Helooooooooooooooooooo pumpkin ppl!! ha haha. so now that i got that ugly face off of my backgreound(thank u ashton hah) i have a lovely background of the phenomenal TAKING BACK SUNDAY playing music. ah, yes.

well today was horrible..ugh. but SCRATCH today. FUCK IT. haha. things have ben cool lateluy. the other nite i went with ashton to his band practice and he id relaly good. rawr. scary. lol...they will have a record deal in NO time. <3 Ashtons one friend Sherman tried to go 120 mph in his little car i wasa in the back and iw as FREAKING out. omg omg. but it was fun. ashtons friends are happy lil ppl. lol

this weekend me and ashton just toked up a whole bunch and ate...yeah. but it was really fun.wre hung out with a poo load of ppl too!!! WOOO I LOVE BEING FUCKED UP. ah yummy. I miss amber i wanna smoke with her so we can run around like crazeh ppl! woo hoooo!!!!

i started at eat n park, supporting the little family of me and ashton.

I love ashton to death, but sometimes I feel like i haven no one else. I guess thats kind of a good thing cus i can REALLY trust him, but if i lost him id have nothign. seriously. i see ppl and i just wanna cry. everyone is laways so happ. but i ghuess i aam just like anyone else.

my stomach problems arent nearly over yet. i have reall y bad acid reflux and theres something wrong with my lower abdomen slash ovarish things. haha listen.

i love senses fail! ah i do do . i bought ashton the cd but i decided to borow it ubntil he could burn it for me. YAY! I bouight him 2 cds this weekend!!!! ARENT I THE BEST? yes yes i am. but ashtons better. no wrys gees. im silly.

listen and look...SENSES FAIL!

Don't try to be cute with me
Cause I know you hate yourself.
And you'd end your stupid lies now
but your too spineless.

Just like the lady in the blue dress,
You've got cigarettes on your breath,
Hairspray and some cheap perfume

You say that you want respect
Well then you better get some for yourself.
Cause all that I see right now,
Is someone whose lost and encircled.
senses fail

ah the beuaty.

I LOVE ASHTON WALKDEN FOREVER. we will have babis togther@!!!!!!!

casper alexander and rylee morgan! YES!!!!!!! I LOVE HIM!<3

hehehehehe hunnie. sorry i had to do it i was bored and i figured wat harm it would do to u. Now ur prolbay thinking right now who the fuck am i going to get my background on that was before this welll ill give u a hint: its on the computer somewhere maybe right in front of ur face well its around thats all that matters hehehe.

 I love u pumpkin head Mawh \

AShton

I just wrote a lot of xanga but ashton shut off the puter cus he wasmad. haha but i love him.

I cant write now of my many adventures of seeing cops and smoking at huge blunt cus ashton is a poop. lol

hes in a band blah blah blah i had some reaklly goo d shit in here but now iim blank. GOD DAMMIT. im never online. i never get to talk to anyone online. it sucks. I miss having a whole bunch of friends that I rely on but atleast i have ashton.

last nite was super fun we met this kid named cody and he as super cool.  he is def someone me and ashton will continue to chill with. work is long but i make new friends there all the time. I guess they can make up for all the ppl ive lost,

This weekend should be super fun hanging out with ashtons band group thing and all their girlfriends plus me. and we r doing fun fun things.  yay. Friday nite im goungto see the fog with samantha and her bf plus my bf.

things havebeen really great lately ive been staying aay from bad and staying close to good things. i guess. ive ben partying too. things are getting harder the older I get GEES. but i guess since i dont have any more drama to worry about i can just keep movng forward.

yay! ok ppl call me i have a cell now!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! it is rally exciting u know. my 18th bday is coming up and me n emily r planning something big and everyone is welcome.

oh I am sad rite now and i dont know why.

bye, oh yeah listen to MCR. no mattter how much i listen to their cd they rock evn more. i also lov senses fails new stuff. YES!!!!! and funeral for a friend. GO EMO. haha.. im a dork.

<3

HeY!!! The last couple days have ben pretty neato, pretty cool beans. Work has been okay.  sometimes ppl piss me off and some of the people at work i just love. Ive made a lot of really good friends at work that are alot better then the small selection i have at school! yeah!

So nex time i get some good money and no bills, im gonna go shopping for some real cool clothes and maybe even get a new wardrobve. i think I wanna buy really different stuff for my creative outlook. mm i love shoes clothes and bags. lol. too bad i have bills and gas money. *sad face* plus a poor family that cant lend a money hand,.but thats okay with me! Not everyone can have a million dolllars to give so ive learned to accept my familys poorness. ugh. lol

Me and ashton have been getting super st**ed lately i just have to admit it.  Its ben crazy. we bought 120 worth. buit its always ours , we share cus we love each other! awww. Weve ben doing really great spendng alot of quality time withe ach other and just talking for ever aboiut ANYTHING we can think of.  we always have our own little parties and they rock. just me and ashton a bowl and everything i could ever want. even if we had nothing i swear i just could be with him and be happy.

so last weekend me and AMBER  hung out it was uberly funn! we did a DOUBLE DATE! ambers so pretty, i love her we get along good cus we r both CRAZY PPL. haha. or maybe i should say PSYCHO. in a good way. haha. me her WILLARD (ashton) inside joke. and kyle had a good time at super buffet. kyles just a dork haha. and then me and amber r weird and ashtons just well hs crazy and adorable. lol. so me ashton and amber got real bakeed, and laughd and screamed and sat in the back togther and bugged the hell out of our bfs!!!! TODAY me and amber toked up at her crib and we laughed and laughed. haha. i gav her INSTRUCTIONS on sucking. hahahahah!!!! oh whatilly girls we are.

Im glad im starting to come out of my shell. i havent been depressed in a really long time. Actually today at work me and some girl at work wee bitching back and forth but i won so i decided not to get depressed over it. if it causes problems i say oh well. im so happy rite now so balanced.

there is one really bad thing tho

im having horrible problems with my PANCREAS, KIDNEYS AND TUMMY. i dont mean ro be gross or anything, but ive ben puking non stop and missing a buttload of school, cus of going to the hospital.  my stomahcs  a bitch to take care of , i have kind of a little diet. i just wann get BETTER so i can live more comfertably. *sadness*

Ugh sometimes I think i have too much of a copnscious. i always say the stupidest shit and then I regret it. AHHHH AARON CALM DOWN U R NOT THE BIGGSY LOSER EVER. are maybe i am .. haha. no i cant think that way! ahhh im supposed to be happy.

so i guess ill go eat some pizza and watch catch me if u can with ASHTON. then go home  tak sleping pills and go to BED.

aw i love you.

can i please have like one comment? god, please??!!!

did u guys know jared leto sings?? hes good and SEXY. lol(not as sexy as ashton tho)

awww the last couple of dAYS have been neat. i got a job serving at Eat n Park haha. i start oct 25th serving. yay. come to eat n park and ask for my section. ha.

THE OTHER DAY AT COLLEGE fair me jess g and kenny decided to represnt lycoming college.  it was an empty table anf there was nothing better to do. ( no cripples) haha.

yessss work has been fine..i made a friend and we hang out all the time now her names samantha and she is gorgeous and fu.n. she lives in etters, and we bake together all the time. we also spread out pictures and eat green beans haha inside joke haha. "wtf wwhy are a;ll these people parked everywhere? ew."

" its a parking lot, psh".

so im at ashtons. i ove him. weve been doing great lately spenig our weekend together, alll the time i love it! we always find something fun to do togetheR<3

AW I LOVE ASHTON.

kbye

oh yeah did i mention that i am in love with taking back sunday? well now i did.