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I just made myself lunch for work tomorrow... er today.  The main course is peanut butter & jelly which is probably says something about my level of maturity.  But I don't care, it's delicious and easy to make and neither peanut butter nor jelly will go bad ever as far as I'm concerned... so the ingredients are there for me on the rare occasion that I actually make myself something.  It's not that I'm lazy, but more that I'm just unorganized, forgetful, and free time is sparse.  That's why I stay up until 5 in morning!

5 in the morning may lend itself to being random and incomprehensible, but I always feel better after staying up this late.  I never know how frank to be in these things... looking for that middle ground between emo and superficial.

Emo:
I can't be that emo since 1) I have a pretty good life and 2) most things I would want to be emo about I couldn't write on this anyway... actually eff it, I want to write this. 
So I'm stressed out about the future of my career.  My dream job for as long as I can remember has been to do computer graphics, specifically special effects for movies.  However, in order to ensure that I could get a well-paying job if my creative skills fell through, I majored in computer science instead of a more artsy degree.  No regrets there, but now the burden of proof is on me to show any potential employer that I have artistic skills.  Meanwhile, my current job is a good job, but marginally artistic at best.  I could probably do this for the rest of my life and be happy, but it feels like I am settling for something lesser.  The thing is though, I can't do this job for the rest of my life anyway because I am moving away.  No one at work knows this.  I can't tell them yet because I need this job for the next few months and they might fire me right away if I tell them I'm leaving.  At the same time I don't want to screw them over and I feel like a jerk for hiding this from them.  This also makes for some awkward conversations on the topic of "where's cristin going for grad school?"  Real answer: "OREGON!  I'm going with her!"  Answer I give: "She doesn't know, KU probably."  Blah... 
Anyway so our destination is Oregon, we passed on going to berkeley, CA even though cristin got into school there.  This may have been an epic mistake.  Just about every single one of my dream jobs can be found in the San Francisco-Berkeley area, versus Oregon which has no entry-level graphics postions from what I can tell so far.  Now sure, I can get some kind of job out there but every year that I am out of college and not getting any graphics experience is a year that my value to graphics companies drops.  Spuh.  It might all turn out ok, in fact I may eventually find that I hate special effects stuff and I find something I like better in Oregon.  Or maybe I can take classes out in Oregon to build up needed experience.  I don't know, I'm out of gas on this topic.  This concludes the emo section.

Superficial:
So after a recent stop at the parents' house I noticed that on their calendar they had written "Mark's Bday" on march 24, 3 days after Mark's actual Bday.  This has the potential to be awesomely funny, I'm just hoping they have really forgotten my birthday and not just mistakenly written it on the wrong day.  Grammar be damned it's 6am.  I'll keep you posted on this one.
I'm trying a new approach for my March Madness brackets this year.  I loaded every song on my computer into one Winamp playlist and I'm playing them all on random.  Then, for each match-up, I press next song and choose the team whose name is closest alphabetically to the title of the random song that just came up.  I feel like I'm awesome for thinking of this.

That's all I've got, time to decide whether I should sleep for one hour or just start getting ready for work now.  I choose sleep.