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made a new xanga .. this one was too depressive .. too many bad memories .. i'm a brand new person .. happier && wiser .. i hope my well over 100 subscribers follow me .. i love you guys! <33

cheers to the girls - screw the guys
we're sick of their shit and stupid fuckin lies
we dont need them - no not us
good for a scam..but never to trust
so here's what to do - together we stand
we'll party it up with shots in each hand
alone in our beds of course it might end..
but we dont get dumped and we still have
our friends

haha greattt quote .. screw guys , i don't need 'em .. well .. maybe for one reason i do  i just made myself sound like a slut .. OH WELL!

edit ;; just got homeee. went to dave && buster's w/ karen, daddie && sean .. it's this place that you like get this card && you put money on it && you play a whole bunch of arcade games .. holy hell!! soooo much fun!! then we roamed around the mall .. karen && i went into coach && omfg she bought me these adorable pair of pink sandals!! fuckin' expensive though, lemme tell ya .. i love this woman to death , THEY'RE SOOOO CUTE!!! thenn we just dropped her off && came home. tonight we're prly goin' to ledo's for dinner then waitin' for my grandparents to get home. karen && i made plans for next weekend already!! yay!! hopefully courtney will get to join in on the fun .. we're gettin' our nails done .. then goin' to this fondue restaurant .. then prly going strawberry picking so we can make jam!! omigosh, it's gonna be soo much fun! courtney hopefully you can come along .. lol she like, called me to come to the park w/ her today but then forgot i was w/ my daddie lol silly girl .. she's with sammi though so idk why she'd want me there .. but yeah .. pretty great day, hope you guys had as much fun as i did!!

ps ;; i'm like .. sooo tan! i looked hotttt today haha

when someone tells you that you're not good enough ;; that's when you know that you're better .. <3

gettin' crunk bitches .. hahahhah awesome times w/ the best ..

yeah .. um. i'll be back .. i'm sooooo dizzy <333333

What up!!!!

((that's from Courtney ))

edit ;; hahahha good times w/ courtney .. gotta love her <3 yeahh so now i'm @ my dad's .. my grandparents are here .. haven't seen them since 2001 .. wow , long time. for once i guess i don't have anything to say .. me && courtney went tanning today .. ew we had to do stand up .. not fun .. it was SO hottt .. hahah i love poppy .. he always mutes the commericals .. funny stuff. awh, i missed them. it's sad though cause my poppy has cancer they have like all these pictures of me .. my goshhhh .. haha anyways .. i guess i'm out .. have a good night you guys <3

 Now I was sitting waiting wishing
That you believed in superstitions
Then maybe you'd see the signs
But Lord knows that this world is cruel
And I ain't the Lord, no I'm just a fool
Learning loving somebody don't make them love you
 

goood lyrics. man can i relate .. today was okay. Mrs. Stahl made us birthday cake this morning in foods! very good! the school yr is seriously winding down .. we're cleaning out our lockers tomorrow && tuesday. holy freakin' cow .. i can't believe it!! english i got to sleep again cause we finished up the movie .. good nap heh <3 nothing else really went on the rest of the day ..

courtney is prly coming home on the bus with me tomorrow so she can come tanning w/ us && then hang out @ my house for a little!! haha we wish i could go over right now but ohh well! then i gotta go to my daddie's this weekend .. my aunt elva passed away on sunday && my grandparents are up && stuff .. soo yeah.

i was so tired this morning .. was on the phone til like 130am or something .. don't really remember much cause i was EXHAUSTED! ohh well .. uh yeah i guess i'm done here .. heres one of my fave quotes from the oth finale .. another one goes with it but i don't have that @ the moment ..

this is the quote nathan is talking about in the quote below this one .. "there are two tragedies in life .. one is to lose your hearts desire .. && the other is to gain it .. " -shaw

"as far as i'm concerned ; shaw was a punk. what are you gonna do? give up? quit? no. i realize that when your heart breaks you have to fight like hell to stay alive because you are && that pain you feel .. that's life. the confusion && tears ; that's there to remind you that somewhere out there is something better && that something better is worth fighting for .."        -nathan , oth.

<3Ciara

she says she wants to die.
but in reality
she just wants to be saved *

last night .. one tree hill .. was .. fucking .. AMAZING omfg .. so much stuff happened .. it made me cry && laugh && scream all @ the same time .. i fuckin' love oth <3333

today was okay. nothing really went on .. me && alex rocked in foods class alone  .. best wasn't there til like the end of 2nd period. we made breakfast ring && orange julius .. yumm . i saw josh before 8th .. i think he just came in for a few minutes? i haven't seen that kid in a long time .. so i guess it was good to see him. jess hawk rode the bus home cause she was goin' home with tyler! nice girl .. i hope she really likes me instead of faking it to my face .. i'm not sure though .. i hate when i don't know if the people actually wanna be my friend or not .. you can't trust anybody these days .. oh well. schools almost over .. 9 days left .. i can't believe it's almost over. thank god though .. i don't need this drama shit anymore ..

borrowed a paperclip from miss g. didn't use it for the real reason .. used it for another .. i needed to get my mind off of some stuff ..

gym was AWESOME today .. freakin' hilarious .. w/ bailee , sarah t , && jazz  .. our *grunting* team .. hahah laughed so hard .. really made my day. i don't know why i gotta feel this way though .. it's out of my hands .. i had a great day until the depression sank in .. && i still feel it. just go away please ..  maybe if my mom would actually fuckin' care to get me help .. i wouldn't feel this way anymore!!!!!!

tonight ; typing up my bio report ; tanning ; something on tv ? lataa guys.

<3Ciara

edit ;; ended up having a fantastic night!! my best friend met us @ cocoatan && we went tanning .. then she came home with us!!! && we ate && rapped to 50 cent && scotty doesn't know && made monkey bread && took pictures on our cell phones! then we took a walk .. then her momma came to pick her up. my mom ( and me! ) wanted her to spend the night but her padre said no .. haha oh well! i'm soooo happy she got to come over!! i love that girl to pieces .. 'we ride together .. we die together .. bad girls for life' <3

Empty spaces fill me up with holes
Distant faces with no place left to go
Without you within me I can’t find no rest
Where I’m going is anybody’s guess

I’ve tried to go on like I never knew you
I’m awake but my world is half asleep
I pray for this heart to be unbroken
But without you all I’m going to be is incomplete

Voices tell me I should carry on
But I am swimming in an ocean all alone
Baby, my baby
It’s written on your face
You still wonder if we made a big mistake

I’ve tried to go on like I never knew you
I’m awake but my world is half asleep
I pray for this heart to be unbroken
But without you all I’m going to be is incomplete

I don’t mean to drag it on, but I can’t seem to let you go
I don’t wanna make you face this world alone
I wanna let you go (alone)

I’ve tried to go on like I never knew you
I’m awake but my world is half asleep
I pray for this heart to be unbroken
But without you all I’m going to be is incomplete

~ backstreet boys