At Home for the Holidays
"Sometimes what people look like on the outside doesn't truthfully portray what their like on the inside." I say that because sometimes we can even fool ourselves by our own facades. I haven't understood why the Holiday season could be so difficult until this year. Not saying that I've lost anyone or am disconnected to my family, I'm not unthankful for my family, but I've often found myself wishing I was closer to one somebody than I am to the 8 somebodies who have watched me most of life grow into who I am now; writing this post. I've gone without a "special someone" since last year around Valentines day, and have thought before that the Holiday season is a better time than any to be with someone, unfortunately none of my relationships (only 2 so far) have lasted beyond Valentines day. Loneliness sets in and I've watched even my little sister find a "friend" to attach to for the Holiday season and most likely longer. As a bystander I've come to wonder about people who don't understand who and what they have in their lives to see them through this season of cold nights and watching young couples in love stick it out through some of the possibly harder times that I havn't been able to ace yet. I only pray my future Mrs. Bacon isn't as wanting as I am and that she by some miracle could be satisfied with her family untill I open my eyes and see her. This is a problem that doesn't really have a solution, and maybe I don't want an answer to put it the way the character Kathleen Kelly said it "I don't really want an answer, I just want to send this question out into the void so goodnight my dear void." But untill then I remain ever yours.
-Y&S
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