.LIFE.

                           its happening, its really really happenging, right now.

everything is going swell like. i wake up at 7 every morning. groggy, disoriented, but good none the less. (is none the less three words or one -nonetheless-?) no idea. anyways put on what little makeup i can get on my face while fighting my early morning fatigue. drive to work. clock in. hold the screaming babies, rock them to sleep, singing lullabys and love songs for their precious little ears. saying "sorries", "are you oks", and "well that wasnt very nice was its" all day long. consoling the teary eyed children. clock out. drive home. i usually nap around this time. closing my shades, turn on the air. and sleep like i havent slept in months. sometimes ill sleep for hours. 3 or 4. the time passes so quickly when you sleep. no worries. no fears. no fighting, or tears. i wake up just as groggy as the morning rituals. lay in my bed, listen to the birds, thank God for life, and love and beauty. those three things i always thank him for. every night.

life

love

beauty

life is beautiful. i live to love. love is beautiful.

all throughout these seemingly meaningless days i so often have. i think of a certain boy. a boy who makes me blush and takes naps with me. he never gave up when i told him i wasnt ticklish. he kisses me on the hand and tells me im beautiful. calls me to hear my voice and let me know that he loves me. a boy who holds my hands in front of his friends and so proudly says "this is my girl mae" this boy has a name and my heart.

          thomas earl weaver.

i love you forever

<3

may God bless, and keep you.

maebelle

                    joy is rushin through my bones!

yea so i have a new song up.

im not really sure why i still update this thing. im almost 100% sure only like 3 people read it. hmm. o well have a good day

maE

say this like your bradley hathway, it will make more sense that way

i want to..

EXPLODE with love and show the world that i am here for one reason and one reason alone. and that is to love

to love all things and people i encounter....to show love to the extent that no man or woman has ever come across or ever will come across. i feel the need to sing at THE TOP OF MY LUNGS, to let all you lovEly people know how much you mean to me. im my time of despair....you are always there. not to sound corny. but really.

i need to BREAK FREE from all my burdens and obstructions that lie in my way. i want to share the love that i have in my heart with all who i walk past, dine with, never met but would like to, have met but would like to get to know alot better,.(because i want to know you with all of my heart) let them know that there is NO LIMIT to the love that i have in my soul. so im here to let you know.

LOVE. hear it loud and clear. that is why im here.

and if i dont know you, come up to me and say a plesant hello. for i would LOVE to LOVE you and tell you that i NEED you and be best friends and do things that best friends do like....

act stupid in public together,

tell secrets, give secrets and MAKE secrets,

roll on the floor laughing so hard and worry for fear that your lungs may burst any moment and you stop and realize that you dont even care. because you are in the prescene of one you LOVE.

and i truely do.

your LOVE will never mean so much to a person as it does to me. every breath, and word. every step and stumble. i WANT to know and i WANT to listen. because i LOVE you. and care for you.

and yes, i do want LOOOVELOOOOVE too. not just your everyday, run of the mill type love where you sit on he same side of the table at dinner. no. I want to gaze into your eyes all night and never for a second think of doing any different. i want to stay there and feel LOVE, and i want you to do the same as you look into my eyes. i want you to KNOW that in that moment the walls could fall around me and nothing would matter because you were in my prescene. i want that type of LOVE.

a LOVE that doesnt fear or fret for that is all you need to survive

a LOVE that never ceases to amaze and captures others interest as they walk by. people would notice the LOVE that we share and envy us for it.

without your LOVE that i am so graciously given, i would be nothing. and know that, for i am now telling you this. your LOVE is my life. and my LOVE is all yours for the taking. so take it.

i wanted to share this with you.