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Friday, May 12, 2006

Fri, 12 May 2006 21:04:05 GMT

Yay Me and Autumn are dating again! haha well .. not again but I said it cuz my other entry said somethng like that lol.
but things are going to well right now. I mean her mom found a note that she wrote to be. so her mom knows about her dating.. i'm nto sure if shes to mad about that or about the fact that it mentions drugs in it.. I dunno. I'm confuzed... but I cant see her as much as I could before now.. it makes me sad.

this guy from AFI looks like a gurl.. sorry i'm watching TRL

peace out

yay

Tue, 18 Apr 2006 23:25:59 GMT

yay!! Autumn and I are good again! Wooh!!

I love her!!

Ok

Thu, 06 Apr 2006 22:17:25 GMT

OK well me and Autumn apparently arent friends anymore. I told her that I didnt want her caring about me smoking pot but I wanted her to still care about me. She wrote back saying "well I dont care about either right now". Today at school, she didnt talk to me or look at me... I was in an okay mood tho. I guess it hasnt hit me yet. I dunno. I'm trying to make her feel guilty. Making her see that it doesnt bother me. Yet everytime I look at my wrist I think of her. Yeah yeah. I know.. sorry.. but w/e ...

Yeah well life sucks here! wooh I love it

Ready to die

Tue, 04 Apr 2006 18:57:49 GMT

Jesus.. not a day goes by where Autumn isnt mad at me. I'm fucking done with this shit. I fucking hate it here. I'm all fucking alone. I'm tired of fighting with her. I dont want to anymore. Why cant she just be happy with me for once. I never do aything wrong. She just finds little things to pick at and get mad at me for. So I bought a gram of cript today. Thas pretty cool. Cant wait for that. But she's pissed for that. When she said she didnt care if I smoked or not.
She's also pissed at me cause I called this kid CK, whom she likes more than me obviously, Emo. Which he is. I mean if you were to see him.. you would think "wow talk about the most emo est kid ever!" so somehow she found out I said that. Alyssa prolly told her or something. Thats shit. She finds out everything. so whatever. I'm done with this shit. Fuck it..

KICK ASS PARTY!!

Sun, 26 Mar 2006 22:56:40 GMT

woot. okay last night was caitlyns bday party. it was kick ass. Thru out the day when we were outside of her room we all just chilled and watched movies [[we=Caitlyn, Autumn, Kayla, Me, Alyssa--ex]] then later on we ewnt to play truth or dare. now just think a whole bunch of single BISEXUAL gurls, playing truth or dare!! =O! lol so we like all made out iwth each other the whole night, we did other stuff too. like kiss stomachs and necks and boobs. Then Autumn [[kinky little shit she is]] thought it was cool for somebody to choke her while making out. so natrually I tried it first. I was holding her neck and we were making out and she pushes harder on my hand. that shit is fucking hott! lemme tell you. I tried it and I dont like it as much when I'm dong it to them. I didnt make out with Alyssa at all cuz thats gross lol. or weird.. but I kissed her chest and stuff cuz it was a dare. but it was the hottest party ever. AND THEN **breathes**
then caitlyn breaks out the weed. I was fucking so happy. but autumn [[being the buzzkill that she is]] flips shit at me saying she hasnt forgave me for the ryan thing and that I cant smoke. But I was like fuck that so I smoked and she got pisesed the FUCKKKK off and she called her mom and she got picked up [[this was at like 3 in themorning]] So I was blazed the whole night. And like at 6 45 my neighbor was coming to pick me up for work. YEAH!! WTF?! lol So i just stayed up all night thinking it would be best just not to fall asleep. We all slept 4 to Caitlyns bed. that sucks lol. I didnt fall asleep at all really. Caitlyn moves alot in her sleep. oh but okay Kayla-- she likes me. So she was all excited to be making out iwth me. but its all good. Caitlyn and Autumn have their tongues pierced. Holly hottness!!! I made out with cAITLYN alot. shes goooood!! then later Autumn and I got dared to do stuff. she got dared to do what ever she wants with me. so she like [[uhh cant remember.. did something totally hott tho]] . And then she sugessted the choking thing. Shes like "I find it so hott when people are choking you when you make out" all 4 of us were like HUH!? So caitlyn tries it on autumn first but doens tknow how. So i'm like I'll try. SO i do and its SOOOO NIIICE. she was like groping me and shit. then I did it to K-la and Cialtyn. Its fucking weird. but hot when I did it to Auutmn cuz shes kinky like that. uhhmm whut else ummhh..
Autumn made me choose between her or pot. I chose her becuase I'm not willing to lose her over soemthing this stupid. I mean thats a bitch thing to say but w/e . She never forgave me for the YmCa thing. OOHH and the other day at the Y a guy came up to me and was talking to me as I was moping the outside.. yeah i know.. he said "hey i dont mean this to be funny. .but if i gave your friends some joints would they come work for us? cuz you guys are good?" I was like "is that supposed to be funny??" Cuz i was shocked.. I didnt know whut to say He said "well I prewarned you" then I just gave him a dirty look and he walked away. I told my mom and she flipped shit. And now the only community service I have to do is for collage! wooh!!
Hmmm... have I writeen enough? Spring break sucks ass here! holy shit it was boring. the highlight of my past 2 weeks were the party. OMg it was so cute. I was laying on autumns lap and she leaned over to get her drink and then she came back and looked at me and was like "your so cute" and kissed me. ::dies:: I loved that. I mean the night woul dhave been perfect if she wasnt so weirded out about pot.. or if caitlyn just didnt bring up the topic and get me into trouble. Cuz i really wanted to do it. but she forbid me from doing it. She got so pissed. I feel bad now. But then I was like.. fuck that! I'll do whut I want. Its not like I"M going to die from it. Shes the one taking a 20 second hit from a cigerette. Thats bullshit. But w/e I need to shower.
Xanga sucks dude. Nobody has it anymore!! haha only Brittany and Sarah read it. lol
Oh and Britt. I dont remember the thing with the onion graass. I mean I'm sure I tried it cuz i'm a retard but lol thats pretty gross.Thanks for the eCard too! Miss ya lovies!

Thursday, March 23, 2006

Thu, 23 Mar 2006 12:04:12 GMT

Hey. I"ve been having so many dreams with Boston in them. I dream about this being all a vacation and my baby is waiting for me at home. Hes there. I keep dreaming that I go visit and hes the first thing I want to see. I go hug him. and hes really there. I feel like I could just wake up and this all be a dream, I'll be back in my own bed in my stupid butterfly room and STAIRS.. and my baby right down stairs. I would go lay with him. Lay on his big stomach and listen to his heartbeat. THis is all a dream. Why cant it be? I want to see him again. Pictures just arent enough. He would love it here. The fresh air and the pool. He would roll around in the grass and run throughtout the house.

Please tell me this is all a dream. I want to wake up now

Wednesday, March 22, 2006

Wed, 22 Mar 2006 00:04:22 GMT

well i'm bored how about I write. I'm on our Spring Break !!! Pretty cool pretty cool. So today I had a dentist appt. that sucked. Then we drove around a while and did some stuffs. Later we went to a place called the Boiling Pot or somethin like that. Its a fondue pleace and its freaking cool. we ate fruit with chocolate and stuff like that. it was really good. Cameron got new glasses. I was SO close to getting colored contacts. even tho I dont need glasses. I just think they're cool looking.

hmm what else... I dont know. i dont feel like writing i'm bored now. so later sk8er

Lifes a bitch.. where did I go wrong??

Thu, 02 Mar 2006 18:42:18 GMT

hey... well I got into some trouble last night. and like my mom says "when you get into trouble morgan... you REALLY get into trouble" yeah ... so I had to delete myspace. but whutever. I fucked up my relationship with Autumn like really really bad. so idk how taht ganna turn out. I wrote her a note then she wrote me back and I got pissed and then I wrote a worse note back. So yeah ... i just dug myself into a deeper grave. wooh

Well.. yeah I'm grounded Idk how much longer I can be on here. I also got kicked off the swim team for Swim Florida. So I wont be doing that. And I got suspended for the first 21 days of the swim season. I bet your all itching to know what dumbass stunt I pulled. Idk if I'll tell you tho. I might tell a few.. like Krysta... but idk about the others. lol. sorry. Its not that important to you anyway. I just screwed MY life over.. and apparently Autumns as well even tho she has NOTHING to do with it cuz she wasnt there.. her boyfriend was. No i didnt do anything with her boyfriend [[just smoke pot]] [[[in a really stupid place]]] so shes incredably pissed at me but not at ryan. so wtf. How can she be so mad at me when Ryan is his own person and could have said no at any point but he didnt. so now shes on the verge of disowning me as friend. and shes really all I have down here I mean she knows everythng bout me and ... idk.. its just really sucky right now. My rents arent really that mad. but they never really are which I guess is a good thing right. Ryan and Stevens rents arent that mad either.. but idk. usualy they'd be beating them but luckily they got off of that train.

Title ?!

Wed, 22 Feb 2006 20:35:36 GMT

Looook!! There is no ad at the top wheeee!! My cute little background!! hehe I loves it

Hmm nothing has been going on.. i'm going back to Swimming tomorrow. So yeah tahts cool. Hmm.. I wish I could tell you my feelings but I cant really explain it. You know that feeling you get when you zone off and you feel like nothing around you is really "there" or real and yet your still breathing. Thats how I feel everyday. Thats the only way I can explain it. It just sucks. Nothing is right living here. I came to my house today and it was all sunny and windy and nice. but it made me think of walking home with Krysta and going into my living room and our doors would be open and our windows and its just amazingly feeling. But not here. Nothing is right here.
Yeah

Wednesday, February 15, 2006

Wed, 15 Feb 2006 00:34:36 GMT

damn .. dontchya hate valentines day??

I do! like a whole god damn bunch.

Ughhhhh...
i hate it here