOol and I was explaining to my mom about how Vince and Daniel had to take the bus so she picked them up and all three of us went to skOol hehe weird huh? then we met carmen and neena at raleys and we were messing around inside and vince offered to buy me a Jamba Juice but you kno me...and then we went to skOol and to the orientation which was kOo in the begining until it came time when anthony was getting on Vince's nerves cuhz he hears that Anthony talkin shit behind his back. Then EVERYTHING started like whoa...I couldnt take dat shit..just watching two frends argue and starting shit..i couldnt do anything to stop Vince..its not my decision and my right to tell him what to do. Then I was like FUCK ALL THIS SHIT and I called up Johnny & David to tell him to come pick me up so we can go to the movies. So they came to pick me up and we went to the movies...then me and Johnny and David went in to see Hero...it was hella boring man! haha then we saw Sheriff...WOW SO CUTE..but what a player. no chance no chance haha then we got out and gave our stubs to Sheriff and then we went to go eat and stuff with Neena and Carmen we went to Quizznos haha HELLA FUNNY! Neena asked foe a job and she went behind the counters and made her own sadwhich and Johnnys haha man oh man then I went and helped clean cuz we were "WORKING" there haha then Neena made this other mans sadwhich haha! it was hella funny she made it all sloppy and ugly! hehe then he took it and ate it still haha. and then we left to find David we finally found it but he lost his brothers ragg and his brother was gonna get hecka mad if he didnt find it so Johnny went to go help him find it. then they came back once they found it...then Johnny and David left around 10 me neena and carmen went to see Perona? oh wait! haha ANACONDA!! lol yeah and it was hecka fun! we were hecka scared and the pOor little monkey almost gotten eaten lol. Then I got home around 12  and went online then I heard about people trying to talk behind someones back i was like OH HELL NO and then i saw what was up and told everyone what was on my mind. blah blah

Todae--

It was kOo so far..Anthony called and I talked to him about yesterdae..Then I went online and then I called Rachel..then I went back online and talked to Daniel and other peeps and then called Daniel then after awhile we three-wayed Vince so I was talkin to Daniel and Vince. Now I'm online hehe so bored...thinkin bout goin to Paradise...but idk

Todae was hella kOo...I thought it would be a worthless day besides seeing my sisters,nephew,brother inlaw,and niece...but it was hella kOo. We went out to eat after picking up my sister belinda in richmond and then we went to a top secret place..then we dropped belinda off at hilltop then we went back to the arden mall but dOode so much traffic and then we finally got there we met up with ZING haha and he bought everywun hella stuff wowness.. anyways thats bout it we came home and now we're here...the end

Shopping n got+++

-Jacket

-Tanktop

-Heart Necklace

-Jade Necklace

THANKS ZING!