okay so i went a little crazy yesterday and i gained two lbs... blah.. idk why i do that.. i see that im doing well and im losing weight then i eat like crazy and wonder why i get upset about gaining weight.. i need some self control. i need to punish myself whenever i do that crap. I guess i can't be to mad at myself because im the one who did it. i really didn't eat much today though... so i think i lost a little. hopefully... and i do mean hopefully.. i wont eat like a fatty again anytime soon. I know ill do it sometime but i want it to be way down the line when i can afford to gain a lb or two not now when im striving so hard to lose this weight. On a good note.. i went to the physicall therapist today.. he was really nice his name is Andy. I have to go twice a week and get massages and work out my muscles and everything.. well today the guy who gave me my massage was so gorgeous he made me blush. I think he was hitting on me too he kept asking me about myself and what i do and all that and he kept joking with me.. and to top it all off instead of making me wear a hospital gown lol he just had me pull my shirt down off my shoulders.. wooooo it was hott. well i hope you all are doing good.

Sincerely,
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