yourfavealison's Xanga

all over you

Sun, 09 Mar 2008 03:20:46 GMT

Alright so I got my laptop back... FINALLY! It runs amazing. except the battery doesn't stay charged for more than 45 at the most and I guess something is wrong with my CD burner as well. but at least i have it back and I can listen to my music once again.

Yesterday I had an interview at Nordstrom's. Hopefully i get this job. It would be SOOOO amazing to work there. Especially in cosmetics and fragrance. How sweet would that be? I should know in about a week.

not too much else is going on. kelly and i went to Tiki bobs last night which was fun. ummm
yeah

short entry today

7 months from today i am 21!!!

peace&love
yourfavealison

Favorite songs of the past month (or so)

Sat, 01 Mar 2008 04:52:19 GMT

-Sexy Can I by Ray J feat. Yung Berg
-She Got it by 2 Pistols
- Dey Know by Shawty Lo
- The Ordinary Life by Four Letter Lie
- Umma Do Me by Rocko
- Killa by Cherish
- Independent by Webbie
- Falsetto by The Dream
- Nine in the Afternoon by Panic! at the Disco
- I'll Keep Your Memory Vague by Finger Eleven
- Hypnotized by Plies feat. Akon
- Superstar by Lupe Fiasco
- Please Don't Stop the Music by Rihanna
- Who the Fuck is That? by Dolla
- Yahh! by Soulja Boy
- International Players Anthem (I Choose You) by UGK

I-N-D-E-P-E-N-D-E-N-T?

Thu, 14 Feb 2008 02:48:54 GMT

So this is me and Kelly (i'm the one in the white). We went out last friday to Tiki Bobs for Ashley's 21st birthday. We had SO much fun. Drank a bottle of Boonesfarm on the way there. which made me feel prettty good. Dance our pretty little butts off until about 1:45AM. The bartender was amazing. His name was "Jamal". The teased us, through ice and napkins at Kel. When we were leaving he asked for her phone number which she gave to him. Even though at the time she had a boyfriend (who hadn't called her in two days, jerk.) As we were leaving the club we hear loud pops, and we see people running from the parking lot which is across the street. There are also about 5 cop cars. We then realize that what we heard was gun shots. so we are standing there FREEZING, scared to go to the car because it is parked in the same lot as the gun shots were coming from. so we stand there and wait. we then see the cops running back to their cars and taking off. Then we run to the car. and lock the doors and head for home. I get home around 3:15AM and have to work at 9:30AM.

saturday night was chill. Litterally. it was freezing. so i pretty much just stayed home and kept warm.

Sunday afternoon I give Sara a call and we bare the arctic winds and go to the mall, get lunch and just walk around. Then I drop her off and head home.

Monday, I worked all day. My dad took my Laptop to work with him, so he could try and figure out what was wrong with it. I thought it was the power cord or the battery. He called Dell and it turns out i need a whole new Motherboard. Which luckly is covered on my warranty. After work I came home got ready to go out with kelly. She comes to pick me up and we stop by the store, get booze and smokes ( :-] ). Then head to Pontiac to The I-Lounge. Drinking on the way there(oops). "Jamal" invited us( who also lied about his name at Tiki Bob's friday. Who is also the General Manager at Clutch Cargos/I-lounge). His real name is John. We stop for BK on the way there and a pit stop at Sleven (7-11) so i could pee. When we get there, the place isnt packed but there is a good amount of people there. There was a bartending contest that night which turned out to be a lot of fun to watch ( I want to be a Bartender now). Hung out there, watched people (particularly this really cute guy with a mohawk), sang danced til about 2AM. then we left and kelly brought me home. Luckly I didnt have to work the next day and got to sleep in.

Yesterday, Tuesday, Mom and i got into a fight and I left. She called me and told me that i needed to find somewhere to stay that night. I left for like an hour, drove around despite the 6 inches of snow that was on the ground, despite the fact that my car SUCKS. Then i came home walked in the door and just went in my room with out saying one word. She didn't say anything either. As soon as i get my car fixed and save up some money Kelly and I are getting an apartment. Hopefully before June.
My mom said that we all make her miserable. Sorry if I'm not the perfect daughter that she wants me to be. sorry that I'm not afraid of her anymore. sorry that i finally got the nerve to stand up to people. if she's so damn miserable here why doesnt she just leave us. I doubt she would miss me. or anyone because shes so damn miserable. fuck her.

Your eyes are the size of the moon

Tue, 05 Feb 2008 04:38:44 GMT

    Giants won the superbowl yesterday. Which completely took me by surprise. I was rooting for the Patriots but the Giants came back in the last couple minutes with the winning touchdown. Congrats to them :) I'm not much for football the only sports i actually enjoy watching are Baseball (Tigers) and Basketball (Pistons). There are only about 3 games i watch during the football season. Michigan/Michigan state (when i can), Superbowl and usually like one regular game. I find it quite boring but lately i have been getting more into it.

    On other news, today I bought 2 one dollar scratch offs and won 14 bucks total. Hell yesss. It put me in a pretty good mood. Tomorrow is my day off which i need to go pay my car insurance before they cancel me. EEK! I also need to get my car fixed asap. I'm so scared to drive it anymore. I'm afraid one of these days my tire is going to fall off completely. and i honestly do not want that to happen because it will end up making me pay more.

    Tonight reminded me of Silent Hill. I went to target and it was a little rainy out not too foggy. About an hour later when i leave i cant even seen my car from the front door of Target. the lady that was parked next to me was like "I was in there for too long. This is sort of scary". Which it was very creepy. driving home was even worse. Especially when you cant see the next light which isnt even that far from the one that you are currently stopped at. and then there are the points in the road where there arent any traffic lights at all and you can't tell if there is even a car, let alone a road in front of you. it honestly looked like the road just stopped. soooo creepy.

    I also finished Burned the other night. The ending was way sad. I hate books like that, but there is no such thing as happy endings. I think i might get Impluse tomorrow when Ashley and I go to the mall. I also need a new purse, all of mine are getting boring, i need some "spice" in the acessories department lol.

anyways that is all.

peace&love
yourfavealison

I'll keep your memory vague

Fri, 01 Feb 2008 01:16:12 GMT

I finished Crank Saturday night like i said I was going to. Amazing book. Ellen Hopkins is an absolutly amazing author, like I have said a million times. I went to Border's to try to find the sequal but no luck so i settled on Burned. So far it is a pretty good book. A mormon girl named Pattyn does some things that Mormon people do not do. She gets set to her Aunts house in Nevada, falls in love with a boy who is not Mormon. It really makes you think about who you are. I'm not finished yet. Hopefully if we end up haveing a snow day tomorrow I might finish it. Next on my list is Impulse.
Anyone else have any recommendations?

short entry today, not much else to say.

Peace&love
yourfavealison

this ordinary life...

Sun, 27 Jan 2008 03:02:08 GMT

Alright so, the other day i had this longggggg, amazing blog all written out, then my browser closed and it was all gone. I was furious.

Anyways, I am just about finished with Crank. Hopefully I will finish it tonight. I havent really been able to sit down and just read for the past couple of days which sucks. Next week I'm going to start a new book. Most likely by Ellen Hopkins because she is an absolutly amazing author. Like none I have ever read before. Honestly. Her work makes me think. Honest to goodness makes me stop and think about things. She has such a way with her writing, I'm pretty sure its the form in which it is wrote. Poem that is. I think I may read Burned or Glass next not sure. But for those of you who read this (if any) definatly check her out, or if you have read any of her work let me know what you thought about it. If you think she is as amazing as I do.

Today at work Andrea (my supervisor and my good friend) asked me to come in at 9:30am Monday instead of 11am. UGH. What could I say though? No? For some reason I have the hardest time saying no to people. Some people it comes easy. Like Justin (my ex-booty call lol). I can say no to him really easy but other people like andrea for instance I can't. It makes me feel like if I say no to them that they won't like me anymore which is not the case at all I know that for sure, but it's just my low self esteem calling out. It makes me feel bad about myself. I am however a lotttt better about it that i used to be. I still let people walk all over me in stilletos but the stilletos don't hurt as much as they used to.

And then there is another wierd thing about me. I have no courage at all. If life were the Wizard of Oz I would be the Lion. Valentines day is coming up soon. I want to do something cute for Jeff, to let him know that I like him and would like to be more than friends. I'm sick of seeing everyone else in these happy relationships and I am miserable. Absolutly MISERABLE. I wish I could get creative, its been so long I'm not sure if I can be creative anymore. Not only that though, I'm scared that he is going to think its weird and think that I am a creep or something. I guess I'm not only scared of butterflies and insects and the dark, I'm also scared of rejection. Most likely because it has happened one to many times and I honestly don't know how many more times my heart and mind can take being rejected. It hurts way too much.

Then again maybe I'm thinking about this too much. Maybe he won't take it as weird. If only I could predict the future or read peoples minds (that would be amazinggg).

Enough with that crap.Something good actually happened to me today.

Starbucks was out of soy so the guy gave me my Venti Mocha (no whip) for free, but I tipped him 2 bucks because he is pretty much amazing. heh.

til next time

peace&love,

yourfavealison

Good Die Young

Wed, 23 Jan 2008 02:38:20 GMT

The actor Heath Ledger was found dead Tuesday afternoon in an apartment in Manhattan, according to the New York City police. Signs pointed to a suicide or an accidental overdose, police sources said. Mr. Ledger was 28. [Now online: Comprehensive coverage from Wednesday editions.]

At 3:31 p.m., according to the police, a masseuse arrived at the fourth-floor apartment of the building, at 421 Broome Street, between Crosby and Lafayette Streets in SoHo, for an appointment with Mr. Ledger. The masseuse was let in to the home by a housekeeper, who then knocked on the door of the bedroom Mr. Ledger was in. When no one answered, the housekeeper and the masseuse opened the bedroom and found Mr. Ledger naked and unconscious on a bed, with sleeping pills — both prescription medication and nonprescription — on a night table. They attempted to revive him, but he did not respond. They immediately called the authorities.

The police said they did not suspect a crime. Ellen Borakove, a spokeswoman for the office of the city’s chief medical examiner, Dr. Charles S. Hirsch, said that employees of the office were at the apartment and that an autopsy would be conducted on Wednesday. Around 6:30 p.m., city workers rolled Mr. Ledger’s body, in a black body bag on a stretcher, out of the building.

-found at NY Times.com-

It's so sad. I mean he was probably one of my favorite actors, not to mention completely gorgeous. He had a 2 year old daughter too. So completely unfortunate.

In other news, today I bought a book of White Magic Spells, just out of curiosity. We will see how that goes. I also bought the book Crank by Ellen Hopkins. So far so good. I really need to start reading again. I feel like I have lost a lot of my vocabulary because of my lack of reading.

Peace&love

yourfavealison

11.January.2008

Fri, 11 Jan 2008 04:14:37 GMT

Hola,

I work way tooo much at a job I hate. I don't understand what makes my boss' think that they can treat us like we are fucking animals. I really do not like my job. The only thing that is keeping me there is the people. they are amazing for the most part.

I've been think a lot lately about school. As much as I would LOVE to do something in music. There aren't a lot of schools here, that I can afford anyway. So I am pretty sure I have found something that will make me happy. Teaching. My mom said that I should major in special education, aparently their are a lot of special people out there. I really want to teach History though.I have a couple months to decide before I register. Whats better than teaching... honestly. you get summers off!!!! haha.

Well, I said I was going to try to keep this interesting so here's a picture of a book I saw at a store the other day.

I'm pretty sure it made me LOL a bit.

anyways
Peace&love
yourfavealison.

09.January.2008

Wed, 09 Jan 2008 04:01:24 GMT

Alright.
So I'm going to try to keep this breif.
This Blog is for my to write my thoughts, share interesting photos, and hopefully help me decide what i need to do with my life.

Every month on the first(or second depending) I'm going to set a goal (or two) for myself.
And by the end of the month i will hopfully have successfully complete that goal.

I'm hoping that this blog will help me get my life back in order.
I'm also going to try to get my creativity flowing again. its been too long.
So I'll try to keep things interesting.

peace&love
yourfavealison