i just feel like i'm going to be that girl who is doomed to end up alone forever. i joke about being the crazy old cat lady who has all of those pets just so she's not COMPLETELY lonely.. but what if that isn't a joke? should i just accept that right now? haha. i mean, i know i'm only 19 (20 next month, woohoo).. but i look at everyone else who changes boyfriends/girlfriends like they change their underwear. then i look at me. i don't do that. i've had ONE real boyfriend who never even cared about me. and it's true. it's a known fact. i made him my life and half the time he didn't even remember who i was. 2 years and he only held my hand ONCE. i remember where it was. he just wasn't a boyfriend. i don't even want to count him anymore. everyone else was one of those one month flings, which meant i saw them a total of maybe 5 times in that whole month. yet it sucks because it tears me down everytime one of them "changes their mind" and breaks up with me. i'm so happy when i can find someone to be with! is that weird? i want to give them everything. i can't wait to do that. i'm the storybook girlfriend. like the ones you see in movies. yet i'm going to be the one to end up alone. and all of the good guys out there are too.. because instead of giving a girl like me a chance, the one with the good personality yet lacking in looks... they go for the gorgeous girl who doesn't treat them that great.. but it's okay cause they're HOT! wooohooo.

i'm stupid for even wanting those guys. but i haven't met a guy yet who isn't like that. so my hopes are pretty much down the drain as of now.

by the way. i didn't write this to make anyone feel bad.. haha. i'm not a jerk like that. i mean, yeah. it's just something i've noticed over the years and it's starting to get to me. i'm sorry i'm not super pretty. i can't change it. i'm trying, but it's hard.

i cant compete with those other girls.

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<br/><br/><b>If you get caught between the moon and New York City,<br/>
the best that you can do is fall in love.</b><br/><br/>

Hi :) My name is April. I have a weird sense of humor, I like to think that most people enjoy it though. I'm very easy to get along with. I like pretty much everyone.. if I dislike you then you must have done something pretty awful to get that sort of response from me. I think that a good personality automatically makes a person attractive. I love romance! I'm a nerd about those things. I'm probably one of the few girls around who would appreciate a man outside my window with a boombox rather than just being embarassed or something. I like ghost hunting (even though I'm deathly afraid of the dark). I like to spend time at the following places: the knob, the indian tower, Nevada's house, Meagan's house, the beach, New York City, and probably more places that i'm too lazy to think of right now (lol). If you want to accompany me to any of the places listed above, let me know :D. I'm an animal lover, big time. I'm easy to please, I don't need to have something exciting planned to have fun. I'm okay with just hanging out. I've had an obsession with mermaids since I was a little girl. I think that they exist in the Bermuda Triangle.. lol.<br/><br/>

My biggest pet peeve: When someone doesn't think I'm attractive, or their "type", so it automatically means that they won't be my friend. What the hell! I don't want to date you! It takes a while for me to feel that way about someone. Get a life! Don't disappear just because you don't want me as a girlfriend, losers. lol.

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<b><u>Repeat this to yourself one-thousand times:</u></b><br/>
Screwed-up people are not more interesting than people with their heads together. Baggage is not fascinating, romantic, or exciting. It is very, very tiring. Men who are polite and emotionally mature are hot. Learn it, love it, live by it.<br/><br/>

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- Cuddlers. Big time.<br/>
- Animal lovers!<br/>
- Hopeless romantics.. John Cusack style. :)<br/>
- Someone without a creepy fixation on one of their ex-girlfriends.<br/>
- Happiness. Someone friendly, who laughs easily and enjoys life.<br/>
- Somebody to play Pictionary with, lol.<br/>
- Grey's Anatomy lovers.<br/>
- Someone to ice skate with. :) <br/>
- Someone who is straight forward. I'm different than most girls. I hate the chase. If I like someone, I like someone. It doesn't happen easily. So when it does, I want to know where I stand!<br/><br/><br/>

<b>If I had to pick the perfect man..<br/>
he'd be a mix between John Cusack and Steve Carell.</b><br/>
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FOR OLD TIMES SAKE.......

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