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Monday, September 05, 2005

Mon, 05 Sep 2005 04:03:49 GMT

well my other xanga is still locked down... grr that pisses me off.. so fucken bad.... *sigh*

work sucked really fucken bad... i have worked doubles for the past two dayz. i have closed for the past 4 dayz.. and i open tommrow.. wow great times.. uhhh.. but my schedule for this week

monday 10-4
tuesday off
wendsday 5-close
thursday 5-close
friday 5-9 ( i was suppost to be off but hell no... that never works out now does it)
saturday 6-close
sunday 6-close

hmm now you see my week.. now you can see how my attitudes gonna be all week.. so if you dont want to be bitched at dont piss me off.... sorry for being a bitch right now but at least im warning you.. maybe....

Sunday, September 04, 2005

Sun, 04 Sep 2005 04:24:38 GMT

ok so my other account is froze because i changed all my passwords.. so it will be locked up.. grr they piss me off.. ohhhh well... i got my cell phone today...... finally... umm now im going to bed because i have to work another double tommrow...

Saturday, August 20, 2005

Sat, 20 Aug 2005 07:12:10 GMT

"Let Me Go"

One more kiss could be the best thing
But one more lie could be the worst
And all these thoughts are never resting
And you're not something I deserve

In my head there's only you now
This world falls on me
In this world there's real and make believe
And this seems real to me

[Chorus]
You love me but you don't know who I am
I'm torn between this life I lead and where I stand
And you love me but you don't know who I am
So let me go
Let me go

I dream ahead to what I hope for
And I turn my back on loving you
How can this love be a good thing
When I know what I'm goin through

In my head there's only you now
This world falls on me
In this world there's real and make believe
And this seems real to me

[Chorus]
You love me but you don't know who I am
I'm torn between this life I lead and where I stand
You love me but you don't know who I am
So let me go
Just Let me goo...
Let me go

And no matter how hard I try
I can't escape these things inside I know
I knowww..
When all the pieces fall apart
You will be the only one who knows
Who knows

[Chorus]
You love me but you don't know who I am
I'm torn between this life I lead and where I stand
And you love me but you don't know Who I am
So let me go
Just let me go

And you love me but you don't
You love me but you don't
You love me but you don't know who I am
And you love me but you don't
You love me but you don't
You love me but you don't know me

Tuesday, August 09, 2005

Tue, 09 Aug 2005 05:51:40 GMT

wow ok so its been a while but umm to let everyone know i am going to southeast this year.. i think i got to my mom when i said why are you going to pull me out my senior year.

but i am determined to have a drama free year.. unlike last year.. but nothin else going on.

Wednesday, August 03, 2005

Wed, 03 Aug 2005 12:54:29 GMT

i feel like shit.. idk anymore..

umm have the day off. yay...

im so tired i was up all night because i couldnt stop coughing.. and sneezing.

god since caity has gotten home things have been so freaken different... its like i have to walk on egg shells around then because you never know when they are gonna get mad at you.. idk...

my fucken dad has blocked me from my yahoo.. damn it.. i hate this... see what i mean. things have changed..

im sorry i will be going to east or andover next year.

Tuesday, August 02, 2005

Tue, 02 Aug 2005 04:03:27 GMT

There's only so much heart in a girl
that you can break `' until she walks
away for good. <

I just noticed something.. ive been a faliure all my life..since the day i was born. lol what a suprise!!!!!

god how did things get so hard so damn fast.. its to the point where nothin is working anymore..idk.. its scary.. for once.. im really on my own.

i feel like shit... im sick.. and everything else in this world.. grr

Monday, August 01, 2005

Mon, 01 Aug 2005 06:34:41 GMT

i was up all night trying to figure out why i was so mad yesterday. and i dont have a reason.. i dont have a reason for what i did yesterday.. god i had so many thing running through my mind.. but you know one thing i didnt do was lie.. there is a thing called misunderstandings. but whatever you aint gonna believe me. its all my fault i take full blame. and im sorry.. god trust me if i knew why i was so mad yesterday then none of this would of happen.. i was mad at people that had done nothing to me.. but i cant change yesterday. but all i have to say is i can changed today. TODAY im still mad. and i still dont know why. i just wish i could change this past year. and make everything better. but there is no doing that for anyone, because everytime i try to make it better i make it worse.. so i guess i am done with it all.. lets just say im a faliure.

IM SORRY TO ALL THAT I HURT YESTERDAY AND ALL LAST YEAR.. I CANT CHANGE IT.

GOODBYE

you know ive thought and ive thought about it all day.. and im done.. with everybody... goodbye to all

im sorry im such a failure..

Sunday, July 31, 2005

Sun, 31 Jul 2005 21:21:18 GMT

WE WILL BE FOUND AGAIN!!! I PROMISE..

NEVER LAND CANT BE TOO FAR OFF... IT JUST RIGHT AROUND CORNER I PROMISE THAT

YOU THAT PLACE BETWEEN AWAKE AND ASLEEP? THAT PLACE YOU REMEMBER DREAMING. THAT IS WHERE I WILL ALWAYS THINK OF YOU..

ALL YOU HAVE TO DO IS BELIEVE...

I LOVE YOU TINK

grhams was no fun...

IM SORRY everyone for how i acted tonight. none of you should of had to seen that.. i just dont know what to do anymore...

my work schedule for next week
monday:6-close
tuesday5-close
wensday-off
thursday-6-close
friday-6-close
saturday-6-close
sunday-off

Sunday, July 31, 2005

Sun, 31 Jul 2005 19:11:18 GMT

"Here By Me"

I hope you’re doing fine out there without me
‘Cause I’m not doing so good without you
The things I thought you’d never know about me
Were the things I guess you always understood

So how could I have been so blind for all these years?
Guess I only see the truth through all this fear,
And living without you…

And everything I had in this world
And all that I’ll ever be
It could all fall down around me.
Just as long as I have you,
Right here by me.

I can’t take another day without you
‘Cause baby, I could never make it on my own
I’ve been waiting so long, just to hold you
And be back in your arms where I belong

Sorry I can’t always find the words to say
But everything I’ve ever know gets swept away
Inside of your love…

And everything I had in this world
And all that I’ll ever be
It could all fall down around me.
Just as long as I have you,
Right here by me.

As the days grow long I see
That time is standing still for me
When you’re not here

Sorry I can’t always find the words to say
Everything I’ve ever known gets swept away
Inside of your love

And everything I had in this world
And all that I’ll ever be
It could all fall down around me.
Just as long as I have you,
Right here by me.

And everything I had in this world
And all that I’ll ever be
It could all fall down around me.
Just as long as I have you,
Right here by me.

Saturday, July 30, 2005

Sat, 30 Jul 2005 19:53:25 GMT

:[Never let someone else
bring you down When you are at the top ]:
>>>you<<< should be the center of >>>>your<<<< world

i feel like complete shit right now..