Yay Me and Autumn are dating again! haha well .. not again but I said it cuz my other entry said somethng like that lol.
but things are going to well right now. I mean her mom found a note that she wrote to be. so her mom knows about her dating.. i'm nto sure if shes to mad about that or about the fact that it mentions drugs in it.. I dunno. I'm confuzed... but I cant see her as much as I could before now.. it makes me sad.

this guy from AFI looks like a gurl.. sorry i'm watching TRL

peace out

yay

yay!! Autumn and I are good again! Wooh!!

I love her!!

Ok

OK well me and Autumn apparently arent friends anymore. I told her that I didnt want her caring about me smoking pot but I wanted her to still care about me. She wrote back saying "well I dont care about either right now". Today at school, she didnt talk to me or look at me... I was in an okay mood tho. I guess it hasnt hit me yet. I dunno. I'm trying to make her feel guilty. Making her see that it doesnt bother me. Yet everytime I look at my wrist I think of her. Yeah yeah. I know.. sorry.. but w/e ...

Yeah well life sucks here! wooh I love it

Ready to die

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KICK ASS PARTY!!

woot. okay last night was caitlyns bday party. it was kick ass. Thru out the day when we were outside of her room we all just chilled and watched movies [[we=Caitlyn, Autumn, Kayla, Me, Alyssa--ex]] then later on we ewnt to play truth or dare. now just think a whole bunch of single BISEXUAL gurls, playing truth or dare!! =O! lol so we like all made out iwth each other the whole night, we did other stuff too. like kiss stomachs and necks and boobs. Then Autumn [[kinky little shit she is]] thought it was cool for somebody to choke her while making out. so natrually I tried it first. I was holding her neck and we were making out and she pushes harder on my hand. that shit is fucking hott! lemme tell you. I tried it and I dont like it as much when I'm dong it to them. I didnt make out with Alyssa at all cuz thats gross lol. or weird.. but I kissed her chest and stuff cuz it was a dare. but it was the hottest party ever. AND THEN **breathes**
then caitlyn breaks out the weed. I was fucking so happy. but autumn [[being the buzzkill that she is]] flips shit at me saying she hasnt forgave me for the ryan thing and that I cant smoke. But I was like fuck that so I smoked and she got pisesed the FUCKKKK off and she called her mom and she got picked up [[this was at like 3 in themorning]] So I was blazed the whole night. And like at 6 45 my neighbor was coming to pick me up for work. YEAH!! WTF?! lol So i just stayed up all night thinking it would be best just not to fall asleep. We all slept 4 to Caitlyns bed. that sucks lol. I didnt fall asleep at all really. Caitlyn moves alot in her sleep. oh but okay Kayla-- she likes me. So she was all excited to be making out iwth me. but its all good. Caitlyn and Autumn have their tongues pierced. Holly hottness!!! I made out with cAITLYN alot. shes goooood!! then later Autumn and I got dared to do stuff. she got dared to do what ever she wants with me. so she like [[uhh cant remember.. did something totally hott tho]] .  And then she sugessted the choking thing. Shes like "I find it so hott when people are choking you when you make out" all 4 of us were like HUH!? So caitlyn tries it on autumn first but doens tknow how. So i'm like I'll try. SO i do and its SOOOO NIIICE. she was like groping me and shit. then I did it to K-la and Cialtyn. Its fucking weird. but hot when I did it to Auutmn cuz shes kinky like that. uhhmm whut else ummhh..
Autumn made me choose between her or pot. I chose her becuase I'm not willing to lose her over soemthing this stupid. I mean thats a bitch thing to say but w/e . She never forgave me for the YmCa thing. OOHH and the other day at the Y a guy came up to me and was talking to me as I was moping the outside.. yeah i know.. he said "hey i dont mean this to be funny. .but if i gave your friends some joints would they come work for us? cuz you guys are good?" I was like "is that supposed to be funny??" Cuz i was shocked.. I didnt know whut to say He said "well I prewarned you" then I just gave him a dirty look and he walked away. I told my mom and she flipped shit. And now  the only community service I have to do is for collage! wooh!!
Hmmm... have I writeen enough? Spring break sucks ass here! holy shit it was boring. the highlight of my past 2 weeks were the party. OMg it was so cute. I was laying on autumns lap and she leaned over to get her drink and then she came back and looked at me and was like "your so cute" and kissed me. ::dies::  I loved that. I mean the night woul dhave been perfect if she wasnt so weirded out about pot.. or if caitlyn just didnt bring up the topic and get me into trouble. Cuz i really wanted to do it. but she forbid me from doing it. She got so pissed. I feel bad now. But then I was like.. fuck that! I'll do whut I want. Its not like I"M going to die from it. Shes the one taking a 20 second hit from a cigerette. Thats bullshit. But w/e I need to shower.
Xanga sucks dude. Nobody has it anymore!! haha only Brittany and Sarah read it. lol
Oh and Britt. I dont remember the thing with the onion graass. I mean I'm sure I tried it cuz i'm a retard but lol thats pretty gross.Thanks for the eCard too! Miss ya lovies!