Funny how things work out.

At least when it comes to me, heh. I mean I should be used to it. Actually I suppose that I am. I am not terribly sad. I just feel so stupid for as usual, wasting an unhealthy amount of time on a boy who isn't interested. Granted he isn't interested in girls at all, so that would explain the lack of imense saddness. I guess because he isn't rejecting me on the basis that I wasn't pretty enough, or cool enough, just that I wasn't "man enough" for him. At 1:16 in the morning, the man enough joke literally made me laugh out loud. I am sitting here, laughing at myself, typing a xanga entry. I must say thats a little pathetic.

Anyways, I think that I want to update this more regularly because I really do like to look back and see what I was feeling. Also its somewhat thereputic. I am sure that is spelled wrong, I am typing on my dads computer therefore it doesn't have spell check on the internet. Which by the way saves me from looking like an unintelligent ass most of the time.

So I have been feeling really guilty over the whole Elijah situation. I am just so mad at him, but all I want to do it talk to him. ARRRGGGG. Douches, douches, douches.

I am sure I will update tomorrow with understandable rants of the boy persuasion.