Have you ever thought Jesus doesn't answer prayers? I'm here to say Jesus does. I know this for a fact. I'm a mom of five kids. One was born with yellow jaundice. The lord helped him get well through prayer. My daughter was born sick with pneumonia, she had it all time, and the lord helped her get well through prayer. Then I was pregnant and I lost the baby, and the lord helped me get through this. After that I had a son he had problems to. He had to get his tonsils removed  and the lord protected him, and help him get well. Then I had a baby girl she was born healthy and rarly got sick. but if she did I prayed and the lord would make her well. The lord seemed to always be there but then I started having problems. I wanted to have six children. I started loosing my pregnant. No test, no doctor, noone could tell me why. The doctors ran test but nothing showed up genetic wise or other wise. The only thing that I know is God knew somthing so I prayed and kept praying and crying then through mail comes a card from a preacher up North telling me I would have another baby and this child would come into the world safley. She did... She's here today through the grace of God. God allowed me this special gift even though I didn't believe she would make it. That's not  the end though she was born with serious problems she couldn't breath right, she had acid reflux and the doctor I was using for her kept saying she would grow out of it. Well I started praying for her and God sent me a doctor and God sent me a doctor who got her some real help. This doctor was from God who heard my prayers. My girl had to have a speacialist who awho opperated on her and fixed her on her and fixed her problems only he neglected to tell me she had died on the operating table and that the only thing that was keeping her alive was the machines.  I only found out through her regular doctor. The reason i'm tell you this is because while she was laying in the bed in the operating room everyone was praying for her and when she was in the hospital bed or recovery room. I called everyone in to pray for her again this time because I could see something was wrong. The machines were doing all the work for her and the doctor was not telling me everything, and I heard the lord and he said pray call everyone and get more prayer. So I did and she's alive today. That was five yrs ago.

He also answered my prayers yesterday... this is what happened... I got up and went to take a test one that was important to me. I had prayed about this test for along time, but wouldnt take it, but my friend signed me up for it. I figured God wanted me to take the test, if nothing else because he was tired of me cowering out so I went to take it. The problems started, first my friend was late meeting me, then when we got there and they wouldn't take my my credit card or a check, so we had to find a atm machine and the machine wouldn't take my card, so I started to panick actually to be honest I started panacking when they wouldnt take my check or credit card at the testing place. well since we where at a bank I tried to get in, but the door was locked so I started praying "by now out of shear fear" well they opened the bank but they told me they couldnt cash my check as i didnt have an account there. So I preayed please help me lord and he did she changed her mind called my bank and cashed it... through the Grace of God. I was so nervous by now. I had to ask the lord to help me calm down. He did I took the test and passed it. The lord was truly there and truly helped me pass the test. You would think that was the end of my story but its not.... so lets go on when I got home my horse was down this had become a routine, by now since he had gotton some bad hay. To make a long story short I had noone to hlep me get up the horse so I prayed to Jesu asnd he heard my prayer and with his help the horse tried to get up so I pushed as hard as I could and kept praying the whole time and through the grace of God he got up. I don't believe he will be going down again, because I believe that Jesus has healed him.

Inconclusion: I'd like to state Jesus answers prayer! Ive given examples of the good times my kids have been healed because jesus heard my prayers, from my first to the last child. The one's I lost I know jesus had a reason for. I also prayed for them to why they aren't here only Jesus knows. I've lost animals that I prayed for to, why I lost them I can only say Jesus had a reason and he is the only one that knos why. One day I hope I get to ask him in person WHY this happen... b/c im really sure Jesus will tell me why things didn't go the way I thought they should have....

Hey hoes... wrud Well anyways i figured i would update being i have nothing better to do since i just got home and Amanda isnt on **cries** well anyways so back to what i was saying i didnt do much today my hair is purple and blue thanks for amanda shes awesome haha anyways and like this tomorrow im not going to skool i wish lewser wasnt but she has to **cries** again well anyways once again im dropping the drama not b/c im scared just b/c i have a life and b/c adam told me that he didnt want to have to get into any fights over me and go to jail which he would do if a guy hit me! Which i think Shawn has realized hello u hit me my brother will kill you... and he cant take him im sry that aint gonna happen... dude tomorrow is his b-day aw i love my brother hes awesome...  anyways I hate stupid cry babies grr... my sister is so a cry baby sumtimes... and its annoying as crap well anyways um... thats about all i have to say i could prolly go on but im just rambling anyways so whats the point i think ill put u sum quotes up and see how special i am which is pretty special being i have 11 comments below so lets see if i can get more... = ) well love ya lots... Oh yeah I'm wishing My brother a happy b~day now! in here so byes oh yeah i know what i was gonna say haha lmbo at adam why do u call me to tell me where you are going im not that type of girl to have to know every where u go at every point and time... and dang he sure does say baby alot... i hate that word but im gonna get use to it! i guess ill have to and dang i wanna ask so bad whats wrong w/ his bro but i dont wanna be rude... grr... so i guess one day ill find out = )

 OH yeah mom is putting an entry up to do w/ God tomorrow... I forgot to tell yall!

~Quotes~

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am i the only girl thats not impressed with -pick-up-lines-
am i the only girl that doesnt respond to "Hey Sexy"
am i the only girl that wants more than that?

haha this was cute ...

the day you care what people think is the day you stop being yourself!

We shouldn't be judged on how we fall, but on how we rise after falling.   Confidence is the inner voice that says your becoming what your capable of being.   If you LiVE your life being worried about what others will think of every little thing you do then...you might as well not be living at all. Go ahead and make yourself look like a fool as long as you have fun doing it.       he loves me too much for words ..::that's why he hasn't told me yet::..   I wear my heart on my sleeve, but I am not naive. I know what it feels like to be completely broken and I am all too familiar with what it means to be hurt. "I know what it's like to see something funny and not laugh." I've been taken advantage of, used, and abused. My feelings have been blatantly disregarded. But I still believe that all people are good at heart ... and my trust in people has not diminished. To be completely honest, I hope it never does. Ever.   breaks you gotta fight like hell to make sure you¡¯re still alive, & the pain you feel, well that¡¯s life. the confussion & fear is there to remind you that somewhere out there is something better & that something is actually worth fighting for.   i wanted a perfect ending. now i've learned the hard way, that some poems don t rhyme, & some stories have no clear beginning, middle, or end. life is about not knowing, having to change, taking the moment & making the best of it without knowing what will happen next.   the day you care what people think is the day you stop being yourself   the saddest lies are the ones we tell ourselves   I wish everyone didn't have such high expectations of me.. because it's bad enough I let myself down.. I don't need to let everyone else down too <3   the past is annoying. its in everyone's conversations, in every song that you hear, its everywhere you go, but you never want to give it up because at one point .. it was exactly where you wanted to be.   so you wanna be perfect? -well let me tell you something about perfection. perfect people always  smile. perfect people dont step in dog doo. perfect people never have their cars brake down. perfect  people find a perfect husband or wife and live happily in perfection. they never get stains on their clothing. they have never done anything embarrassing. they have perfect grades and perfect friends and perfect jobs. they end up in perfect houses surrounded by perfect white picket fences. perfect people dont make mistakes. perfect people never learn from pain and cry. perfect people dont take the risks that are worth taking. perfect people never experience the feelings you have when you're in love, when you've been scraped, when you've been heartbroken. well, it sounds like the perfect life is the worst because perfect people never lived

DRAMA: It's funny how they say they hate it,
when they're the girls who always create it.     haha **coughs** cough** anyways no names i dropped drama!

Happy B-DAY TO ME!

Its my b-day today whoo-hoo so yall better tell me happy b-day lol... but im not celebrating it until april lol long story but im 16 today whoo-hoo so im in a good mood and i didnt even have to go to skool today haha now see dang im good but i gotta go to the doctors so it dont matter... dang im ready for friday and im bored right now my friend **COUGHS** amanda needs to get on... i so hope she dont go to skool lol thats not kool cuz i cant text her if she is while im at the doctors... especially if shes in morons class! Which anyways i figured i would tell yall all of this... haha but i cant get my licence until august **cries** but im gonna go get my motorcycle licences i well learners i just can't ride anyone on it until august again but i can pretty much go any where lol... thats kinda a bad idea me motorcycle a kinda girly girl... riding a motorcycle but its ok im gonna do it... which i rode the moped yesterday lol... i did pretty good except i have a habit of putting my feet down cuz when u lean to turn i think im gonna fall.... so idk but anyways wish me happy b-day yall know yall want to cuz you love me... = ) well anyways i love yall!

*~Heres some quotes~*

I'm not crazy... My reality is just different then yours!

So what if i`m a bitch?
You`re a whore. & personally..
I`d rather be known for what i do,
not WHO i do.  haha some ppl need to remember that one = )

two words boys hate.."dont" and "stop"..unless you put them together!  .... my favorite quote ever!

She blows big bubbles with her gum
And laughs when they pop all over her pretty face
She dances in her Victoria's Secret underwear
She takes crazy pictures and posts them on her myspace
And to her friends..she's a star
Because she realized that life is way too short
To be crying over the asshole that broke her heart!

goodbye drama;
hello i-don't-give-a-shit.

&& im the girl who will burst out
laughing in DEAD SiLENCE because
of something that happened the day
BEFORE...    cuz im just that crazy!

go ahead, keep
talking about me
your just » making me famous

I walk around the school hallways and look at the people. I look at the teachers and wonder why they're here. If they like their jobs. Or us. And I wonder how smart they were when they were fifteen. Not in a mean way. In a curious way. It's like looking at all the students and wondering who's had their heart broken that day, and how they are able to cope with having three quizzes and a book report due on top of that. Or wondering who did the heart breaking. And wondering why.

everyone tells her it's not her fault .. but she can't help but to
blame herself // she's just gone through so much in her
life, that everything that has went wrong has always
somehow seemed to be her fault ..

I don’t ignore you. I just don’t give a shit.
im not a bitch. im just honest.
im not mean. I just have jokes.
..im not insecure. I just don’t trust people..

It gets hard to trust anyone when everyone you ever opened your heart to has let you down.. </3

refuse to cry anymore about
the fact that this didnt work
because I have come to realize
your just another jerk ! whats the point in crying theres not one... guys are all lame ass jerks who need a fuckin life!

people always say best friends will
trade the icky orange popcicle for
the yummy pink one, but thats not
true, because my best friends say
"fuck you, just eat the damn thing" haha this is so funny and exactly what my best friends do.... lol!

go ahead talk about me
but when your done click
your heels twice and say...