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Wednesday, May 28, 2008
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By Death Cab for Cutie
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How can I tell how much I really changed?
I feel like a completely different person... but I don't really know how much that shows or how much other people think that I've changed.
The reason I'm jotting this down is because I'm going back to camp soon. I love camp, and now I get to work there. The problem is that the people are a different kind of friend than most. I'm scared that they won't like me anymore, that the person I have changed into is too unlike the person they've been remembering and when I get there I'll be miserable and alone.
Have I changed alot? and if I have, was it for the better?
Friday, February 08, 2008
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Songs For Silverman
By Ben Folds
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Why do I like him so much?
I honestly barely know him... if I can even say that I know him at all...
He's just so cute and funny and every so endearingly intelligent and I just can't get over him. He's here so close and when his eyes look at me I can't help but think they're seeing more than just a shy little girl. I feel like I can trust him with my secrets even though we've never shared a private conversation. He's one of those people that even if you're 300 miles away, somehow, you just find yourself thinking about him and wondering what he's doing at that very moment. I keep imagining his kiss and his touch and how it would be to be with him, to know him completely and I get a warm tingle down my spine. He's not hot or stunning and I don't just want to jump him in his bed at night. He's the kind of guy that if I couldn't be with him, I'd have to make sure that he was at least happy with someone else. I miss him already and he's only in the next room.
but the worst part is not my unrequited love, it's that my sister seems to like he too. In what ever twisted way she finds him attractive, she just tortures him. She just talks about all these other guys she wants to date or who think she's hot or who she thinks is hot. I grimace every she touches his leg.
What am I supposed to do?
Is it really sibs before dibs?
Monday, February 04, 2008
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The Coven (Sweep 2)
By Cate Tiernan
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So.... I've got a new house...I've got some new friends (and some old ones are back again)....I've got new interests and all kinds of new shit to talk about so .... I decided to get a new xanga to go along with all that...
Facebook is fine but it isn't a blog... sure you can write stuff on it's now full all this new crap now and it's just getting on my nerves a bit.
I think back to the first time I ever heard about xanga.... Eli and I were sitting at my mom's computer as we picked out what to put on my profile.
Things seem a lot more complicated now than anything back then .... but I think that rather a matter of perspective cause things certainly felt crazy and fresh then in the moment even if it all seems retarded now.
I hope that I can just move on and find another happy place like the one I fucked up way back at the end of freshman year.
Project #1: work up enough courage to audition for a show that I like (even though I don't like the people involved with it)
Does anyone think I could actually make it in?
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- Name: Ella
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- Member Since: 2/4/2008
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I like different things at different times and people don't seem to like it all that much.
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