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Thursday, March 24, 2005

Thu, 24 Mar 2005 14:33:55 GMT

so i weighed 156 this morning.. not that anyone cares because obviously no one reads my xanga... so i think im gonna quit writing because it's a waste of my time.. i haven't gotten any comments in like 2 weeks so i hope you all do well with the rest of your journeys.. shoot for the moon and if you succeed at least you'll still be among the stars ladies.

Thursday, March 24, 2005

Thu, 24 Mar 2005 03:51:16 GMT

okay so i went a little crazy yesterday and i gained two lbs... blah.. idk why i do that.. i see that im doing well and im losing weight then i eat like crazy and wonder why i get upset about gaining weight.. i need some self control. i need to punish myself whenever i do that crap. I guess i can't be to mad at myself because im the one who did it. i really didn't eat much today though... so i think i lost a little. hopefully... and i do mean hopefully.. i wont eat like a fatty again anytime soon. I know ill do it sometime but i want it to be way down the line when i can afford to gain a lb or two not now when im striving so hard to lose this weight. On a good note.. i went to the physicall therapist today.. he was really nice his name is Andy. I have to go twice a week and get massages and work out my muscles and everything.. well today the guy who gave me my massage was so gorgeous he made me blush. I think he was hitting on me too he kept asking me about myself and what i do and all that and he kept joking with me.. and to top it all off instead of making me wear a hospital gown lol he just had me pull my shirt down off my shoulders.. wooooo it was hott. well i hope you all are doing good.

Sincerely,
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Tuesday, March 22, 2005

Tue, 22 Mar 2005 15:45:50 GMT

okay so i weighed 156 this morning.. 4 lbs to go until i've lost 20... hopefully that i can keep at this and get to 139 before summer. It's shooting high, but i'm a dreamer.. and i shoot for the stars. Well i hope you all are having a great day~ Love you !

Sincerely,
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Sunday, March 20, 2005

Sun, 20 Mar 2005 16:48:02 GMT

it was so nice to be lazy this morning.. i woke up at like 8 but i just layed in bed with nothin to do.. it's been so long since i've been able to do that. I feel rejuvinated.. is that weird? i think something was wrong with the scale the other day when it said i weighed 155 because the next morning i weighed like 159... and now i weigh like 158.. so idk i think it goes crazy sometimes or something. so now i have 6 lbs to lose.. if the scale was right. you know to any normal person 3 lbs wouldn't be a big deal, but to me it makes me so sad to think about that for that one day i weighed 155 or so it said and now i weigh 158... i just wanna get down to 120... i just wanna lose like 38 more lbs...hopefully i can lose at least half of that by summertime.. i wanna look skinny in a bathing suit.. im so incredibly scared of summer right now. So if I lose 19 lbs by the time summer is here ill weigh 139.. so i have a little over two months.. im hoping so bad that I can do this. if i think about it this way though.. i once weighed 179... disgusting I know.. and if i can push myself to where I am now.. I can push myself to be where I want to. I love you all and I hope you have a great week next week.

Sincerely,
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Saturday, March 19, 2005

Sat, 19 Mar 2005 18:34:57 GMT

I went and got my nose pierced today.. it's really cute I did it on the left side. It made my eyes water, but I realy like it. My mom hates it, yet she's the one that took me to get it done. I think her whole logic was that she would rather take me to a sterile place then have me get it done from one of my friends. It cost me 60 dollars. Oh well it was worth it! I'm doing good on my diet still I didn't reach my 20 lb loss by yesterday, but it wont take me much longer for that. I hope you all are doing great. Love you all!

Sincerely,
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Thursday, March 17, 2005

Thu, 17 Mar 2005 04:03:27 GMT

im so sick of everything.. i'm ready for spring break.. it seems like i can't win no matter what the fuck i do. I want to eat some chocolate like 10 lbs of it and tell everyone to fuck off while i get even fatter.. i wont ever lose enough weight it's always going to be one more damn lb... always... hopefully ill just whither the hell away... Have a wonderful fucking week.

Sincerely,
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Tuesday, March 15, 2005

Tue, 15 Mar 2005 02:59:56 GMT

I weighed 155 this morning... 3 lbs to go until i've lost 20 i can't freaking believe it. way to go me. lol hope you all are doing well ! wish me luck this week.. 3 lbs 3 lbs 3 lbs...

Sincerely,
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Tuesday, March 08, 2005

Tue, 08 Mar 2005 21:25:53 GMT

I weighed 159 this morning... im so excited! I officially have 7 lbs to lose by the 21st. Think I can do it? wish me luck ladies I love you all and stay strong!

Sincerely,
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Friday, March 04, 2005

Fri, 04 Mar 2005 20:32:16 GMT

well i weighed 161 this morning.. so if i keep it at this rate i'll be losing 1 lb a day. woo hoo. I hope you all have a great weekend and stay strong!

Sincerely,
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Thursday, March 03, 2005

Thu, 03 Mar 2005 12:22:37 GMT

woo hoo i weighed 162 this morning... i thought it was going to be 161 because it went down to 161.8 but then it went up to 162 so blah lol. well hope you all have a great day today!